Real special thanks to all my friends who turned up for the party yesterday...

*Pam
*TY
*SH
*SimL
*YF
*YJ
*Elne
*HL
*Sand
*Jas
*Krn

And my aunt who woke up so very early in the morning despite her lack of sleep to help me in the preparation works.

Thanks for my aunt, grandma n the spoilt brat for turnin up too..

Thanks to dad n mom.. I really hope mom can recover soon..

And thanks to pillow who gave me three scratches and a bite when i wanna groom him..

Thanks to all.. =D

Mom got hyperventilation again yesterday night and she's sent to the hospital.. She's better now, but i hope she can overcome this with determination since the doctor says they may be more future attacks. It was solely due to stress. Mom better quits her job.. Mom, get well soon..

Woke up around nine plus today. Another day had passed. Tomorrow will be the day I turned 19. Last tenth- in my life.

Talked with RR on the phone yesterday and we're both going to study chinese in the uni. She now wanted to sign up for the orientation too and things seemed brighter from the fact that I got someone to discuss about the course with me now. At least I don't need to face this alone. Very soon, no choice, I gotta enter this new phase of life.

By the way! Where's my blogging friends? Haha. Everyone stopped blogging..

Going to work later. There's this china lady whom I can't really stand her. Who says Singaporeans are kiasu? I think there are more kiasu peeps from the foreign nations. I just really can't stand her. She came to photocopy some papers yesterday and i remembered her as I was the person who served her few weeks ago. Yesterday was my uncle. She had a few sets of documents to be copied and she wanted like 20 copies for each set. Can you believe it? She just waste your time by putting the papers on your machine and start counting the papers one by one to make sure there are twenty. For God's sake. So she had many sets. So this process just repeated for a few more times. It's not like she gotta pay thousands for it. In the end, after an hour, the total cost is just a mere 6 bucks.. WTH..

She then started to stroll the shop, as if looking for something. And good old me ignored her presence. Busy doing some shelvings. Then she came up to me and asked me if we do sell plastic covers for exercise books; those ready made ones.. I brought her to that shelf and she just grabbed one and said it's too short for an exercise book. I told her it's the actual size and if she don't believe it she can try it. Then she went to grab one exercise book and started forcing the book into the covers. I can tell that the exercise book was in the process of doom in her clumsy hands. I then volunteered to put in the covers for her and she stood back and watched. It fitted in perfectly. She then complained that the plastic cover is abit tattered and she would not spend a single cent on it and she rushed out of the shop. Tell you, I could have crushed a thousand cans with one blow of fist from that irritation.

Cheapskate.

Late postings again! Lazy me..

Well, been real busy lately with the job all this and had been meeting up with some friends recently, especially TY.. Went to orchard on tuesday n it was another shoppin spree again. Went back to pj in the morning with pam to look for Laoyang and had some chats.. was planning to collect the a level certificate that day as well. turned out that the gp grade was eliminated from that paper.. great.. as if i never take gp before.. haha.. i don't know whether to be happy or sad about it since i don't expect a failed grade appearing there as well..

Before that, on Monday, mom really scared the hell out of me.. On the way back home, had received a series of calls from dad and aunts, telling me that mom is in a seriously ill condition and the ambulance was arriving to send her to the hospital. Really rushed my way back and having a whole lot of scary thoughts hovering in my head. She was having breathing difficulties and near to losing consciousness. Well, turned out that she had been attacked by hyperventilation and i don't know what is it and it seemed that it occurred due to some medical complications. She had just started eating some new kind of medicine and her body rejected it by this way. Luckily, she got discharged that night and after two days of rest at home, she seemed to be better.. Life is weak huh..

Still can't believe that this friday would be my birthday.. Happy birthday to me.. Haha.. Time really flies huh, or should i say sprint? haha.. whatever.. Looking forward to Saturday.. Pillow is a sticky hair ball now. Gotta bathe him this saturday morning too.. =D

Took the QET ytdy.. somethin abt global warmin, n renewable resources.. erm.. wat can i say? loads of people, n the test result is announcing at 2nd aug.. hope i can do well..

Went to sign up for the orientatn wif tingyi after the test, n it's far away at city hall.. going to this orientatn alone, hope things turn out well.. went to orchard to have lunch.. nice.. shoppin n strollin ard at wisma, heeren n thereafter, cine.. went to eat the ex ice-cream, n saw a couple sharing an ice-cream, dipping fruits into hot choco n feedin each other.. so envy them.. it's been so long since...

Met up wif pam later on n we head to cwp, goin to stuff ourselves wif sakae buffet.. n ya.. real stuffed up.. n it's painful.. haha.. i think till now i haven digest it totally, din eat much today n i stil dun feel hungry.. but there's this guilt trip of feelin fat goin on..

Went to wk today n bought a load of stationaries.. nice.. wan new things for the new term in the new sch.. bought some files to sought out my messy papers.. n clean up my room till now.. well, it's real nice.. i sudd love my room.. haha.. alot! but i stil dun dare to slp in it.. hmm..

Tml's sunday.. stil gotta wk...

Brought pillow to its 3rd vaccinatn ytdy.. went to the semb branch of Mt Pleasant.. erm, wat can i say, the vet is cool.. not that i fancy her, but her attitude is dam cool.. n dun seem friendly.. well, asked her lotsa questns n stil cant realli get most of the ans we need..

She said pillow's first two vaccinatns had been taken too closely, n so that's considered as one time, not two.. so need to take again, but dad they all were complainin that this is nuisance.. how can it just not be considered since it's injected into the body.. den regardin pillow's poo eatin habit, she just plainly said that that we had to change its mentallity by trainin it.. well, it's always more easy to say..

She examined pillow n advised us to give pillow a feacal examinatn, since pillow is just always having wet stools, so she examined pillow, n said pillow got some parasites infested in its intestines, n gotta give it medicatn.. well, nice.. n now wheneva pillow saw me headin to him wif a syringe in the hand he'd back away..

den she taught me abit on how to clip pillow's nails coz it growin long, n she was kinda like scolding.. first askin, who is the person who tc of pillow? den when i said it's me, she said, come i gotta teach u how to clip its nails.. nails when long must be clipped, if not.... n the lecture goes on..

nice cool first vet i met..

Just checked the venue for this fri's test.. well, sports hall5, hmm.. think i'm goin there myself le ba..

Nice.. =D

"Nobody's Home" -Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.

And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Went to the medical checkup ytdy.. went there super early, but i'm still the tenth.. got quite a few early birds too.. seemed like my faculty got alot of girls n very little boys.. n wat can i say, i finally got a glimpse of my potential sch mates, n it's quite.."diao"..

Kinda lonely there despite my parents accompany, but it seemed like many lucky gals there got their friends wif them, n only a few lost birds n souls like me.. those wif friends seemed friendly n they smile at u when u smile at them, n those on their own, just dun look up at all..

Quite a few "chicks" here n there.. n "butchers".. haha.. n some look like they just came back from overseas, got a thick accent of australia or america or whereeva place u can think of.. n some plain tee-shirt n jeans gals who looks smart n dun seemed to graduate from a lousy JC..

Saw some china peeps there too, n they're by themselves, yet they dun look friendly.. like tryin to upgrade their social status, they just stare sidely at any one who passed by..wicked..

Went to SGH later on wif mom n dad, coz mom gotta have a blood test.. so took a bus there n not a long wait though.. just takin the blood test n we're off.. mom suggested goin to Queensway shoppin ctr to take a look at the shoes (bday present from my aunt) n goin to IKEA.. she wanna buy a studyin table for me..

So, after choosin n runnin from shop to shop, i decided to buy converse shoes instead.. duno y, i think converse is nicer.. nv tried other brands b4 but i stil support converse.. waha.. so end up buyin one that looks quite like my previous one, jus that it has got a silver lining..

Den head off to IKEA.. mom n dad enjoy shoppin there.. walk n walk, n finally decided to buy a table top n 4 table legs.. DIY.. den it's so much cheaper compared to normal rates of a table like this.. cool.. took a taxi home..

Pillow is so hungry coz no one feeds him.. poor pillow.. his normal lunch time is 3pm but we reached home at abt 6pm.. n as expected, it screamed like hell when it saw us.. haha.. sorry pillow..

Went shoppin wif pam, el n sl ytdy.. it was really a big shoppin day for us.. went to town area n bought quite alot of things.. was like a girl's day, doin all those girlly things like window shoppin, gossiping, eatin, being amazed by cute n nice things.. quite fun..

Bought quite alot of things for myself.. n all r shirts.. these shirts r quite a bargain, thanks to great spore sale.. haha.. bought a black mickey mouse tee n as my frens said, i had too much black shirt.. n ya true, most shirt in my wardrobe r black.. n wat else? bought a pmk white tee, i like it coz there r wings on d back.. n another is a plain black top that really satisfies the conditn for my medical checkup wear.. no beads, no prints, no logos, no collars n wateva..

ya, going for medical checkup tml.. gotta wake up early..

thanks to pam who came to my hse early in the morn to help me bath pillow.. still gotta wash its crate.. n its super smelly.. wld nv have finish it wifout spending it half of my day, if not wif the help of pam.. really thanks to her.. if u're readin this, thank you!!! really appreciate it..

bought somethin for WL n actually thot of buyin one more, but dun seem to find anythin suitable n nice.. maybe gotta shop again..

Pam bought a weird lookin hp pouch, n it looks like one of the characters in Rave.. haha.. nice n cute actually.. i think it's wasabi plant.. pam looked sick.. i think she need a veri good rest.. had been workin all along rite.. but nvm, just move along k?

SL bought a scrub from the body shop n a shirt from PMK too.. din get to see what she buy.. so fast.. one min, she's tokin to us in the shop n we're lookin ard, the next sec, see her at the cashier counter collecting her bag alr.. duno wat she buy, n she nv wait for us.. we scold her selfish one.. haha.. no la..

EL bought some shirts too.. think one from Espirit.. did i spell it correctly again? looks weird..

Well, went to suki at cine for dinner.. ate alot.. n i think it's nice.. i love salmon sashimi.. haha..

Finally it's my off day tml.. long time nv have a break le.. been wkin n workin n wkin.. hmm.. so tired.. gonna meet up wif some pals n catch up with each other..

Well, the mystical ball isnt that mystical now.. well, shldnt have find the way it wks.. but now.. ya it's not fun anymore since i know how it works le.. shldnt have find that out!! haha, regret liao..

Try this out... Creepy....

www.mysticalball.com

Follow the instructions n b amazed..

haha..

Chiong all d way ah..!

haha, no la.. gonna study hard for QET now! reading up n muggin.. even after wk n cleanin up pillow..

But hey, new pics of pillow! :

let me out...

please...

ppllleeeaaassseeeee??

can or not????

can?? really????

yeah!!!!

Speech & thoughts edited by smilingseed

Busy Busy...

Wat else can i say? haha.. no time to contact, no time to meet up.. life's hard..

Well, july is finally here, the month i kinda dreaded, i dun wanna face the future this soon.. it's kinda difficult, but i know whether i can make it thru depends on me .. depends solely on me.. this mth kinda hoppy.. many things to settle..

Tuition fee loans, QET, Pillow's third vaccination, matriculation, sch preparation, n wat else? wk.. ya wk.. no wk no money.. but work = no time.. i haven really study for QET.. no time for it.. sigh..

But it's time to cheer up...

Things will get better..

Lately, everyone's busy.. haha.. no time to blog....

Hmm.. everyone's life is diff.. wat can i say.. its like we're goin the same route together, n sudd all of us came to a junction, where we now have to say gd bye.. not forever.. its just that, our life's diff now.. some goin to a better place, some not.. some goin to meet nice ppl, to have a better life, some r goin to suffer, n they cant find such gd friends they used to have anymore.. i think that's y many of us get so insecure when we're goin to new places alone.. actually, i feel that we're all alone.. din we came to this world alone? arent we goin to leave this world alone? isnt it the case we attended our first sch alone? then, we had no frens at all, but we stil come so far till this day, n meet the nice ppl we met.. n when u're goin to depart wif the nice ppl u met so far, u felt so lost.. but it's just another cycle.. i think this is fate.. the cycle of fate.. ppl u lost came back, n some u crossed their ways but u nv get to see them again.. whether u like it or not..

So we really must treasure all the ppl ard us, i think even our enemies, coz they let us know wat r bitter feelings, wat is hate.. if u duno wat is hate, u'd nv know wat is love.. there needs to be a comparison.. haha.. wat philosophy am i tokin abt..

Recently, heard from many uni-headin frens, almost all, r like enjoyin life by goin to uni camps, naming their msn nicks into somethin like: "so exciting! i love the dance, we shall dance ard the fire for life" or some fren sayin that they met so-n-so at this camp... hmm.. i really duno how i shall view uni life.. it's like, we haven really been their students, yet there r so many activities coming up n so many expensive lookin pamplets mailed to u, tellin u to join these camps, all organised by uni students, den wat orientation projects, trying to bond all.. hmm.. wat can i say.. den today receive one mailer telling us to do volunteer in myanmar, den its like a week.. den telling us that it's organised by united nations.. sigh.. den the whole thing cost $750.. n it says: enjoy the bitter part of ur life at just $750." at just $750... sigh

I think i'm turnin into someone who sees too much on the bad parts of our lives.. but wats good to say anyway? i just wanna lead a simple life.. going uni alone seems to kill me.. i just dun like the idea that ure goin to make frens purposely n tryin to act like u know them for years in those orientation camps, n takin all those beach-wear photos n smilin like u're having the best time in ur life, n these frens r gonna b forever, n how outgoin n sociable u all r.. i duno.. but dun ya think so??

Hmm.. Busy week.. seems like i'm not only d one.. pam, ty, yf n yj oso.. all busy wif sch wk or wk.. i'm superbly busy wif my wk n pillow....

Was gettin kinda stress, like sch's starting.. den a lot of applications haven done... long time nv meet up wif frens n play n play n play all day....

Called up WL's sis n we chat like for 38mins plus.. she used to be an NUS student.. so consulted her.. den now know more abt uni life, n wat to expect, n all.. so now not dat stress... Thanks to her!! Thanks Jie jie!

Today is an off day.. requested it.. erm, one bad thing u wk for a relative, is that u wk harder for them, n somehow to ur own disadvantage.. like i know abt her family problems, so i dun dare to take off days so frequently.. even though i'd like to stay home to study for the up coming test...

Hmm.. now listenin to click five's album..

Actually all the songs r nice..

*Pam,Yj can request from me* hoho

Now its 11am...

Time realli flies in the morn since i have Pillow.. Like no time for myself.. Woke up at 9.30 but stil like no time.. Woke up after brush teeth, will clean up Pillow's poo n pee from the cage n newspaper, change its water, brush it with a comb n then feed it n train it.. Den play wif it awhile n its like 10.45 alr...

Bathed pillow ytdy.. n its my first time bathing a dog.. i learnt some skills from a dog guide bk n the pet shop uncle demonstrated to me once.. luckily pillow got to be manageable, i think its afraid, so it dun realli dare to move ard.. i think i bathed it n dry it n blow dry it n brush it, end up abt 45mins...

But pillow realli is very thick furred n it dun look as big as it seemed..

Usually, its like this sitting in the cage.. the head smaller den its body n it dun seemed to sit properly, the legs abit anyhow placed..

But during bathin, coz we need to bath its body first before wettin its head.. n so, pillow looked somethin like this.. the head so much bigger than its body.. look like cotton bud..

After wetting its head, pillow shrinked in size.. looked somekind like a chihuahua.. very small...

Den after finish bathing n drying it up, it grew back in size again.. so it's a cycle...

Hope pillow grew up healthy, strong n tamed...

Quick updates.. goin to wk soon....

• Pam, TY, YJ, YF n me met up ytdy.. to watch superband at nite.
• Met up all but YF first to acc TY to shop for a camera
• Cameras are ex!
• TY decided not to buy one in the end
• Went to Pet Lover's Centre
• TY bought two toys for Pillow
• One squeaky mac fries, n one rope toy
• plus a bitter lime spray to stop pillow from biting itself
• we went to TPY KF for dinner
• Met up YF at bus interchange
• Took bus to MediaCorp
• Long Wait!
• Super long Wait!
• Frustrations n irritations
• Qinobe n Milubing is good, as well as Juz B
• Skipped Amber's n left early
• Ate supper at TPY's MOS..
• Nice..
• Rush home
• Sleep

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• Dreamt that dad goin overseas to wk
• We not followin him
• n he's not coming back
• duno wat it means
• woke up cleaned up Pillow
• it's havin diarrhoea
• but stil nippy attitude
• learnt how to 'Sit'
• Tryin to teach it to 'come' n 'up'
• failed
• goin to wk now...

Well, lately i've been kinda bad tempered.. i think i'm stil not accumstomed to my new life wif a pup.. many problems kinda arised which i din expect.. like pillow got all crazy when we got him out of d cage, n pillow started eating his poo, n his nails r long n i dun realli dare to clip them.. n pillow looks real tirin dis days after its vaccination, even my job is more tirin n i dun realli have time for myself, n since july is here, sch is starting.. alot more to adapt to... hell...

But, there's stil alot of joy in rearing a dog, like its childish acts when playin wif its toys.. n ya, a pup is just like a baby, n cant stop cleaning up dog poo, it's just so frequent like it's eating, n the smell, n the fact that my family dun like to handle dogs...

Shld realli apologise to those ppl i had disappointed.. sorry.... really sorry...

Some pics of pillow... =D

Pillow now knows his name.. called him n took dis pic...

another shot...

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nitez pillow...