The semester is coming to an end. Glad that tml's deepavali, so i don't have to specially make my way down to school for a pathetic and boring lecture.
The jay tix are delivered here! haha, felt so contented to know that there are 6 tix here on my hands. Haha. So looking forward to the concert. still got more than 2 months! ok, at least i have something to look forward to in these 2 months. Helped al's friend, rndy to buy the two tix. gonna pass to him next week.
Had the last jap3 tutorial today. hmm, rather 舍不得，coz from now onwards, the four of us (al, hj, kel n me) won't have the same class again. I wonder how long had we not go on a gathering together. Anyway, after my chi tutorial this morning, i met kel with bh, and we went to science megabites for lunch. erm.. bh is rather lame la. duno why, kel n me felt that our frequency with him is terribly wrong. I felt bad for not putting in extra effort to include him, but what i tried was also negligible and I really don't wish to force myself to make things uncomfortable for me. It's not my fault that he wasn't clicking with us. and half way eating, bh started to flash his camera phone around and even tried to take a pic of me. i really felt uncomfortable lor.
Anw, al joined us when he finished his tutorial. and am rather guilty that the 3 of us kept talking, and we have more to laugh, joke and talk about than with him. so we went back to arts, and on the way, can see bh tried to talk to us, but what he said was just not so 'answerable'. like he ask, 'why we go arts?' erm.. this kind of question, should nt come out so sudden ba. please speak normal. and when we reached the classroom, the 3 of us went to the usual seats and we start to practice our jap and we talked and laughed among ourselves. den bh like felt quite weird or wat, he went out of the class several times, and he don't seem happy. but.. maybe i'm over sensitive?
The lesson was rather fun today and time passed by so quickly. i still prefer jap lessons as it really gives me the reason and motivation to come to school. many people is not continuing to jap 4, sadly, but, i shall not forget that the happiest reason for me coming to nus is to have the chance to take jap. i once said i will advance in jap, if possible, all the way to jap6. so i'm not someone who give up easily. maybe my cap will drop, but i go to school for my passion and learning what i always wanted, not to beautify my CAP score. anw, discussed with al n kel today on why they not or maybe not taking jap 4. al said he gotta clear 4 core modules next sem, if not he cant clear his core modules on time, and he wants to join the urops thingy, which is only available to him next sem. he felt a pity, and he wanted to continue, but no choice. as for kel, he wanted to advance too, but he had to clear many core modules too, plus he is lacking 2 more modules next sem, so he is still considering.
After the lesson, al, kel and me decided to stay back in school to practice our jap oral. den, ebly, al's oral partner stipulated by the teacher, decided to join us. she is a year 4 business honor's student, very friendly and nice. so the four of us went to the deck and we sat down to practice. Ha. very much fun discussing, we joked and laughed and we think we're noisy. but we're still quite fruitful la. haha. had lerk thai for dinner, and awhile later, al gotta go meet his bro for movie, so the 3 of us stayed on and we discussed and chatted abit. ebly wanted to take jap 4 too, so she said we're taking it together. yeah~!! and she also said one day we go for a movie outing after our exams. haha, she's a very nice and cheerful gal. we're glad to know her.
Anw, after these few weeks, i noticed that, sometimes, getting out of your own social circle and meeting someone new isn't that bad after all. the people whom you always assumed are your close friends, sometimes just ain't true friends whom you can really count on. ya, we may click, and may once make promises together, but when can all these be granted? i sometimes think that some friends really took me for granted. anyway, no point saying whatsoever, they have their life, they have their more entertaining stuff which amuses them, but not include me. and when they get lonely, or need some attention from me, they then come and find me. they can say 'okok, let's~~~' and just forget it clean, later on. i sometimes really wish to say, 'what do u think i am? have u ever tried understanding me? stop thinking only about yourself and spare some thoughts for me too, please." but friends, u cant say this anyhow and straight right?
But anyway, i shall not spare too much thoughts on these either. they aren't worth it. and anyway, i am still living fine. and am still so happy so far.
