Brought pillow to the vet ytdy. n i can say, pillow had escalated into real serious behaviorial problems. We put him in a cage, and wanted to get on a taxi to bring us to the clinic. but pillow got so scared or excited or.. that he barked so loudly when he saw strangers and moving vehicles. oh man, den we put him in the cage-like box, he stil can bark and the box stil can jump at each bark. walao eh. no matter how we stop him still to no avail. den finally reach there, on entering the clinic, he bark as if he's the king n he growl at anything unfamiliar, like the other dogs with their masters, n the clinic assistants. wun stop barking, n i carried it on my hand, hoping it will calm down, but it'd stil struggle n struggle n growl. all the time like this until we reach home. it's a torture. i cannot understand y pillow have such problems. when he was stil a puppy, we do bring it for walks, but he'd forever gave chase to people who ran n bark. now, he growled alot at strangers. an unfriendly dog. a cute child at home, but a problematic devil outside.

As for the consultation, the vet says that pillow had suffered from teary eyes and those moisture around his eyes had cause some kind of infection. so he gave us creams n eye-drops for pillow's application. den he said this condition will most likely to stay for a long time. hmm.. but after the application yesterday, can see an improvement liao.

Recent news:
~Knut the Baby polar bear~

The Berlin zoo in Germany had this 3 month old polar cub named Knut and his brother which was rejected by his mother, a former circus bear. The brother had died and human had provide care for Knut but critics had said that this cub is getting too dependent on human beings, and should be lethally injected to death, as this will lead the cub to have a dysfunctional life, and it should be killed. When this news break out, knut-supporters from all over the world arised to reject this decision.. n.. they even sang songs for Knut.. n an album is out now.. check out the link below..

TV advertisement of Knut:



Personal thoughts:
If animal activists suggest that Knut be killed for preventing him to have a dysfuctional life, giving sense that it's for the cub's benefit, isnt it better to give it a chance to live than have no life at all?

I see your true colors..

"I see your true colors shining through.. i see your true colors n that's why i..." well, song from Sarina Paris.. sing this song in my head these few days.. nice.. encouraging.. but it can oso mean otherwise.. there're colors of ppl which r just not beautiful..

Seen a lot of true colors these few days. Well, when u see someone whom u just know, changed, it's just a reveal of true colors. Good or bad, well, up to u to decide. But usual case being the latter one.. ah.. watever.. how people wanna paint their lives is not something i have to research on.. just enjoy n appreciate the colors.. n live with red, black, white, silver &...

A week is passing so quickly. Days are getting shorter? i just don't seem to accomplish alot in a day. not that meaningful huh.. have been doin so many non-academic related stuff.. stress.. when i am given so many freedom suddenly, i wun know wat to do.. it's only during this period of time that i can come up with long lists of to-dos...

Got back my jap photo essay draft.. hmm... i need to get the photos.. i have plan the text but will take the pics later.. ah.. i need a good camera, if not i wun be able to capture that pillow in still.. well, gonna bring pillow to the vet tml.. he's got terrible swollen blood shot eyes.. sigh.. it keeps tearing.. i need to get it cure soon in case it goes blind.. poor pillow.. it's getting so restless these days...

The sem is coming to an end..

Finished my chi level two tut this morning and i'm so happy i dun hav to attend the tutorials of this module anymore! erm.. shouldn't have this kind of attitude rite? anyway, very soon, the reading week will be here again..

These few days, i think i got this 眠い [nemui] (sleepy) disease.. will feel very tired no matter how many hrs i sleep. I spend so much time on slp, n travelling. My life isnt very colorful huh...

Catchin hanakimi via u-tube these days.. oh so sad very soon u-tube wun be ard.. rumors said so but duno true or not.. =( y good things always must come to an end? it took so long to establish!! hope it can stay...

Hols ard the corner too.. n it's so fast i'm givin tut this sat.. hmm.. my first time! shld be alright ba~~

New blogskin.

Yeah i'm very free, as if i stil got time to do this kind of thing.

Well, nice skin still.

新开始、新希望。

I hate spiders. I always wonder why there are spiders in this world. It's so disgusting! A knot with 8 legs crawling so creepily across everything.. n when it dies it stil bother to fold all its legs into a proper manner.. Well, started this entry with spiders because i got traumatized by one when i'm waiting for my comp to load.. it's on my table and i duno where it goes after a missed attack from me.

Exams' creeping so near too and everyone is in a fussy, irritable, passive, murderous mood.. always hear from frens they wanna kill people.. haha..yeah that'd be nice if we can solve our problems like this.. a revision from psy.. when stress turns to frustration and frustration turns to aggression.. Displaced aggression.. a kind of reaction to stress where you take out ur frustrations on someone less threatening or more available targets like someone close to you.. this week, finally gonna submit the two project papers and after this, should be a more breezy road towards exam..

Talking about the project, my ch project! i really am very disappointed wif my grp members. our project requires us to ans a long qns which requires an essay of length of at least 6k words.. that's a lot.. and we're suppose to wk in threes and the members assigned to us. so i was talkin abt we're doin abt the topic of qin n han dy.. turns out, i did the intro, the body part's one of the aspect, and the longest one, n a part of the conclusion agreed by everyone that we share some thoughts n our research retrieved from the lib.. i rush my head off the other day that i even have to delay my ssb project.. the grp agreed to finish the first draft on each other's part on a wed.. turns out? the gal XJ did the job n i did too, but i din see wat E had did.. He volunteered to collaborate everybody's work n finish up by fri.

So.. no news until i asked him how is it ytdy, which is Sun! Sigh.. how many deadlines does he wanna miss? the project is due this tue! so he finally send me wat he did.. n walao! 14 pages, n the last 7 pages are his work which i dun understand! all wen2 yan2 wen2, how to understand! i think he copy n pasted these stuff from somewhere! den my intro, i do quote from books, so i did in-text citations.. den turns out he removed them all to reduce the word count! omg.. den the last part of the wk should be a work of analysis and conclusion.. but it just seemed descriptive and nonsensical to me! and the stuff we did for the conclusion, he din add them. i pointed out some parts to him n i just got a reply.. [maybe our pt of argument is diff].. bless me. i plainly hope our grp's project is answering the qns and that we're not to be sued by plagiarism.. he said things like.. just a draft, relaz la~ omg.. as if we're handing this proj on 2008. it's due this tue, brother E. so he said he'd finish them up tml, which is mon. I have nth to say. As for xj? she was being too passive.. oh haha, really ah? orh.. erm.. shld be ok ba.. actually i duno abt history.. haha.. i haven read lei.. tml(mon) i den let u know how i think.. KNS.. I told kel i wanna buy a parang.

Ah~ enuff of stuff abt things that r gone case.. shld learn to give up things which just dun worth my attention anymore.. if i cont, i'd die with a heart problem..

Anyway, the skies are real clear these nights.. look up at the sky.. wa!! so many stars and can easily see the constellation orion n the bright stars beta orionis and alpha orionis.. n ard 8pm ytdy when my family went to cwp for dinner, i was fascinated by the stars above me n when i turn towards the other part of the sky, wa!! i saw a very very bright star!!!! i think it's so big n bright that it's a planet, not a star. It's almost ten times bigger than a spot of light which u'd classify as a star and maybe more than that. n a star will twinkle due to the turbulence in earth's atmosphere but this spot of light does not! it's so bright and it's kinda yellow, orange in color.. so i think it's the planet Venus.. wow.. i really wish i had a telescope on the spot.. i wanna catch it! always love lookin up at the sky.. i can stop thinkin abt all the hassles of life n just be fascinated by the wonders of the so much bigger world.. The jewels and gems of heaven.. can i call them that?

My running nose days are back. Feeling sick.. Cant stop sneezing n i hate takin the pill coz it really drowses me out.

wanna meet up with pam n yj for lunch actually but time doesnt allow it.. hj gotta meet her fren after the lunch, pam got lessons, den i duno how to get there n pam nv went there before.. ah.. shld have time in the future.. Went to watch bean's hol with kel after fri lesson. pam n al cant make it.. hmm.. so we went to cwp n it's good that it's cheaper than the other cinemas.. n so it's quite early n many students, pri or sec oso went to watch.. many kind of childish patterns we can see oso.. kinda funny n the movie is lame.. haha.. nice lei actually, quite worth a watch..! after the movies, we went to pop walk walk den we went to ichiban jap restaurant n i ordered some sushi n kel ordered some beef set.. wow all very nice.. n the first time we ate the tataki salmon sashimi.. half raw n half grilled.. wow super nice.. will wanna go eat again..

Very tired when i reached home..

Gotta start studyin again le.. exams comin so very soon..

Tired, behind time, sicky..

O.O

Shortest entry ever!

I hate myself.

Worthless.

Bad days!

I really can't stand all this.

Feel like cryin but no tears to shed.

Where's true?

How is it like to spend two days in a row to eat indo ryori and laugh straight on for two hrs? It's very very energy consuming, vomit-inducive and FUN! haha.. first on tue, went there with hj, kel n al, den we tok so much nonsence that we're shocked to notice we can crap for full two hrs.. until the whole eng canteen looks clearly evacuated with ppl whom had fought seats with us earlier on.. and on wed, it's such a nice chance for pam n yj to come here to have lunch n kel n hj turn up too! was really very very fun as we laughed practically every min n until we're goin crazy, stomachs crammed, cheeks red... not very gd for health though..

Suddenly, someone suggested we go haw paw villa, n wow, off we go, though it's goin to rain soon but we persuade ourselves it wun rain.. n if it really rains, we'll go to the "gui men guan" only.. since we gotta turn home early too.. stupid assignments n projects.... itsumo takusan aru! so the entrance fee.. one doru! haha happily went in den laugh all the way inside.. we're forever silly n noisy.. den we're abit bad as we got amazed by the gruesome statues n i really was kinda disappointed with it.. rmbred i came here when i was a kid, with my relatives, n den, this was something that really created an impression on me.. n it was so long ago that this guimenguan was those that required a boat to ride in.. now as we can get in n walk on our own, i was disappointed at how small it had become.. n it dun take us more than ten min to finish all.. n there're only 10 lvs instead of 18.. has it really diminished in size? or has it been me who have grown up this big now?

So we made our trip home.. n it'd be so much better w/o the rain!

Doin the jap photo proj now.. gotta use our personal photos n write on a topic for abt at least 800 words.. hmm.. jy! well, think i'd be writing abt pillow..

Pillow 的一天？

Recent updates:

• I love fridays

• With kel, met up w HJ's sis M and her fren to have lunch at bus cantn

• Went to cw to meet W for KFC.. long time no see!

• To pop to look at recent pri sch tbks n assessments ..(i'm givin tuition soon:31st mar! i'd miss my sats..)

• On sat met up wif SH n Pam to watch movie

• I'm a cyborg but that's ok

• Bad movie with good visuals n soundtracks, i dun understand the plot

• Went to ate at the marina sq foodcourt before that n i quarreled with the aunty from the western food stall servin me (pam helped abit too)

• end up, i bought the chicken laksa.. condemned the western foodstall alr

• So dun go there, bad service n attitude!

• ate the long awaited choc fondue, overlookin at the harbor n esplanade

• again, laugh in the movies like we're mad becoz of the lameness

• Went out n got amazed by 3 cats for quite sometime at the side bushes

• Took pics with the cats n the nice ritz carlton hotel as bkgd

• Back home so early

• Slp, eat n start on my essays

• Essays (draft due this wed)
  

• Essays

• History of china.. qin and han dynasty...

• Essays

• ...

在这个世界上，有几个人是你的好朋友？

知己有几个已算不错了，更何况能与你处处契合、同甘共苦的知心朋友。人活到了一个年龄，不尽会反省自己的人生过得如何。对我来说，我认为太快了。这个世界太大，人口太多，生活太急促了。每天与你相遇的人，还没谈上几句，大家又要各走各的了。虽然说科技发达，联络只在传指间，又有多少人惦念着与你联络呢？好不容易成了好友，又有多少人珍惜那份友谊呢？放飞机、欺骗、隐瞒，您作过吗？为了什么？你自己的利益吧。可能你认为朋友是你的饭后甜点，可有可无，有事再聊。或是，你的人生太忙了，你认为朋友是身外物，自己都忙不过来了，还管别人，今天没空、后天也没空，有空，可能爽的时候在登殿吧。也可能是，你的朋友太多了，好的不好的，你都列他们为同等，他们是你的顾客、玩伴、陪你消耗时间的人，没什么特别，你的订单太长了，今天和A,明天和B,后天和C,你没忽略朋友，你只是忽略了每一个人。也许，你是个善忘的人，不记得诺言，或是你是个大骗子，偶尔骗一骗无大碍，又不是杀人放火，只不过，你冻僵、敲碎真心对你的朋友的心。

世上不是没有朋友，能真心对待的，渺渺无几。以上举的例子是多年领会到的几种“自称好友”。您遇过吗？或是，您就是这号人？答案：熟悉或愧疚，自己斟酌吧。

Cousins came on friday.. and they only went back this morning.. So tired but fun to have them around.. Instead of two, there're three of them, including the 笑佛.. so, how's my days these days? they crawl around me when i'm studyin at the table, or asking me if they can borrow this or that, or even play behind me n laughin like mad.. so i cant really study these days.. n i'm forced to slp wif my mom, my bed's off for them, n luckily, i am so dead beat that i cannot even hear my mom's snores.. n i woke up at 8am, coz kids can get so excited n wake up early then they usually do.. n it's 3 continuous days of feasting.. each meal is like a feast.. steamboat.. noodles.. taste of thailand again.. wa.. i really hate myself in these situation.. i wanna shed weight...

Well, on sunday morning, one unfortunate thing happened.. my parents n aunt wanna bring the kids to a park near the condo where we have to travel 20mins on foot.. n so, pillow was brought along.. well, pillow is always a disaster in walks.. i duno y despite all the trainings when he was stil a puppy, like bringin him for short walks or be used to the existence of mobile vehicles.. but pillow is so attracted to things that move, that he'd bark at practically every joggers, or even cars, and even wanna give a chase.. so u can imagine how the walk is like.. noisy barkings, with pillow rushing head on but yet leashed, so he's standing on its hinds and my hands red from his pulling..

the trip there is stil ok and enjoyable coz pillow played with the kids on the playground.. n pillow love the slides there.. but on the way home, my aunts n cousins are walking up front, n my parents are walking far behind, strolling at their own pace.. n i was walking pillow.. n who knows, suddenly, at around the junction, a couple of cars drove by and it's real enough to agitate pillow on its heels again.. n the barkings begin.. n i have no help but to hold on to its snout n command him to stop barking..

No choice, i cant wait for all the cars in the world to be gone before i walk him again, i drag him along, n he's barking stil, den so suddenly, his barking got so loud dat i have to squat down n try to cool him down. i grabbed on to him, n just so suddenly a loud motorbike rode past n pillow dashed at the bike, n out of my reflex, i tried to pull back the leash only to realise that his leash had came off n him darting out of the road.. no second thoughts, i dart out to the road followin him n i heard my mom screaming, n my mind went blank and only to realise i cant catch pillow coz he's off chasing the bike so quickly, n i'm at the centre of the road n a car coming from my left had screeched to a stop.. so i almost got knocked down? luckily the lane with cars coming from the right is empty, n so i ran back to the pavement n i'm left helpless to see pillow runnin off.. far to the right...

Dad who was with mom strolling behind had caught wat happened n the next moment, i saw dad tryin to chase pillow on the road, callin him names but pillow din care but continue to chase the bike.. the bike's driver din dare to stop i think it's because he's a malay.. n i was numbed and shocked n i dun even know i'm runnin to them on the pavement..dad was putting himself in danger.. the bike turned right on a junction n pillow turned too n it was lucky there wasnt any cars there except the bike for the moment, but before i saw wat happened, i heard a screech.. i expected the worse and i saw pillow on the middle of the road.. a car had stopped, missin him by a few feet.. he looked trumatized and shocked n in a humped position.. standin there.. lost.. n dad ran up to grab him n back to the pavement.. aunts n cousins n mom came n i think i looked pale.. aunt came to carry pillow while dad grasp for air, n came to see that pillow had a few bloody bruises on its eyes, mouth n leg..

So we went home.. n mom said we'd never bring pillow for walks ever again.. i agreed.. n thanks to dad.. n thanks to all.. none of us was hurt.. a miracle..

ProjectS! Gonna be due so soon.. stress man.. n these are grp wks.. it's so hard to work with people whom dun share the same mentality with u.. n especially when they have other motives.. argh.. watever the case, i nv expect well for a grp project..

So much the case, the four of us finally went to catch a movie ytdy.. n it's letters from iwojima.. nice! haha, heard rumors that the show was draggy, not nice, bla bla.. well, i think it's nice.. haha..din expect it to be so nice too.. but the movie was sad.. i just feel that from the start, the people were destined to die.. n not all has a good ending.. well, the war scenes are nice too.. i mean the visual effects.. n some parts are gross too.. like the part when they bomb themselves up for suicide.. HJ n me kinda sadist.. while watchin those cruel scenes or emo scenes, we try to look from else where n see that part as being funny.. haha.. laughed n giggled thru out the show.. XD.. so many nice movies these days.. lookin forward to more ^_^ heard from al got a movie called "sunshine" coming up, and this movie is about the day when the sun dies.. wa. cool man, i was tellin pam in the past, i wonder how will be the world like if the sun dies one day, n how will the world become, and i wonder if anyone will make it into a movie.. and now here it is! =) a must watch!

Well, while watchin letters ytdy, half way thru the show, i was wonderin if there's any movie about the 春秋战国.. that'd be nice too.. den the movie "hero" only showed like how 荆轲刺秦王 (did i get this wrong? XD) something like that la.. haha.. maybe there's these shows but i duno...

Well it was fun.. the four of us joked ard like mad n the happiest moment was when hj's hp accessory dived into the meso soup.. hahaha i can never forget that.. n i think all of us laughed the maddest ever.. after the movie, went to starbucks to have some coffee and it was nice sitting there to chat n tok.. (wat's the diff btwn chat n tok anyway).. haha.. den we went home, and i find that takin another way back to admiralty via outram park interchange is faster than if i went from dhoby.. so reached home earlier than expected n chatting wif pam on the phone.. my cousins r alr here.. n even the "笑佛" come.. so they went to slp n i knew i'd get so busy the next day..

Woke up at 8am today, while i slept at near 2am last night.. real tired man! n forced to go mac wif them to have breakfast..　つかれた！

Gotta go study le~~

I'm dead moody..

Dun ask me why i'm moody.. i oso duno too.. maybe it's stress from sch.. n some frens.. duno.. it just happened that these frens are quite close to me that i get so emotionally affected now.. n the people i met in sch.. life just isnt smooth.. n the stuff i have to do.. can i recall which idiot told me before that uni life is smooth and carefree?

Happened that people walked in n out of my life.. some came back, some never.. n i wonder y most frens arent initiative? why must i always be the one approaching them? it's gotta be two way isnt it? dun understand.. maybe sometimes, it's just how one has faultily perceived that the other one is treating u as important as u did to them.. or maybe they'd move on with their life.. and some frens who remain, some of them, i emphasize, not all, just stays for their benefit.. they dun really intend to stay either.. they're just waiting, in case anything else good comes along.. who knows they're here forever? i am stil encouraged with the fact that there ARE frens who are true, but one just cant help but worry how long can such frenships last? when all u see now is a gray area of loneliness?

Other than that, wat shall i say? life is lonely.. n now i'd find myself getting so ignorant n passive of sch stuff.. i dun care if one realli cares abt somethin or wat, and i dun get bothered with nosey ppl who realli need some repair in the brains.. got so much hurt n regretful experiences in the past.. i really grew to someone whom i dun noe, and i dun like her either..

Some nonsense crap written while waiting for that ivle to load.. connections are forever slow..

Went back to sch to do project this morn.. reached at ten.. n wat time i reached home? 6.30pm... Sigh.. My whole day..

Well, spent the whole day rushing for the SSB presentation. We alr research and what we're goin to do was just collate stuff.. but stil can take up a day.. tired man...

Last night went to taste of thailand to have dinner, nice.. but they're moving again coz the sem shoppin ctr gotta revamp again..

Oh, n last sun, when kel n al came to our hse, pillow was irritated that no one bother him so he threw his food ard the floor and it ended up in four clumps.. so aunt thot it'd be good if she buy this as 4D.. haha.. n guess wat, it was out ytdy night n dad n aunt and mom won quite alot.. but, i stil dun accept lottery winnin.. u stil lose in the end la..

Tired.. Duno wat else to write.. XS

Another week's gone after the term break.

How have i passed the week? i rmbred spending my monday studyin for jap mid term n it was so tiring that i studied until 2am n got to wake up at 5.30am for the ch tut the next day. It was real torture. So went for the tut, luckily it's just once every fortnight. den rush on to TA, quite stress there coz i din really study for it, but stil managed to scrape thru. den rush on to the lect for the jap mid term pap. it was stil quite manageable but i stil cant escape a few mistakes after checkin with my frens. the listenin part was always a disaster. so after the lect, went to eusoff to hav lunch wif hj n al n finally can make my way home.

So went home, studied again n this time for the psy. had been so tiring and cant bear to lose time coz this week's wed got the odd week tuts from 2 to 6. sure no time to study at home. so crammed until 2am again. n went for the ch lect on wed.. toked abit with bh about the test the day before n he oso think it's hard too.. den went on to meet hj, kel n al for lunch at hlv.. hj had been so excited abt it.. haha the nasi lemak.. quite nice too! den it rained so unexpectedly n we gotta take cab back to sch n rush for our followin lessons.. changed the cl tut again n i dun like this tutor coz she's so bitchy lookin n her voice is so hookingly "tehhh".. den she din go thru the stuff that we need to know much.. aiya sit there with microsleeps n went on for the psy tut. the psy tut this time nt that fun.. got alot of theories revision i think the tut wan us to prepare for the test. but it's quite borin actually n "taihen"..

Reached hm late n was so tired gotta prepare for tml's tb lesson at 8 in the morn. slept at 1am again the other nite. so woke up at 5.30am again n i stil can be late to meet up hj n kel! y is the transport so slow! aiya so went in the class n xq sensei duno y, keep tokin to the 3 of us sarcastically i think she nt happy we're late or wat.. finally it ended n the 3 of us went to eusoff to hav lunch before kel left for his social visit n hj n me went for our last rp programme. it was the last! finally.. so the two of us went to the cl lect at 12pm.. n we were so moody over tml's psy test.. den we decide nt to go the ssb lesson at 2pm.. sorry to mr koh.. we ponned ur lesson twice in the row liao.. i know i'd regret later that i din go for so many of his lessons, bt i realli dun wanna go la.. so din go.. den went home to study for the test until 2.30am.. i can die i tel u..

So on fri, finally went for the test after the tc, n luckily it's stil manageable.. though it's negative markin, i stil attempt all the qns.. duno it's gd or not.. hope the results nt bad.. den went home and the first thing i did was slp as soon after i bath. n i dun wanna touch anything else except audition.. haha.. went on to sh's hse for dinner n shun bian bai nian.. her mom ordered pizzas for our dinner n even nice mushroom soup! thanks sh n mom! went home quite late.. n i'm so dead tired i can finally rest all i wan on sat morn.. n the day was slacked off.. wasted..

for today, met up wif my ch project mates on msn.. well, quite fruitful n they're quite nice too.. hope we can do a gd one this time.. =) tml gotta go to sch for the ssb project meeting.. hope it's fruitful too.. gotta start on the research le.! jia you!!