Rest at home. Not much appetite these days. It's very hot. It seemed that the weather will be cooled off with some rain soon.
Tml's tuition again.. gotta admit time realli flies. It's like for last saturday, my third time receivin the pay.. that means 4X3 weeks.. plus tml, it'd be 4x3+1.. sch's starting soon.. really gotta reel back my mood to prepare for sch.. pam's sch starts next week.. that's very fast.. i really dun miss the days we have our assignments n projects.. i can understand her blueness..
Been thinkin a lot these days.. when you're left with yourself too much, you start to think. n i had been searching from horoscopes for answers.. it's nt that i believe horoscopes totally, but some are really quite true.. some websites are being jerky but some really tel u some stuff.. it seemed that we humans hold too much differences n priorities.. was readin some star signs' characteristics toward love.. they said taurus hav a better luck for love, but it always tend to be 暗恋.. n they hold the crown for this coz they will rather die than to propose.. how true?? hmm.. and as for leos, they were sayin becoz of 爱面子, leos, even if they 暗恋 ppl, they will still act like is other ppl 暗恋 them.. how true can this be again.. if this realli holds true, n thinkin out of the box, i presume there will be hardly any leo n taurus couples.. LOL..
Sayin abt 暗恋.. i used to.. n i dun hide them.. n i dun think i'd act like it's the other party doin the 暗恋.. though it really is quite embarrassin for a girl to do the chasin, so i rather die.. but it seemed there's too much consequences for fallin in love.. so i always presume these feelings as jus 好感.. n i rather see every opposite sex as frens.. once, read this in the psy textbook last sem.. that in the cycle of life.. we hold different beliefs throughout the stages.. n in our twenties, wat we believe in n everyone seems to hold as their top priority is intimate relationships.. n everybody seemed to be affected by it.. before twenties, we hold for a sense of identity.. n after twenties, the next will be our career n family life.. that makes me ponder in these next few years, wat is everyone goin to be doin? will we see more n more couples pair up, our frens gettin a stable love life n got married n when we're stil being single, especially us girls, start to panic with our ageing? this seemed stress..
For me, i was thinkin.. i'm the only child n i have three adults to take care of in the future.. it makes me wonder if i should be goin for the love i wan or goin for the love that can sustain my life.. it seemed scary to find myself in the forties, being single with aged parents and nth but debts and loneliness.. but anw, there is hardly any options available.. it stil lies to fate..
29 June 2007
28 June 2007
Sick of Hot Days
Sick and lazy. I stayed at home.
Vomited.
My hair is in a mess. I got so dizzy after bathin pillow. Now i got better, mom wans me to vacuum the house.
I studied n revised a bit of jap. Been losing touch w it. What have i been occupied with these days? All those energy to play.. n the drive of havin smth to look forward to. where has it gone?
Weird dreams whenever i sleep.
Tok w pam. Feelings really can be hidden in subconsciousness n only reveal in dreams. But none of these dreams are good and happy. What's lying behind?
Finally havin some skills in coordinating. try clappin 1.5 beats, 0.5 beats and two 1 beat w ur right hand, while clapping two 2 beats wif ur left.
Overall mood: Empty.
Vomited.
My hair is in a mess. I got so dizzy after bathin pillow. Now i got better, mom wans me to vacuum the house.
I studied n revised a bit of jap. Been losing touch w it. What have i been occupied with these days? All those energy to play.. n the drive of havin smth to look forward to. where has it gone?
Weird dreams whenever i sleep.
Tok w pam. Feelings really can be hidden in subconsciousness n only reveal in dreams. But none of these dreams are good and happy. What's lying behind?
Finally havin some skills in coordinating. try clappin 1.5 beats, 0.5 beats and two 1 beat w ur right hand, while clapping two 2 beats wif ur left.
Overall mood: Empty.
27 June 2007
26 June 2007
200th Post
200th post of the blog!!
Makes me recall 200 pounds beauty.
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Piano lesson's getting harder again. Learning etudes. I think it is a good practise for your fingers. But coordination skills remain a problem. How to cope??? By experience?
Nv nv nv go to the photo/camera/print shop in 768. The auntie (short hair) there sucks in her attitude. Wanted to help mom print the photos we took for her dresses made. Cant find a good spot to take the pics so I crop the dresses out after that, and the photo size aspect ratio changed. I thought they can just get anything and print out. They told me it's impossible, so i said i'd go home n resize the pics n come back again.
So i resized the pics (it's nt few). I pasted the pics onto a photo size backgrd via photoshop. so the aspect ratio of the photo is now locked with the pic, n i believe the printing will be made possible now. the ratio of the photo size is 3:4.. it's no matter how big ur mega pixels is, go check. all photos are in this ratio. so i bring the pics there again in my thumbdrive. the auntie came n took my thumbdrive n before insertin it, she asked, "got folder?" i din have time to reply, she said "no hor?" den everythin in my thumbdrive starts loadin in. i said "got!" den she said, "den why just now nv say?" damn her attitude. is this the way she serves? i dun pay to see ur bastard face n smell ur stinks.
She recognised the pics. she immediately says, "told u, cannot." i said, "but i resize the pics alr!" "i said cannot u see it's so long, not photo size". I said, but the ratio is photo size ratio, sure can." "cannot, ur photo sure will cut, u dun believe i let u try u see la". One girl came, she saw the pics, she recalled it's ytdy's too. she said, "cannot.. ur photo size too small. it's 1200X1600.. ours is more than 2000 one.. so ur photo sure will be cut." I said, "den u tel me the aspect ratio of ur photo la, u said more than 2000, u tel me i go n resize den come back again."
I just wanna get the pics printed u nabei, coz my color printer jus wun work. u think the whole world still bothers to come camera shop n develop films???
den she said.."erm.... it is.. how much huh?" she asked the auntie. "i duno la." den she told me.. " i duno lei."
....
So it's you duno. Dun say cannot. I stormed out of the shop n i swear my ass in this world i'd nv step into that shop again no matter wat. i even consider a write-in.
You're not professional dun act like u noe everythin! jus say u cant provide this service la n i oso dun have to waste my time. n dun think the whole world sees film developin business as the top notch priority. weak, brainless single-cells..
I can just do the same quality photo printin myself given my workin color printer n photo paper n i can develop so much better that u aunties can nv lay ur stingy fingers to produce..
Well.. i better cool off..
Makes me recall 200 pounds beauty.
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Piano lesson's getting harder again. Learning etudes. I think it is a good practise for your fingers. But coordination skills remain a problem. How to cope??? By experience?
Nv nv nv go to the photo/camera/print shop in 768. The auntie (short hair) there sucks in her attitude. Wanted to help mom print the photos we took for her dresses made. Cant find a good spot to take the pics so I crop the dresses out after that, and the photo size aspect ratio changed. I thought they can just get anything and print out. They told me it's impossible, so i said i'd go home n resize the pics n come back again.
So i resized the pics (it's nt few). I pasted the pics onto a photo size backgrd via photoshop. so the aspect ratio of the photo is now locked with the pic, n i believe the printing will be made possible now. the ratio of the photo size is 3:4.. it's no matter how big ur mega pixels is, go check. all photos are in this ratio. so i bring the pics there again in my thumbdrive. the auntie came n took my thumbdrive n before insertin it, she asked, "got folder?" i din have time to reply, she said "no hor?" den everythin in my thumbdrive starts loadin in. i said "got!" den she said, "den why just now nv say?" damn her attitude. is this the way she serves? i dun pay to see ur bastard face n smell ur stinks.
She recognised the pics. she immediately says, "told u, cannot." i said, "but i resize the pics alr!" "i said cannot u see it's so long, not photo size". I said, but the ratio is photo size ratio, sure can." "cannot, ur photo sure will cut, u dun believe i let u try u see la". One girl came, she saw the pics, she recalled it's ytdy's too. she said, "cannot.. ur photo size too small. it's 1200X1600.. ours is more than 2000 one.. so ur photo sure will be cut." I said, "den u tel me the aspect ratio of ur photo la, u said more than 2000, u tel me i go n resize den come back again."
I just wanna get the pics printed u nabei, coz my color printer jus wun work. u think the whole world still bothers to come camera shop n develop films???
den she said.."erm.... it is.. how much huh?" she asked the auntie. "i duno la." den she told me.. " i duno lei."
....
So it's you duno. Dun say cannot. I stormed out of the shop n i swear my ass in this world i'd nv step into that shop again no matter wat. i even consider a write-in.
You're not professional dun act like u noe everythin! jus say u cant provide this service la n i oso dun have to waste my time. n dun think the whole world sees film developin business as the top notch priority. weak, brainless single-cells..
I can just do the same quality photo printin myself given my workin color printer n photo paper n i can develop so much better that u aunties can nv lay ur stingy fingers to produce..
Well.. i better cool off..
埋怨
有一个人埋怨着为什么别人总是对他不够好。
但是，他只怨别人，却从不想想自己是如何对待别人。
他不在乎别人，别人又为何要特别对他好呢？
学会反省，在人生中很重要。
什么事都要反省，而反省就需要一面“镜子”来好好看清自己。
所以，从今天起，多照照镜子吧！
但是，他只怨别人，却从不想想自己是如何对待别人。
他不在乎别人，别人又为何要特别对他好呢？
学会反省，在人生中很重要。
什么事都要反省，而反省就需要一面“镜子”来好好看清自己。
所以，从今天起，多照照镜子吧！
25 June 2007
为情所困
Read bro's blog.
i noticed one thing.
人都会为情所困。
If things can be a lil' bit easier.. less confusing.. everyone just show their feelings truthfully.. i wonder.. well maybe that may end up to be more confusing n complex too.. anw.. it just seemed that life is too full of guessing games.. n making urself growin attached to someone, really cause so much agony when u have to separate..
I have learnt to detach..
Detach from him.
Detach from the real world,
the future.
I noe i shouldnt stereotype. that men are ___________ (watever ur definition).. but it just happened so that the majority are in for a general classification, and i'm not the luckiest chap in the world to meet the minorities.
Feelings can develop. Yes, i admit my feelings do grow for someone sometimes, now that i'm single. My heart is not dead. but i can only suppress it. That's my life-saving technique learnt in the ugly torments of socialising.
Every individual is different. so different that everyone puts so many different things as their top priority. Some preferred love, some preferred freedom, some status, some joy, some money, some ambitions.. n wat else? even u like someone now, doesnt mean that person is in to like u back.. they may have something else in mind.. and so if they did wan love like u do, they have more than 6.5 billion people to choose from.. with maybe 1% being celebrities whom u can nv compare urself with..
N so wat that u two have sparks in between? there are issues of gettin together or nt, n even so when u two are an item, will those sparks continue to fly or are you two goin to turn out well? it's very dramatic to think that two persons whom once love each other like nth else on earth may grew to be enemies whom wun are as close as the uncle u saw in the lift.. that sounds real terrible.. n in fact, most couples end up in this.. and no one feels right that your first partner is ur last.. how do u tel he/she is ur last? n that's nt ur problem only.. coz how do u tel he/she thinks that u are his/her last? even u think u're the most faithful lover in the world, doesnt mean ur partner may nt betray on u..
Shall end the act of souring things up. But i do admit.. i am tryin to give myself thousands of things to do to distract myself from these ugly facets of life..
No matter wat, u dun have to always see things from the dark side rite? even though u noe it is there..
i noticed one thing.
人都会为情所困。
If things can be a lil' bit easier.. less confusing.. everyone just show their feelings truthfully.. i wonder.. well maybe that may end up to be more confusing n complex too.. anw.. it just seemed that life is too full of guessing games.. n making urself growin attached to someone, really cause so much agony when u have to separate..
I have learnt to detach..
Detach from him.
Detach from the real world,
the future.
I noe i shouldnt stereotype. that men are ___________ (watever ur definition).. but it just happened so that the majority are in for a general classification, and i'm not the luckiest chap in the world to meet the minorities.
Feelings can develop. Yes, i admit my feelings do grow for someone sometimes, now that i'm single. My heart is not dead. but i can only suppress it. That's my life-saving technique learnt in the ugly torments of socialising.
Every individual is different. so different that everyone puts so many different things as their top priority. Some preferred love, some preferred freedom, some status, some joy, some money, some ambitions.. n wat else? even u like someone now, doesnt mean that person is in to like u back.. they may have something else in mind.. and so if they did wan love like u do, they have more than 6.5 billion people to choose from.. with maybe 1% being celebrities whom u can nv compare urself with..
N so wat that u two have sparks in between? there are issues of gettin together or nt, n even so when u two are an item, will those sparks continue to fly or are you two goin to turn out well? it's very dramatic to think that two persons whom once love each other like nth else on earth may grew to be enemies whom wun are as close as the uncle u saw in the lift.. that sounds real terrible.. n in fact, most couples end up in this.. and no one feels right that your first partner is ur last.. how do u tel he/she is ur last? n that's nt ur problem only.. coz how do u tel he/she thinks that u are his/her last? even u think u're the most faithful lover in the world, doesnt mean ur partner may nt betray on u..
Shall end the act of souring things up. But i do admit.. i am tryin to give myself thousands of things to do to distract myself from these ugly facets of life..
No matter wat, u dun have to always see things from the dark side rite? even though u noe it is there..
24 June 2007
Kel's Bday
Happy Bday to Kel!
Btw, it's very near to july.. n the module preference ex is so so near.. 4th july.. the day when i'd to start declaring wat i wanna do next sem.. (n prob the rest of my life).. the problem is.. i dun wanna think!!! i dun want to switch back to study mode!!
Ah.. dun spoil my mood first.. stil got abt a week plus to play like no tml...
After tuition ytdy, went wif pam to meet al, kel n hj to celebrate kel's bday at marina sq.. reached there.. we met at city hall.. al always the one the reach on time.. den hj wil be late.. den kel.. i duno abt him.. so we stood ard there n waited.. al lost his voice.. poor thing.. ya these few days weather is very bad.. i oso sought of get very bad sore throats every dawn.. do u have that too? or is it only me? painful to wake up.. ahh..
so finally met up w kel.. den we head our way to marina sq.. long walk there.. but it's a surprise we saw hf n his gf!! i saw his gf first.. was like.. eh.. this person looks very familiar .. den oh! hf gf.. den saw hf.. den oo! hf n his gf saw us n i think we're noisy.. LOL.. they're nice n funny.. moved on.. strolled our way to waraku.. alot of ppl! so we reserved our seats first.. went to somewhere ard 7-eleven to rest.. coz al not feelin well.. den kel suggest we took photo.. so we took.. against the 7-eleven cute backgrd.. haha.. anw.. nice~~ den hj came.. den we head to waraku.. just at the right moment again they called us.. haha..
so we went in.. n we took a long time to decide wat to eat from the menu coz everythin look very nice!! wa~~~~ price quite high..bt the food really got the standard.. so we decide to order the curry katsu don first.. to share among ourselves... so it's huge!! next we ordered the omelet, n it tasted like okonomiyaki.. but i dislike the part where they have so many cabbages below.. made me recall abt the choco dou hua we ate the day before.. den wat's next?? we ordered meso ramen.. huge too! n sashimi set!! served very grandly.. haha .. unagi on the hot plate, n uni gunkan.. (the sea urchin meat).. we ordered that becoz pam, al n me wanna try.. den kel kept sayin it's nice.. LOL.. den it finally came.. n it looked like alien's tongue.. al took the first bite.. he immed showed a weird face.. LOL.. den he nv eat le.. den i took the next bite.. it tasted like almost frozen otah wif the salty part forgotten, but the taste grew to become very bitter.. n pam said like washin machine powder.. scary la! i stil try to eat it all w more wasabi.. LOL.. den pam wan to eat bt keep wailing.. irritating lei.. wan to eat, eat.. dun eat, dun eat.. LOL.. mafan.. LOL.. haha no la.. but i dun think i'll eat it again.. nv...!
After that, we chat n tok n laughed.. n kel opened his presents.. we gav him s.h.e's cd album n saw the tao wa dat al bought from china.. those open liao stil got inside kind of doll.. wa very nice.. n very cute too XD.. we really got amazed by the doll coz the smallest doll is very funny.. LOL.. n hj's laughter stil the same.. haha.. but she gotta leave earlier coz she gotta see doc for her hurt arm.. so we settled the bill n left.. after that.. decide to go have some cakes at CA's.. but end up we had waffle n brownie.. haha stil nice la.. XD.. den we rush our way to take the last train home..
Wasted my day today.. slacked.. oh, i finally finished one-piece.. sad......!!!!!! when wil 46 be out??
Btw, it's very near to july.. n the module preference ex is so so near.. 4th july.. the day when i'd to start declaring wat i wanna do next sem.. (n prob the rest of my life).. the problem is.. i dun wanna think!!! i dun want to switch back to study mode!!
Ah.. dun spoil my mood first.. stil got abt a week plus to play like no tml...
After tuition ytdy, went wif pam to meet al, kel n hj to celebrate kel's bday at marina sq.. reached there.. we met at city hall.. al always the one the reach on time.. den hj wil be late.. den kel.. i duno abt him.. so we stood ard there n waited.. al lost his voice.. poor thing.. ya these few days weather is very bad.. i oso sought of get very bad sore throats every dawn.. do u have that too? or is it only me? painful to wake up.. ahh..
so finally met up w kel.. den we head our way to marina sq.. long walk there.. but it's a surprise we saw hf n his gf!! i saw his gf first.. was like.. eh.. this person looks very familiar .. den oh! hf gf.. den saw hf.. den oo! hf n his gf saw us n i think we're noisy.. LOL.. they're nice n funny.. moved on.. strolled our way to waraku.. alot of ppl! so we reserved our seats first.. went to somewhere ard 7-eleven to rest.. coz al not feelin well.. den kel suggest we took photo.. so we took.. against the 7-eleven cute backgrd.. haha.. anw.. nice~~ den hj came.. den we head to waraku.. just at the right moment again they called us.. haha..
so we went in.. n we took a long time to decide wat to eat from the menu coz everythin look very nice!! wa~~~~ price quite high..bt the food really got the standard.. so we decide to order the curry katsu don first.. to share among ourselves... so it's huge!! next we ordered the omelet, n it tasted like okonomiyaki.. but i dislike the part where they have so many cabbages below.. made me recall abt the choco dou hua we ate the day before.. den wat's next?? we ordered meso ramen.. huge too! n sashimi set!! served very grandly.. haha .. unagi on the hot plate, n uni gunkan.. (the sea urchin meat).. we ordered that becoz pam, al n me wanna try.. den kel kept sayin it's nice.. LOL.. den it finally came.. n it looked like alien's tongue.. al took the first bite.. he immed showed a weird face.. LOL.. den he nv eat le.. den i took the next bite.. it tasted like almost frozen otah wif the salty part forgotten, but the taste grew to become very bitter.. n pam said like washin machine powder.. scary la! i stil try to eat it all w more wasabi.. LOL.. den pam wan to eat bt keep wailing.. irritating lei.. wan to eat, eat.. dun eat, dun eat.. LOL.. mafan.. LOL.. haha no la.. but i dun think i'll eat it again.. nv...!
After that, we chat n tok n laughed.. n kel opened his presents.. we gav him s.h.e's cd album n saw the tao wa dat al bought from china.. those open liao stil got inside kind of doll.. wa very nice.. n very cute too XD.. we really got amazed by the doll coz the smallest doll is very funny.. LOL.. n hj's laughter stil the same.. haha.. but she gotta leave earlier coz she gotta see doc for her hurt arm.. so we settled the bill n left.. after that.. decide to go have some cakes at CA's.. but end up we had waffle n brownie.. haha stil nice la.. XD.. den we rush our way to take the last train home..
Wasted my day today.. slacked.. oh, i finally finished one-piece.. sad......!!!!!! when wil 46 be out??
23 June 2007
Trip wif HM
Very fun outing yesterday.
Early in the morning, before the shoppin centres are opened, meet up pam at cwp den go civic ctr to return our library books.. a lot of ppl queuein up.. omg.. all so hardworkin.. ya sch's starting next week.. so we dumped all the books into the slot n left for HM's hse.. bus came jus in the rite moment, board it..
Reached Hm's condo.. someone opened the gate jus in the right moment so we went in.. pam said she rmbr how to get to hm's place.. so followed her.. end up.. the lifts are locked.. need someone w the access card.. someone came jus in the right moment to open the door n we went in.. called hm.. den in the lift, the phone cut off.. reached hm's floor, den noticed we went the wrong block.. shld b the next one.. so gotta go down.. reached the next blk.. dun have the access card again.. so just the right moment again someone came n we can get in.. den reached hm's door... we're lucky.. so hm greeted us! lol.. n shadow! long time no see~!
Hm's hse stil neat n cosy n cool like a hotel as eva.. shadow veri cool oso.. den hm treated us w nice soya bean.. hm got digital piano.. so we started playin.. he taught me how to play another version of chopsticks.. den when we're playin.. shadow like not happy no one cares him, so he bite his basket (the one he slps on) to the centre of the living rm n start biting n makin irritating noises.. LOL.. pam was amazed.. den as we play on, the noises made become louder.. haha.. den hm turned to pam who was beside shadow n amazed by him, "can u please ctrl him?" LOL.. isnt that hm's dog? pam become blur..
Hm very pro can play quite a few songs.. den pam n me amazed by him.. hah.. den they started to watch tv.. n pam n me played on the piano awhile.. den headin to chinatown..
Reached cwp, hm suddenly got an urge to take cab.. so we take the cab there.. reached the lucky chinatown, den we went to kolo mee's to hav lunch.. they dun have my fav milk tea there.. why so weird.. den the staff there abit weird too.. all dun tok to each other.. n one staff even wear an mp3 when cookin the noodles.. after the lunch we went to the shop beside the kolo mee to have choco dou hua.. nt nice one! somemore so ex! walao.. den the bottom half is filled w shaved ice.. we're complainin n complainin how terrible it taste.. den hm suddenly blurt out very loudly," 有这么难吃吗？" LOL! he din realise the shopowner just behind the pillar.. HAHA.. den we din finish all n left ..
wanted to sing k-box, but since there got k-ster, we decide to try k-ster.. the staff.. that guy looks like ivn from pop.. the camera promoter.. so we went in.. the room.. so small.. the walls.. the paint kinda dropped.. then the seats dun have backrest.. den we decide to change rooms.. den we move to another room.. only 2 seats got backrest.. sian.. den we change room again.. to one room where everyone can have a taste of their backrest.. ok.. n so they cant dim the lights.. n u gotta choose the songs by clickin on the comp.. den we always mixed up.. den since the comp n the tv put together.. hm hav the tendency to try to move his mouse cursor from the comp to the tv.. LOL..
but overall.. we decide nt to go back again.. the sound system oso weird weird one.. n only can sing for 4 hrs.. quite turn off la.. so after that, decide to go to clarke quay's new shoppin centre.. is that called "the central"?? den was kinda hungry so we decidin to have somethin nice for dinner.. ok.. walked ard there.. most of the shops nt opened yet.. got one shop sellin jap snacks.. so we 3 bought some snacks.. den we went to see wat restaurants are opened.. ok.. quite a lot of jap restaurants.. got waraku oso..
end up we eat at the kopitiam.. but the kopitiam very cool! got some seats overlookin the sg river.. woohoo.. so we went to buy some jap food.. n minced chicken meat omelette.. that's nice too.. sat n tok.. haha.. saw ppl playin the bungee jump thing thru the mirror.. nice scenery.. we decide to go to the pavement below beside the river to take pics.. haha so off we went.. very funny.. took quite a lot of pics.. joked ard.. then went to clarke quay there w a lot of pubs n restaurants.. walked ard n took pics again.. den headed to meidiya.. shopped ard.. cool! we bought sushi to be shared.. n some jap snacks too.. i bought 纳豆.. goin home to try.. anw, it smelt like chocolate from far, den tasted salty n like duno how to describe.. why it's so thready? like how the cheese can make.. anw, i got disgusted w the texture more den the taste n i dun wanna eat liao.. dad mom n aunt all dun dare to eat too after one try.. LOL.. oso bought some wasabi nuts for dad.. that's very nice...
so we went to mac to have the sushi n pam n hm bought their drinks from mac.. nice.. chatted again.. den decide to head to audio house.. goin to see mp3.. but the gadgets there still seemed vry ex to me.. why 2gb all so ex? 1gb is nt enuff for my song library.. but they all looked nice.. n i think hm's one is very nice, very cool n clear oso.. is it called samsung k3?
After that went to kinokuniya.. den head straight to the bargain alley.. lol.. saw some nice books there but dun feel like buyin.. pam bought a chi book.. at 3 bucks.. haha nice.. den the shop's closin so gotta go.. left.. n head to clarke quay's central again to take train..
Long ride home.. bid gdbye to hm.. n he said he wanna cook smth one day n invite us to his hse to eat n come my hse one day to learn mahjong.. yeah!
Waited damn long for the stupid bus to come.. n when boardin, saw th.. oh... saw him again.. he said he went to holland v to hav his haircut, since his stylist is there.. den we tok abt tuition stuff coz he asked if i'm workin.. den he said if he got more tutees, he'd intro to me.. thanks!!!
Reached hm.. shared the snacks w the family.. they liked the nuts but despised the beans.. ha.. tired.. went to slp....
Sneeze myself awake this morn.. read abit of one piece.. oh no.. book 43! i dun wan the story to halt so soon.. ty lent me until 45.. is 46 out yet?? tuition later.. n today's pay day! but i'm nt prepared for today's a maths.. gettin harder.. ahhh... pam's first day in tuition too.. all the best to her!! later at nite after tuition goin to meet pam, kel, al, n hj to celebrate kel's bday.. long time nv see them le...... except pam.
Early in the morning, before the shoppin centres are opened, meet up pam at cwp den go civic ctr to return our library books.. a lot of ppl queuein up.. omg.. all so hardworkin.. ya sch's starting next week.. so we dumped all the books into the slot n left for HM's hse.. bus came jus in the rite moment, board it..
Reached Hm's condo.. someone opened the gate jus in the right moment so we went in.. pam said she rmbr how to get to hm's place.. so followed her.. end up.. the lifts are locked.. need someone w the access card.. someone came jus in the right moment to open the door n we went in.. called hm.. den in the lift, the phone cut off.. reached hm's floor, den noticed we went the wrong block.. shld b the next one.. so gotta go down.. reached the next blk.. dun have the access card again.. so just the right moment again someone came n we can get in.. den reached hm's door... we're lucky.. so hm greeted us! lol.. n shadow! long time no see~!
Hm's hse stil neat n cosy n cool like a hotel as eva.. shadow veri cool oso.. den hm treated us w nice soya bean.. hm got digital piano.. so we started playin.. he taught me how to play another version of chopsticks.. den when we're playin.. shadow like not happy no one cares him, so he bite his basket (the one he slps on) to the centre of the living rm n start biting n makin irritating noises.. LOL.. pam was amazed.. den as we play on, the noises made become louder.. haha.. den hm turned to pam who was beside shadow n amazed by him, "can u please ctrl him?" LOL.. isnt that hm's dog? pam become blur..
Hm very pro can play quite a few songs.. den pam n me amazed by him.. hah.. den they started to watch tv.. n pam n me played on the piano awhile.. den headin to chinatown..
Reached cwp, hm suddenly got an urge to take cab.. so we take the cab there.. reached the lucky chinatown, den we went to kolo mee's to hav lunch.. they dun have my fav milk tea there.. why so weird.. den the staff there abit weird too.. all dun tok to each other.. n one staff even wear an mp3 when cookin the noodles.. after the lunch we went to the shop beside the kolo mee to have choco dou hua.. nt nice one! somemore so ex! walao.. den the bottom half is filled w shaved ice.. we're complainin n complainin how terrible it taste.. den hm suddenly blurt out very loudly," 有这么难吃吗？" LOL! he din realise the shopowner just behind the pillar.. HAHA.. den we din finish all n left ..
wanted to sing k-box, but since there got k-ster, we decide to try k-ster.. the staff.. that guy looks like ivn from pop.. the camera promoter.. so we went in.. the room.. so small.. the walls.. the paint kinda dropped.. then the seats dun have backrest.. den we decide to change rooms.. den we move to another room.. only 2 seats got backrest.. sian.. den we change room again.. to one room where everyone can have a taste of their backrest.. ok.. n so they cant dim the lights.. n u gotta choose the songs by clickin on the comp.. den we always mixed up.. den since the comp n the tv put together.. hm hav the tendency to try to move his mouse cursor from the comp to the tv.. LOL..
but overall.. we decide nt to go back again.. the sound system oso weird weird one.. n only can sing for 4 hrs.. quite turn off la.. so after that, decide to go to clarke quay's new shoppin centre.. is that called "the central"?? den was kinda hungry so we decidin to have somethin nice for dinner.. ok.. walked ard there.. most of the shops nt opened yet.. got one shop sellin jap snacks.. so we 3 bought some snacks.. den we went to see wat restaurants are opened.. ok.. quite a lot of jap restaurants.. got waraku oso..
end up we eat at the kopitiam.. but the kopitiam very cool! got some seats overlookin the sg river.. woohoo.. so we went to buy some jap food.. n minced chicken meat omelette.. that's nice too.. sat n tok.. haha.. saw ppl playin the bungee jump thing thru the mirror.. nice scenery.. we decide to go to the pavement below beside the river to take pics.. haha so off we went.. very funny.. took quite a lot of pics.. joked ard.. then went to clarke quay there w a lot of pubs n restaurants.. walked ard n took pics again.. den headed to meidiya.. shopped ard.. cool! we bought sushi to be shared.. n some jap snacks too.. i bought 纳豆.. goin home to try.. anw, it smelt like chocolate from far, den tasted salty n like duno how to describe.. why it's so thready? like how the cheese can make.. anw, i got disgusted w the texture more den the taste n i dun wanna eat liao.. dad mom n aunt all dun dare to eat too after one try.. LOL.. oso bought some wasabi nuts for dad.. that's very nice...
so we went to mac to have the sushi n pam n hm bought their drinks from mac.. nice.. chatted again.. den decide to head to audio house.. goin to see mp3.. but the gadgets there still seemed vry ex to me.. why 2gb all so ex? 1gb is nt enuff for my song library.. but they all looked nice.. n i think hm's one is very nice, very cool n clear oso.. is it called samsung k3?
After that went to kinokuniya.. den head straight to the bargain alley.. lol.. saw some nice books there but dun feel like buyin.. pam bought a chi book.. at 3 bucks.. haha nice.. den the shop's closin so gotta go.. left.. n head to clarke quay's central again to take train..
Long ride home.. bid gdbye to hm.. n he said he wanna cook smth one day n invite us to his hse to eat n come my hse one day to learn mahjong.. yeah!
Waited damn long for the stupid bus to come.. n when boardin, saw th.. oh... saw him again.. he said he went to holland v to hav his haircut, since his stylist is there.. den we tok abt tuition stuff coz he asked if i'm workin.. den he said if he got more tutees, he'd intro to me.. thanks!!!
Reached hm.. shared the snacks w the family.. they liked the nuts but despised the beans.. ha.. tired.. went to slp....
Sneeze myself awake this morn.. read abit of one piece.. oh no.. book 43! i dun wan the story to halt so soon.. ty lent me until 45.. is 46 out yet?? tuition later.. n today's pay day! but i'm nt prepared for today's a maths.. gettin harder.. ahhh... pam's first day in tuition too.. all the best to her!! later at nite after tuition goin to meet pam, kel, al, n hj to celebrate kel's bday.. long time nv see them le...... except pam.
21 June 2007
Long time no see
It was nice to receive msgs from frens whom I'd not been catchin' up lately.
Jas told me she is now workin at suntec's Fish & Co. She said can ask the whole group to "chill out" there.. haha.. ya can ask sml, bro yj, pam, yf n hl (sry hl i forgot the whole list.. XD) oh! n maybe dicky? they all one day..
HY was very sweet ytdy to sms me n said she wanna book a day to celebrate my bday though it is stil one month ahead.. wa.. she's very nice.. haha thanks girl! am happy that we can meet up finally!
Rn offered me a job this fri.. just for that day.. but too bad i cant make it.. anyone interested??
HM was real excited that we're meetin up tml! yeah! goin his hse n sing k-.. yeah! he specially took leave for this outing.. we muz enjoy from the morn.. n can see shadow tml.. i wonder how is he alr..
Learning the song Brindisi from "La Traviata".. I will jy de!
I noticed piano cures my bad mood.. when i got so lost n irritable.. just PLAY.
I earned 10k ytdy in neopets. Woohoo~!
Ty got in to her journalism~! congrats to her!
Pam and me were jokin abt whether i can play na mo amithaba on the piano.. LOL! den we're sayin abt someone in the hse.. n someone rox.. i wonder if that's the reason for my sorethroat nt recoverin.. almost 4 days! XD
Reading the book of answers.. several enlightenments!
Aunt joked w me a lot these days. she seemed to be in a good mood.. oh her knitted shirt is almost done!
Mom made a lot of baju kurongs these days.. the customers haven come n claim.. nice! i wanna take pics of them.. waha..
Jas told me she is now workin at suntec's Fish & Co. She said can ask the whole group to "chill out" there.. haha.. ya can ask sml, bro yj, pam, yf n hl (sry hl i forgot the whole list.. XD) oh! n maybe dicky? they all one day..
HY was very sweet ytdy to sms me n said she wanna book a day to celebrate my bday though it is stil one month ahead.. wa.. she's very nice.. haha thanks girl! am happy that we can meet up finally!
Rn offered me a job this fri.. just for that day.. but too bad i cant make it.. anyone interested??
HM was real excited that we're meetin up tml! yeah! goin his hse n sing k-.. yeah! he specially took leave for this outing.. we muz enjoy from the morn.. n can see shadow tml.. i wonder how is he alr..
Learning the song Brindisi from "La Traviata".. I will jy de!
I noticed piano cures my bad mood.. when i got so lost n irritable.. just PLAY.
I earned 10k ytdy in neopets. Woohoo~!
Ty got in to her journalism~! congrats to her!
Pam and me were jokin abt whether i can play na mo amithaba on the piano.. LOL! den we're sayin abt someone in the hse.. n someone rox.. i wonder if that's the reason for my sorethroat nt recoverin.. almost 4 days! XD
Reading the book of answers.. several enlightenments!
Aunt joked w me a lot these days. she seemed to be in a good mood.. oh her knitted shirt is almost done!
Mom made a lot of baju kurongs these days.. the customers haven come n claim.. nice! i wanna take pics of them.. waha..
What is Love?
An extract from the chapter of the book i was reading..
What is Love?
by H.H. Dalai Lama
What is life all about? Buddha, a monk who lived more than two thousand years ago, had a very simple answer: We all want to be happy. Yet how do you become a happy person? Many people believe that they have achieved it once they are rich or famous or have as much power as possible. However, they often realise later on that life, even with lots of money and luxury, is still just as meaningless and empty as before. Buddha's recipe for happiness is stunningly simple: Try to become a good person. Since that's easier said than done, he offered a few tricks, like a good trainer.
It all starts in your own head. You have to change your attitude, your way of thinking: to do right and avoid wrong. We were not born into the world to harm others. Only by meeting every person with a warm heart and in friendship does our life have meaning. That is the foundation of my philosophy. The key to everything is love. But what is it, this thing we call "love"? Every day we hear the word "love" a thousand times. In the morning a voice on the radio chirps, "I love you." At midday you might say the word, with your heart racing, to a boy or girl you have a crush on. At night your mom whispers it into your ear and gives you a goodnight kiss. Surely you've also heard your father say that he loves his car or his video collection.
Still: Is everybody here talking about the same kind of love? I don't think so. Many people confuse love with pleasure or a momentary feeling of attraction to a person (or to a thing). This kind of love is unsteady and moody, like the weather. We love somebody because he has such beautiful eyes, because of the wise things she says, or for a thousand other reasons we have imagined. Later, when the sun stops shining, we realise that this kind of love was pure wishful thinking. It's similar with toys or clothes. An example: You go into a store, you suddenly see something you like, and you say, "I want it." At this moment, affection begins and turns this ordinary object into something special. You buy the object and you realise, now that you own it, that it looks even more beautiful. It's still the same thing you can find many times over in the store, but now that it's in your pocket, you start to love it, because it is only yours. In this case, love is nothing but possessive thinking.
Most people dream of romantic love as wonderful as in a Hollywood movie. Two people meet, all sorts of sparks fly, already they're blinded by love. Love crazy. Unfortunately, experience shows that relationships or marriages that emerge from this kind of love rarely last. A passionate relationship is indeed like a house built on ice. As soon as the ice melts, the building collapses. This kind of love can turn easily into tediousness and boredom. At worst, it can turn into hatred. This, unfortunately, happens all too easily between people who once loved each other. And so this, too, is not real, true love.
A couple in love once asked me, "Can we expect that our partner loves us back?" My answer: "No." That would be like a barter: If you love me, I love you too. That's the wrong attitude. In my opinion, love is something else altogether. True love is free of jealousy, free of conditions, and it knows no prejudice. This kind of affection is a little like what Jesus called "love for thy neighbor."
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Thoughts??
What is Love?
by H.H. Dalai Lama
What is life all about? Buddha, a monk who lived more than two thousand years ago, had a very simple answer: We all want to be happy. Yet how do you become a happy person? Many people believe that they have achieved it once they are rich or famous or have as much power as possible. However, they often realise later on that life, even with lots of money and luxury, is still just as meaningless and empty as before. Buddha's recipe for happiness is stunningly simple: Try to become a good person. Since that's easier said than done, he offered a few tricks, like a good trainer.
It all starts in your own head. You have to change your attitude, your way of thinking: to do right and avoid wrong. We were not born into the world to harm others. Only by meeting every person with a warm heart and in friendship does our life have meaning. That is the foundation of my philosophy. The key to everything is love. But what is it, this thing we call "love"? Every day we hear the word "love" a thousand times. In the morning a voice on the radio chirps, "I love you." At midday you might say the word, with your heart racing, to a boy or girl you have a crush on. At night your mom whispers it into your ear and gives you a goodnight kiss. Surely you've also heard your father say that he loves his car or his video collection.
Still: Is everybody here talking about the same kind of love? I don't think so. Many people confuse love with pleasure or a momentary feeling of attraction to a person (or to a thing). This kind of love is unsteady and moody, like the weather. We love somebody because he has such beautiful eyes, because of the wise things she says, or for a thousand other reasons we have imagined. Later, when the sun stops shining, we realise that this kind of love was pure wishful thinking. It's similar with toys or clothes. An example: You go into a store, you suddenly see something you like, and you say, "I want it." At this moment, affection begins and turns this ordinary object into something special. You buy the object and you realise, now that you own it, that it looks even more beautiful. It's still the same thing you can find many times over in the store, but now that it's in your pocket, you start to love it, because it is only yours. In this case, love is nothing but possessive thinking.
Most people dream of romantic love as wonderful as in a Hollywood movie. Two people meet, all sorts of sparks fly, already they're blinded by love. Love crazy. Unfortunately, experience shows that relationships or marriages that emerge from this kind of love rarely last. A passionate relationship is indeed like a house built on ice. As soon as the ice melts, the building collapses. This kind of love can turn easily into tediousness and boredom. At worst, it can turn into hatred. This, unfortunately, happens all too easily between people who once loved each other. And so this, too, is not real, true love.
A couple in love once asked me, "Can we expect that our partner loves us back?" My answer: "No." That would be like a barter: If you love me, I love you too. That's the wrong attitude. In my opinion, love is something else altogether. True love is free of jealousy, free of conditions, and it knows no prejudice. This kind of affection is a little like what Jesus called "love for thy neighbor."
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Thoughts??
20 June 2007
A lazy afternoon
Met up w pam ytdy afternoon at cwp.. we went to pop.. took sometime to decide which assessment book to buy for her tutee.. nice.. she bought 3 books.. n those 3 add up to the one e-maths book i bought for the tutee's sis.. LOL.. books got more ex when one's lv goes up.. we took quite sometime.. saw one promoter look like kiam piah.. same hairstyle.. he seemed slack.. n those kids were like destroyin his counter n he stil like din care n look ard.. zz..
Finished, we went to yakun for a tea break.. i love yakun's eggs n kaya roti.. pam went to buy the sets n while i was sitting there, was readin the history of yakun.. too bad i dun think he's alive now.. he came to sg in 1920s.. n he was 15 years old then.. wa.. nw the 15 year old sgporeans, wat r they doin? only know how to flirt n be spoilt.. n think of becoming celebrities.. nv go study, only know how to enjoy.. no wonder ppl criticise our generation.. LOL..
Sat n tok.. n abit not full, so decide to go ichiban.. i wan eat soft shell crab handroll, n pam wanted smth sweet.. so we seated ourselves comfortably inside.. at the cushiony counter seats.. our total bill wasnt even more than ten bucks.. nice.. oh btw, din see futoubang laoda.. pam n me were suspecting he got fired since he's so slack always.. LOL..we very bad..
After that, went to library.. wanted to see got score books or nt.. den oso went to fictional section n see those books al introduced.. written by michael crichton.. din found it at first.. so we went to children's section.. surprisingly, woodlands library din house as much books as i expect.. maybe ppl borrowed all.. found some music scores again.. nice.. walkin among the shelves.. pam borrowed her "the wind blow backwards".. again.. LOL.. how many times liao.. she really love that story a lot.. it's hard to imagine how the same book can amaze someone for so many times.. the book "the nobel book of answers" caught my eye.. it seemed very interesting.. those nobel prize winners wrote about those tough facets of life.. like why 1+1=2, n why there are poor n rich ppl in this world.. maybe after readin, my argumentative technique can become stronger?
Going to borrow the books, suddenly realise where the michael crichton books may be.. n yes! it's at the thriller's section.. but all left the "state of fear".. n it is so very very thick.. din borrow it.. just got amazed.. went home after that...
Late nite msn.. long time nv like that le.. chat w bro yj, ty, al.. n gr..
i dun like that gr.. he is very despo.. long time din chat w him.. den suddenly he chatted w me.. wanted to ask me out.. please! i'd rejectted him since jan.. so long le.. he asked me if wan go tennis course w him.. sorry.. but i'm nt into sports.. he asked me if i'd go out w him for a lunch this fri.. i really cant stand him.. i told him i'm meeting someone, but stil it's true anw.... den out of nowhere, he called my hp.. omg.. please! it's almost 1am! wat am i suppose to tok to him? i hung up.. coz i duno who was that.. he replied on msn n said it was him.. pervert.. i told him plz dun call at this hr.. he said sorry.. zzz..
n his fren.. zy.. din see him dis days. but he will always pm me when he saw me online n ask me out for movies or wat.. sigh.. funny thing is gr will be angry of zy contactin me n vice versa.. i duno wat they're thinkin.. n they're often askin me things abt uni stuff.. like gr, he's goin to smu, n zy goin to nus..
enuff of the despos..
chatted w bro.. nice chat.. we're arguin whether tenderness in the air appeared in ff7 or nt.. haha bro i really dun think so.. aiya.. anw.. he was complainin to me abt his sk2 fren.. n the anime cant dl liao.. odex? u called it.. haiyo.. like dat cannot dl.. very cruel lei.. was hearing from arn (a fren from jap class) a few days ago that he oso cant dl.. den he gotta go back to his home in ipoh den can dl.. n i was tellin bro how sickenin neopets can be.. the games are hard.. haha.. time attack.. i took sometime to reply..
discussed w al wat to buy for kel.. end up al told me abit abt wat he bought from china.. nice.. den duno why suddenly tok abt ff he got very high again.. lol.. he really love ff a lot.. asked him abt the song tenderness in the air.. we're discussing abt the score of this song.. i got the simplified version n i could only play the right hand part w/o the left n vice versa.. LOL.. al like can play the original version.. n i think that's very hard! aiya.. he's inhuman.. den we tok abt wat books we're readin.. n coincidentally, he was readin that book, "state of fear".. zz.. he very high, thought i read oso.. but no way.. so thick la! pam oso said scary.. he blamed me that he wanted to slp before 1am.. now he 2am stil haven slp.. wth.. he can just said bye wat.. but i like chatting wif him.. very hard to find ppl wif the same interests .. n i think he's very different from those childish ppl.. he tok more maturely.. n he taught pam n me how to see things more openly.. wait.. i'm only impressed.. nv think too much..
anw.. here's the score.. the simplified one of the tenderness in the air.. only one page long..
and here's the original version.. 4 page long..
Finished, we went to yakun for a tea break.. i love yakun's eggs n kaya roti.. pam went to buy the sets n while i was sitting there, was readin the history of yakun.. too bad i dun think he's alive now.. he came to sg in 1920s.. n he was 15 years old then.. wa.. nw the 15 year old sgporeans, wat r they doin? only know how to flirt n be spoilt.. n think of becoming celebrities.. nv go study, only know how to enjoy.. no wonder ppl criticise our generation.. LOL..
Sat n tok.. n abit not full, so decide to go ichiban.. i wan eat soft shell crab handroll, n pam wanted smth sweet.. so we seated ourselves comfortably inside.. at the cushiony counter seats.. our total bill wasnt even more than ten bucks.. nice.. oh btw, din see futoubang laoda.. pam n me were suspecting he got fired since he's so slack always.. LOL..we very bad..
After that, went to library.. wanted to see got score books or nt.. den oso went to fictional section n see those books al introduced.. written by michael crichton.. din found it at first.. so we went to children's section.. surprisingly, woodlands library din house as much books as i expect.. maybe ppl borrowed all.. found some music scores again.. nice.. walkin among the shelves.. pam borrowed her "the wind blow backwards".. again.. LOL.. how many times liao.. she really love that story a lot.. it's hard to imagine how the same book can amaze someone for so many times.. the book "the nobel book of answers" caught my eye.. it seemed very interesting.. those nobel prize winners wrote about those tough facets of life.. like why 1+1=2, n why there are poor n rich ppl in this world.. maybe after readin, my argumentative technique can become stronger?
Going to borrow the books, suddenly realise where the michael crichton books may be.. n yes! it's at the thriller's section.. but all left the "state of fear".. n it is so very very thick.. din borrow it.. just got amazed.. went home after that...
Late nite msn.. long time nv like that le.. chat w bro yj, ty, al.. n gr..
i dun like that gr.. he is very despo.. long time din chat w him.. den suddenly he chatted w me.. wanted to ask me out.. please! i'd rejectted him since jan.. so long le.. he asked me if wan go tennis course w him.. sorry.. but i'm nt into sports.. he asked me if i'd go out w him for a lunch this fri.. i really cant stand him.. i told him i'm meeting someone, but stil it's true anw.... den out of nowhere, he called my hp.. omg.. please! it's almost 1am! wat am i suppose to tok to him? i hung up.. coz i duno who was that.. he replied on msn n said it was him.. pervert.. i told him plz dun call at this hr.. he said sorry.. zzz..
n his fren.. zy.. din see him dis days. but he will always pm me when he saw me online n ask me out for movies or wat.. sigh.. funny thing is gr will be angry of zy contactin me n vice versa.. i duno wat they're thinkin.. n they're often askin me things abt uni stuff.. like gr, he's goin to smu, n zy goin to nus..
enuff of the despos..
chatted w bro.. nice chat.. we're arguin whether tenderness in the air appeared in ff7 or nt.. haha bro i really dun think so.. aiya.. anw.. he was complainin to me abt his sk2 fren.. n the anime cant dl liao.. odex? u called it.. haiyo.. like dat cannot dl.. very cruel lei.. was hearing from arn (a fren from jap class) a few days ago that he oso cant dl.. den he gotta go back to his home in ipoh den can dl.. n i was tellin bro how sickenin neopets can be.. the games are hard.. haha.. time attack.. i took sometime to reply..
discussed w al wat to buy for kel.. end up al told me abit abt wat he bought from china.. nice.. den duno why suddenly tok abt ff he got very high again.. lol.. he really love ff a lot.. asked him abt the song tenderness in the air.. we're discussing abt the score of this song.. i got the simplified version n i could only play the right hand part w/o the left n vice versa.. LOL.. al like can play the original version.. n i think that's very hard! aiya.. he's inhuman.. den we tok abt wat books we're readin.. n coincidentally, he was readin that book, "state of fear".. zz.. he very high, thought i read oso.. but no way.. so thick la! pam oso said scary.. he blamed me that he wanted to slp before 1am.. now he 2am stil haven slp.. wth.. he can just said bye wat.. but i like chatting wif him.. very hard to find ppl wif the same interests .. n i think he's very different from those childish ppl.. he tok more maturely.. n he taught pam n me how to see things more openly.. wait.. i'm only impressed.. nv think too much..
anw.. here's the score.. the simplified one of the tenderness in the air.. only one page long..
and here's the original version.. 4 page long..
19 June 2007
Dancing Mad
Dancing mad from FFVI is nice. VERY GRAND SONG.
XD
Piano lesson ytdy. *record: i almost finish half of the textbook le! =D
Cristofori piano is very different from Asahi's. Noticed this when i went to practice yesterday. in the practice rooms, it is cristofori's piano. den the studio room, where we have our lesson, they used the asahi, den that piano sounds so much better, n so are the keys.. i cant play chopstix on cristofori's piano.. too stiff for the keys..
Later goin to pop w pam.. she goin to teach tuition this sat le! gonna choose a good assessment for her.. =D
I'm back to neopets these days. duno why, i craze in earnin NPs.. n i saw some gifts given to me from him.. last time.. i now keep them in the shop.. =P
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Several ugly thoughts n happenings.. in life..
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I am getting pissed.
Dad wanted to borrow $200 from me ytdy nite. I asked him why. He said, "borrow lor." Now every night, he will receive a call from his new gf (an uncle_bachelor).. den he will dash out of the house. sometimes, w/o eatin mom's dinner. he said recently, he went to johor to have dinner w his frens. in fact, they went to a lounge to see football match.. den further askin, he said got aunties in the lounge oso. WTF when u put a few men in a lounge w beer.
I can nv understand why we nv get rich, despite dad had a salary of abt $4000. Aunt worked too. Mom worked from home too. I worked for tuition too. Now wat? It's stil hard to see things like $100 as cheap. Dad gave me abt 1/8 of his salary as pocket money. turns out usually, after half a mth he will borrow money from me like this again. where the fuck the rest of the 7/8 of the money go? esp, now is my sch hols. dad n mom thinks that i'm the luckiest child in the world to hav pocket money during hols. they will mumble n mumble. wat's so big abt ur money away. i dun live under terms n condition w u.
In the end, he felt 200 is quite a burden for me. so he said, 100 den. he received a call. he gotta rush. n he said, "girl, where's the 100?".. i have to use pcs of 10 bucks n 2 bucks.. in fact, he won the 4d last night. he won 60 bucks. he spent 62 bucks on the bet. It's usual. n y 200 for his fren? wat have they done?
On father's day. we treated him a nice dinner at dian xiao er. he nv said thanks. he said after dinner he gotta meet his fren. he said he'd be back soon. around midnight 12. he just go n place bets for the soccer match. when i slept at abt 1.30am, he haven came back.
Mom liked to yell from outside. Usually i'm in the room. she yelled like she need help. I had to stop watever i'm doin. n rushed out. den she would say things that it's nt urgent at all. like "drink water", "you ate .. alr?", "later ........" .. For god's sake can she just come in n tok? or wait if she dun wanna move her ass in n tok?
She will blast her radio in the living room. damn loud. n i cant hear wat she yells from outside. den rush out, sometimes my legs get numb becoz i was seated for quite sometime, den rushed out, she'd said negligible stuff.
She gotta bring some food to ah ma's hse below our hse ytdy. Two plates on her hand. she yelled from outside when i am in the room. "come out help me open the door, i cant do it myself!!" i rushed up from wat i'm doin n my legs got numbed.. i crawled my way out.. n kinda sprained my ankle when i reached the door.. the pain is unbearable.. she got impatient. she put down the two plates on the table beside the door. she took the keys n opened the door herself.. i was thinkin" damn shit den why u call me for?" she din even asked me how was my leg.. i said "den u call me for wat when u can open the door urself?" she said, den u help me close the door.. i closed the doors for her.. the keys are still on the lock. she din have the keys w her. i was thinkin, later when she come up, she need the keys to open again. so i waited for her at the door. i thot she'd be fast. she was late den expected.. i got impatient. tied the keys to pillow's bandana dat pillow was wearing. if she need the keys, pillow can get for her. went to toilet. came out, the keys are stil w pillow. i asked her why. she said, "i got bring another keys w me". FUCK. cant she say earlier??
Holidays. The whole family agreed that the person havin hol is the free-est of all. Mom's every trip to hospital shall be accompanied by the free daughter, if nt, the daughter is unfaithful. when i had a fren's appointment that day, she kinda demanded i be free, since she's goin to the hospital, despite that she was well enuff to go herself. Came back to think of it. when her mom was sick, did she do the same? she only push the responsibilities to her other siblings.
Dad's mom, the ah ma living below our hse, was feeling unwell these days. she gotta go hospital. mom nv bring her. she said, she was unwell herself. dad said, the other siblings can do it. when mom's dad (livin in msia), gotta get an operation, they only know how to give commands thru the phone to the only son of granddad (since they're livin together), like which hospital to go, wat they must do, when must bring them to check-ups, to show their concern. they only visit granddad after his operation. n they complained that granddad shall nt be discharged soon, since my uncle(my grandma's only son) n his wife will nt take gd care of him, n wat if anythin happened..
Damn the world.
XD
Piano lesson ytdy. *record: i almost finish half of the textbook le! =D
Cristofori piano is very different from Asahi's. Noticed this when i went to practice yesterday. in the practice rooms, it is cristofori's piano. den the studio room, where we have our lesson, they used the asahi, den that piano sounds so much better, n so are the keys.. i cant play chopstix on cristofori's piano.. too stiff for the keys..
Later goin to pop w pam.. she goin to teach tuition this sat le! gonna choose a good assessment for her.. =D
I'm back to neopets these days. duno why, i craze in earnin NPs.. n i saw some gifts given to me from him.. last time.. i now keep them in the shop.. =P
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Several ugly thoughts n happenings.. in life..
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I am getting pissed.
Dad wanted to borrow $200 from me ytdy nite. I asked him why. He said, "borrow lor." Now every night, he will receive a call from his new gf (an uncle_bachelor).. den he will dash out of the house. sometimes, w/o eatin mom's dinner. he said recently, he went to johor to have dinner w his frens. in fact, they went to a lounge to see football match.. den further askin, he said got aunties in the lounge oso. WTF when u put a few men in a lounge w beer.
I can nv understand why we nv get rich, despite dad had a salary of abt $4000. Aunt worked too. Mom worked from home too. I worked for tuition too. Now wat? It's stil hard to see things like $100 as cheap. Dad gave me abt 1/8 of his salary as pocket money. turns out usually, after half a mth he will borrow money from me like this again. where the fuck the rest of the 7/8 of the money go? esp, now is my sch hols. dad n mom thinks that i'm the luckiest child in the world to hav pocket money during hols. they will mumble n mumble. wat's so big abt ur money away. i dun live under terms n condition w u.
In the end, he felt 200 is quite a burden for me. so he said, 100 den. he received a call. he gotta rush. n he said, "girl, where's the 100?".. i have to use pcs of 10 bucks n 2 bucks.. in fact, he won the 4d last night. he won 60 bucks. he spent 62 bucks on the bet. It's usual. n y 200 for his fren? wat have they done?
On father's day. we treated him a nice dinner at dian xiao er. he nv said thanks. he said after dinner he gotta meet his fren. he said he'd be back soon. around midnight 12. he just go n place bets for the soccer match. when i slept at abt 1.30am, he haven came back.
Mom liked to yell from outside. Usually i'm in the room. she yelled like she need help. I had to stop watever i'm doin. n rushed out. den she would say things that it's nt urgent at all. like "drink water", "you ate .. alr?", "later ........" .. For god's sake can she just come in n tok? or wait if she dun wanna move her ass in n tok?
She will blast her radio in the living room. damn loud. n i cant hear wat she yells from outside. den rush out, sometimes my legs get numb becoz i was seated for quite sometime, den rushed out, she'd said negligible stuff.
She gotta bring some food to ah ma's hse below our hse ytdy. Two plates on her hand. she yelled from outside when i am in the room. "come out help me open the door, i cant do it myself!!" i rushed up from wat i'm doin n my legs got numbed.. i crawled my way out.. n kinda sprained my ankle when i reached the door.. the pain is unbearable.. she got impatient. she put down the two plates on the table beside the door. she took the keys n opened the door herself.. i was thinkin" damn shit den why u call me for?" she din even asked me how was my leg.. i said "den u call me for wat when u can open the door urself?" she said, den u help me close the door.. i closed the doors for her.. the keys are still on the lock. she din have the keys w her. i was thinkin, later when she come up, she need the keys to open again. so i waited for her at the door. i thot she'd be fast. she was late den expected.. i got impatient. tied the keys to pillow's bandana dat pillow was wearing. if she need the keys, pillow can get for her. went to toilet. came out, the keys are stil w pillow. i asked her why. she said, "i got bring another keys w me". FUCK. cant she say earlier??
Holidays. The whole family agreed that the person havin hol is the free-est of all. Mom's every trip to hospital shall be accompanied by the free daughter, if nt, the daughter is unfaithful. when i had a fren's appointment that day, she kinda demanded i be free, since she's goin to the hospital, despite that she was well enuff to go herself. Came back to think of it. when her mom was sick, did she do the same? she only push the responsibilities to her other siblings.
Dad's mom, the ah ma living below our hse, was feeling unwell these days. she gotta go hospital. mom nv bring her. she said, she was unwell herself. dad said, the other siblings can do it. when mom's dad (livin in msia), gotta get an operation, they only know how to give commands thru the phone to the only son of granddad (since they're livin together), like which hospital to go, wat they must do, when must bring them to check-ups, to show their concern. they only visit granddad after his operation. n they complained that granddad shall nt be discharged soon, since my uncle(my grandma's only son) n his wife will nt take gd care of him, n wat if anythin happened..
Damn the world.
Dead Couples
Clean forget about the past. Wat all dead couples should believe in. There's nothing better to remember. All those sweet memories were just fake to the present.
I am disgusted.
Looking ahead. Sorry. Dun blame me for the ignorance to you now.
New life. From this date. 19th Jun 2007. That's the furthest I go with you. Strangers from now.
I am disgusted.
Looking ahead. Sorry. Dun blame me for the ignorance to you now.
New life. From this date. 19th Jun 2007. That's the furthest I go with you. Strangers from now.
18 June 2007
Play! Video Game Symphony
The Play! Video Game Symphony was great!
I can still rmbr vividly wat happened on that day though it was a few days ago. Ok, so we doll ourselves up for the event, not say doll la, just wear stuff that we wun usually wear.. n we're nt the only one wif this mentality of wearing nice to the concert.. met up pam for a mac breakfast n met up ty at the platform. we chatted our way there..
Reached city hall, quite a lot of ppl, but turnin towards the esplanade instead of continue walkin in the city link.. very excited.. went to the toilet..very cool n nice.. went to the concert hall, a lot of ppl there alr.. i believe most are fans of ff.. got our program book n was so excited!! the song lists as follows:
Play! a video game symphony (fanfare)
Super Mario Bros (suite)
Shenmue n Shenmue II (Sedge Tree)
Lost Odyssey (Main theme)
Sonic the Hedgehog (Suite)
Metal Gear Solid (Main theme)
Blue Dragon (Main theme)
Kingdom Hearts (Suite)
FF VI (Dancing Mad)
Intermission
Daytona USA (Piano w singin)
The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion (Suite)
Chrono Trigger n Chrono Cross (Suite)
World of Warcraft (Suite)
HALO (Suite)
Castlevania (Suite)
The Legend of Zelda (Suite)
FF VII (One-winged Angel)
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So we went in.. showin our tix.. alot of usherers.. very nice.. sellin their stuff at the bar counter.. the prog book they sold is 30 bucks.. n i wondered who will buy.. no surprise.. al did.. LOL.. den they sold ff cd albums also.. very ex.. 40 bucks.. i told pam i knew where to get the songs online.. haha.. then there's this blue dragon! we took pic with the blue dragon! it's like releasin the new game on ps3 soon.. then at first, pam hurried away coz she's afraid of the dragon.. it's quite big LOL.. den i hurried along too.. den ty said she wanna took pic w the dragon.. then we head back.. haha.. pam din wanna stand close to the dragon.. LOL..
Ty very cheekily slap the small opening the person in the dragon need for breathing.. LOL.. den i was tokin after takin the pic, den the dragon use its mouth to poke my head.. LOL.. cheeky dragon too.. den we head in to door 2 n took some pics.. n waiting for the time to come n get ourselves seated comfortably inside.. the band alr sitting on the stage tuning n prac at their own..
So the concert started.. n the first song began.. from ff.. omg.. the music.. i can say my heart is pounding so greatly.. i nv hear such nice music live.. maybe becoz they're the songs i heard before.. n hearin it perform live w the visuals.. very interesting arrangements.. i realli love the concert.. n wonderin when will there be such concerts in the near future.. loved the song one-winged angel the most.. followed by dancing mad.. the world of warcraft is nice too.. so they finished, n we had an encore.. the song is from descendant of shinobi.. quite nice too.. but the visuals abit funny.. LOL..
Finished.. left reluntantly.. gotta go golden mile to place the trip tix order.. so we took a cab there.. the taxi uncle very kou hua hua.. we entered the cab n said we're headin to golden mile..
TX uncle: so u all goin to thailand?
P, T n me: (thought) thailand.. why thailand.. weird uncle
Me: no we're goin to japan..
TX uncle: wa.. there got tix to go japan one ah? so rich oh..
Ty: haha no la.. we go there to work as hard labor..
TX uncle: how u wanna go to golden mile?
Me: the fastest route please. dun cheat our money
TX uncle: i so gd.. wun cheat ur money one la.. btw, u 3 so pretty, so must times 3 to the cab fare.. later the cost if is 6 bucks, u all have to pay me 18 bucks
TY: but uncle u so handsome, u have to let us times 3 oso, so if the cost is 6 bucks, we pay 2 bucks can le..
*almost reaching....
TX uncle: u all how old ah? 18? 19?
Me: we're 30.
Pam: i am alr married.. got 2 children alr..
TX uncle: dun lie la.. u all veri bad.. i dun believe
Pam: realli lor.. i got 2 children le.. u so bad.. later i tel my man to come find u..
*Reached..
P, T n me hurried out..
Tx uncle: u all hor.... ....................................................... (fade to silence)
So we bought the tix.. leavin on 10th jul.. yeah! finally we are goin to the trip.. very lookin forward to it.. after that, took bus 100 n reached vivo.. went to eat at carl's jr.. my first time there.. wow the burger's huge.. very filling.. 3 of us shared the super cheesy beef set with a fillet side order.. nice! chatted n ate.. rest our feet too.. been wearin uncomfortable shoes.. after that, went to walk ard vivo.. been to daiso.. pet's station.. the opening.. very dark n a lot of people there at the restaurants celebrating early father's day.. went home after that..
On sunday, happy father's day..
woke up late.. laze around.. prac piano.. family wanted to go cwp to celebrate dad's day at dian xiao er.. went in.. ordered a lot.. but every dish is nice! had a hearty n full meal.. i am really growin fat.. reached hm quite early too..
Today got tuition n piano lesson.. =D
I can still rmbr vividly wat happened on that day though it was a few days ago. Ok, so we doll ourselves up for the event, not say doll la, just wear stuff that we wun usually wear.. n we're nt the only one wif this mentality of wearing nice to the concert.. met up pam for a mac breakfast n met up ty at the platform. we chatted our way there..
Reached city hall, quite a lot of ppl, but turnin towards the esplanade instead of continue walkin in the city link.. very excited.. went to the toilet..very cool n nice.. went to the concert hall, a lot of ppl there alr.. i believe most are fans of ff.. got our program book n was so excited!! the song lists as follows:
Play! a video game symphony (fanfare)
Super Mario Bros (suite)
Shenmue n Shenmue II (Sedge Tree)
Lost Odyssey (Main theme)
Sonic the Hedgehog (Suite)
Metal Gear Solid (Main theme)
Blue Dragon (Main theme)
Kingdom Hearts (Suite)
FF VI (Dancing Mad)
Intermission
Daytona USA (Piano w singin)
The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion (Suite)
Chrono Trigger n Chrono Cross (Suite)
World of Warcraft (Suite)
HALO (Suite)
Castlevania (Suite)
The Legend of Zelda (Suite)
FF VII (One-winged Angel)
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So we went in.. showin our tix.. alot of usherers.. very nice.. sellin their stuff at the bar counter.. the prog book they sold is 30 bucks.. n i wondered who will buy.. no surprise.. al did.. LOL.. den they sold ff cd albums also.. very ex.. 40 bucks.. i told pam i knew where to get the songs online.. haha.. then there's this blue dragon! we took pic with the blue dragon! it's like releasin the new game on ps3 soon.. then at first, pam hurried away coz she's afraid of the dragon.. it's quite big LOL.. den i hurried along too.. den ty said she wanna took pic w the dragon.. then we head back.. haha.. pam din wanna stand close to the dragon.. LOL..
Ty very cheekily slap the small opening the person in the dragon need for breathing.. LOL.. den i was tokin after takin the pic, den the dragon use its mouth to poke my head.. LOL.. cheeky dragon too.. den we head in to door 2 n took some pics.. n waiting for the time to come n get ourselves seated comfortably inside.. the band alr sitting on the stage tuning n prac at their own..
So the concert started.. n the first song began.. from ff.. omg.. the music.. i can say my heart is pounding so greatly.. i nv hear such nice music live.. maybe becoz they're the songs i heard before.. n hearin it perform live w the visuals.. very interesting arrangements.. i realli love the concert.. n wonderin when will there be such concerts in the near future.. loved the song one-winged angel the most.. followed by dancing mad.. the world of warcraft is nice too.. so they finished, n we had an encore.. the song is from descendant of shinobi.. quite nice too.. but the visuals abit funny.. LOL..
Finished.. left reluntantly.. gotta go golden mile to place the trip tix order.. so we took a cab there.. the taxi uncle very kou hua hua.. we entered the cab n said we're headin to golden mile..
TX uncle: so u all goin to thailand?
P, T n me: (thought) thailand.. why thailand.. weird uncle
Me: no we're goin to japan..
TX uncle: wa.. there got tix to go japan one ah? so rich oh..
Ty: haha no la.. we go there to work as hard labor..
TX uncle: how u wanna go to golden mile?
Me: the fastest route please. dun cheat our money
TX uncle: i so gd.. wun cheat ur money one la.. btw, u 3 so pretty, so must times 3 to the cab fare.. later the cost if is 6 bucks, u all have to pay me 18 bucks
TY: but uncle u so handsome, u have to let us times 3 oso, so if the cost is 6 bucks, we pay 2 bucks can le..
*almost reaching....
TX uncle: u all how old ah? 18? 19?
Me: we're 30.
Pam: i am alr married.. got 2 children alr..
TX uncle: dun lie la.. u all veri bad.. i dun believe
Pam: realli lor.. i got 2 children le.. u so bad.. later i tel my man to come find u..
*Reached..
P, T n me hurried out..
Tx uncle: u all hor.... ....................................................... (fade to silence)
So we bought the tix.. leavin on 10th jul.. yeah! finally we are goin to the trip.. very lookin forward to it.. after that, took bus 100 n reached vivo.. went to eat at carl's jr.. my first time there.. wow the burger's huge.. very filling.. 3 of us shared the super cheesy beef set with a fillet side order.. nice! chatted n ate.. rest our feet too.. been wearin uncomfortable shoes.. after that, went to walk ard vivo.. been to daiso.. pet's station.. the opening.. very dark n a lot of people there at the restaurants celebrating early father's day.. went home after that..
On sunday, happy father's day..
woke up late.. laze around.. prac piano.. family wanted to go cwp to celebrate dad's day at dian xiao er.. went in.. ordered a lot.. but every dish is nice! had a hearty n full meal.. i am really growin fat.. reached hm quite early too..
Today got tuition n piano lesson.. =D
16 June 2007
Moody Dress
I wanted to wear some dress to the concert.
Had a black dress. I wore it once to someone's wedding. I was fat. I thought i cant wear it again. So i stored it in the wardrobe for a year. Aunt recalled to me that i had this dress. dun waste money to get one new.
Tried it. It looked nice. n i admit i slimmed down a lot compared to a year ago. The dress looked nice n 'airy' on me. I took a closer look. many torns. the dress quality is bad. i can tore the dress up like how i tore a seaweed. mom said this dress is hopeless. n i better not wear it. since it's as strong as a seaweed.
I wanted to wear some dress to the concert.
I have to go tuition.
My contact lens had been worn for a month n a half. i suspected the fever is induced partially by the lens. I have to get new lens soon.
So meet up pam after tuition. go chongpang n get the new lens den later on, a new dress.
Chong pang housed nth more than north pt. we decided to head to cwp. saw TH's bro, TL in nthpt. he's stil the same. he's in ns.
More selections but i still cant get any thing nicer. I decided to just buy a white skirt n see wat top i can match from hm.
Pam bought a white bag. she once wanted it small, n clutchy. she once wanted it big to fill everything. she once wanted the several compartments. she once wanted no compartments at all. she made 3 final decisions. but she got the last bag. ok la. the bag that she got was real nice. so no regrets.
Head home. went to bus interchange. n saw szl. long time no see. she made me recall all the guzheng memories in sch. she is stil the same. but real nice to see her.
Hop on the bus. get a back seat. n i oso got myself a pair of stomata eyes. reading phone msg. someone put his palm on my face. it's TH. Long time no see too. he's still as tall. when i speak to him wif me sitting n him standin, i feel my necks in an obtuse angle. he's now in year 3 alr. time flies.
Reached hm. ate my dinner heartily.
thanks pam for ur accompany. =D
Had a black dress. I wore it once to someone's wedding. I was fat. I thought i cant wear it again. So i stored it in the wardrobe for a year. Aunt recalled to me that i had this dress. dun waste money to get one new.
Tried it. It looked nice. n i admit i slimmed down a lot compared to a year ago. The dress looked nice n 'airy' on me. I took a closer look. many torns. the dress quality is bad. i can tore the dress up like how i tore a seaweed. mom said this dress is hopeless. n i better not wear it. since it's as strong as a seaweed.
I wanted to wear some dress to the concert.
I have to go tuition.
My contact lens had been worn for a month n a half. i suspected the fever is induced partially by the lens. I have to get new lens soon.
So meet up pam after tuition. go chongpang n get the new lens den later on, a new dress.
Chong pang housed nth more than north pt. we decided to head to cwp. saw TH's bro, TL in nthpt. he's stil the same. he's in ns.
More selections but i still cant get any thing nicer. I decided to just buy a white skirt n see wat top i can match from hm.
Pam bought a white bag. she once wanted it small, n clutchy. she once wanted it big to fill everything. she once wanted the several compartments. she once wanted no compartments at all. she made 3 final decisions. but she got the last bag. ok la. the bag that she got was real nice. so no regrets.
Head home. went to bus interchange. n saw szl. long time no see. she made me recall all the guzheng memories in sch. she is stil the same. but real nice to see her.
Hop on the bus. get a back seat. n i oso got myself a pair of stomata eyes. reading phone msg. someone put his palm on my face. it's TH. Long time no see too. he's still as tall. when i speak to him wif me sitting n him standin, i feel my necks in an obtuse angle. he's now in year 3 alr. time flies.
Reached hm. ate my dinner heartily.
thanks pam for ur accompany. =D
15 June 2007
Potong Pasir Trip
Having tuition later. A-maths again. *Headache. Another 3 hrs of pain. But for $60++, i will jy.
Went to golden mile w pam on wed. ok.. the trip was almost decided. quite good bargains for three ppl.. so goin to sunway.. *excited XD think we're goin on july. after that, went to dhoby.. n shopped for bro yj's present.. n walked ard.. went to browhaus too.. had set A at kopitiam.. n we're complaining we missed yakun.. LOL.. spent our time there.. n waiting for ty..
Met ty to go potong pasir.. she's writting for u-weekly abt potong pasir. .very big challenge coz there just isnt much to write.. n the place is very ulu.. so we walked until our legs got so painful.. came to macpherson there to have dinner.. very oil-generating coz it's very hot.. reached hm.. late n very tired...
Meet pam early in the morn on thur to go nus return the manga we borrowed.. long way there n back.. after that, met bro yj at amk hub.. wanted to eat at ichiban.. so we did.. very fulling.. finished, we went to watch fantastic 4.. too bad, the cathay nt opened yet.. so went to jubilee's eng wah.. n we're complaining how kee-kok engwah is.. lol.. after that, went back to amk hub n walked ard.. went to fish n co for dinner.. so filling again.. went home after that.. it was fun, but tiring..
N reached hm.. i duno y, i think i fell sick.. i'm feeling so hot inside but when i went under the fan, the coolness made me sting w icy cold pain.. symptoms of fever.. drank a lot of water n had some pills.. went to slp at 8.30pm.. tired.. n feeling better today..
Went to golden mile w pam on wed. ok.. the trip was almost decided. quite good bargains for three ppl.. so goin to sunway.. *excited XD think we're goin on july. after that, went to dhoby.. n shopped for bro yj's present.. n walked ard.. went to browhaus too.. had set A at kopitiam.. n we're complaining we missed yakun.. LOL.. spent our time there.. n waiting for ty..
Met ty to go potong pasir.. she's writting for u-weekly abt potong pasir. .very big challenge coz there just isnt much to write.. n the place is very ulu.. so we walked until our legs got so painful.. came to macpherson there to have dinner.. very oil-generating coz it's very hot.. reached hm.. late n very tired...
Meet pam early in the morn on thur to go nus return the manga we borrowed.. long way there n back.. after that, met bro yj at amk hub.. wanted to eat at ichiban.. so we did.. very fulling.. finished, we went to watch fantastic 4.. too bad, the cathay nt opened yet.. so went to jubilee's eng wah.. n we're complaining how kee-kok engwah is.. lol.. after that, went back to amk hub n walked ard.. went to fish n co for dinner.. so filling again.. went home after that.. it was fun, but tiring..
N reached hm.. i duno y, i think i fell sick.. i'm feeling so hot inside but when i went under the fan, the coolness made me sting w icy cold pain.. symptoms of fever.. drank a lot of water n had some pills.. went to slp at 8.30pm.. tired.. n feeling better today..
14 June 2007
Some thots on MSN
Is it good to make urself seemed contactable but not at all? U seemed to be driving people away. I wonder y u have to be online when u're busy. n make urself seemed so distant. ya, on msn.
*another stupid thot that crossed my mind.
I am tired becoz i was doin so much stuff. i forgot wat i did. oh i recalled. walkin. breathing. eating. living my life.
*another stupid thot that crossed my mind.
I am tired becoz i was doin so much stuff. i forgot wat i did. oh i recalled. walkin. breathing. eating. living my life.
12 June 2007
没有意义的发泄
没有意义的发泄
不承认自己的感情因为怕陷得太深。
承认是不是会好一点？
也没用。因为已经不可能了。
他是希望、也是梦想。
但是，现在他使我绝望。
为什么我常梦见他？为什么他梦见我也跟我说？
是暧昧？
凡事末强求。
我的确强求着太多太多了。
但是，难道又要随性作抉择？
我做不到。
合时又会有希望？
不承认自己的感情因为怕陷得太深。
承认是不是会好一点？
也没用。因为已经不可能了。
他是希望、也是梦想。
但是，现在他使我绝望。
为什么我常梦见他？为什么他梦见我也跟我说？
是暧昧？
凡事末强求。
我的确强求着太多太多了。
但是，难道又要随性作抉择？
我做不到。
合时又会有希望？
Plain Moody
Plain moody.
I scolded a lot of vulgarities these days.
I don't know why. I am traumatized and sad and disappointed. Most probably the fren's issue. sigh. is it so hard to maintain friendships? and i think i had been a little kpo these days. people not keen i keen for wat. it's nt my problem anyway n why do i have to stuck my nose into it? i imagined everyone to be as keen as me. lamer me. grow up please. stop getting yourself hurt.
It always take time to reveal how one really is. and thanks. i saw a few monsters hidden in veils revealing themselves recently and am in an emotional rollar coaster ride. cool.
Anw, still a lot of things to look forward to. i dun live for someone.
Going golden mile tml wif pam. we're stil goin to the trip, though al's nt comin now. Meeting ty later on to go potong pasir have dinner.. another meetin up!
Celebrating bro yj's bday this thur! yeah! sure fun.. goin to ichiban n fish n co n the movies. =D wat's more??
Play concert this sat! finally! it's finally here.. =D
So many things to look forward to. n yes, i shallnt be bothered by pissing ppl.
I scolded a lot of vulgarities these days.
I don't know why. I am traumatized and sad and disappointed. Most probably the fren's issue. sigh. is it so hard to maintain friendships? and i think i had been a little kpo these days. people not keen i keen for wat. it's nt my problem anyway n why do i have to stuck my nose into it? i imagined everyone to be as keen as me. lamer me. grow up please. stop getting yourself hurt.
It always take time to reveal how one really is. and thanks. i saw a few monsters hidden in veils revealing themselves recently and am in an emotional rollar coaster ride. cool.
Anw, still a lot of things to look forward to. i dun live for someone.
Going golden mile tml wif pam. we're stil goin to the trip, though al's nt comin now. Meeting ty later on to go potong pasir have dinner.. another meetin up!
Celebrating bro yj's bday this thur! yeah! sure fun.. goin to ichiban n fish n co n the movies. =D wat's more??
Play concert this sat! finally! it's finally here.. =D
So many things to look forward to. n yes, i shallnt be bothered by pissing ppl.
11 June 2007
Learn to be Lazy
Can nv wake up before 9.30am these days..
My luck: No tuitions these weekend, surprisingly. Had nv enjoy such a tuitionless week.
Reading one piece: book 36.
Piano lesson today. It's getting harder. Also, HM's first piano lesson at Symph today..
Learning photoshop on my own. downloaded the photoshop cs. 30 days trial. The guidebook from the library is nt bad. Seybold's Adobe Photoshop CS Complete Course wriiten by Jan Kabili.
Self-learnt Fur Elise. The latter part is hard. Can only play until the 22nd measure.
Pam came on sunday. Mi oso came. We played on the keyboard. Taught Mi abacus. Poor child. Only 6 but he alr learning piano n abacus to filled his life. Went to wdl mart's cristofori to rent a piano room. Cool. half hr $1.05. Had the room to ourselves, inside stil got tables n chairs.. n the air-con remote control to our own use. but i dun like the foreign receptionists. they seemed gossipy. watched a bit of shrek 3. dad got the dvd from fren. i dun think it's nice. LAME. we stopped watchin soon after. Helped aunt in the kitchen. Made a lot of fried vege n stuff, using the tempura flour. Nice dinner.
I din used my HP ytdy. not at all. no sms sent or received. cool huh? it's nt easy to achieve this.
I am getting lazy. Grooming my procrastinating skills.
My luck: No tuitions these weekend, surprisingly. Had nv enjoy such a tuitionless week.
Reading one piece: book 36.
Piano lesson today. It's getting harder. Also, HM's first piano lesson at Symph today..
Learning photoshop on my own. downloaded the photoshop cs. 30 days trial. The guidebook from the library is nt bad. Seybold's Adobe Photoshop CS Complete Course wriiten by Jan Kabili.
Self-learnt Fur Elise. The latter part is hard. Can only play until the 22nd measure.
Pam came on sunday. Mi oso came. We played on the keyboard. Taught Mi abacus. Poor child. Only 6 but he alr learning piano n abacus to filled his life. Went to wdl mart's cristofori to rent a piano room. Cool. half hr $1.05. Had the room to ourselves, inside stil got tables n chairs.. n the air-con remote control to our own use. but i dun like the foreign receptionists. they seemed gossipy. watched a bit of shrek 3. dad got the dvd from fren. i dun think it's nice. LAME. we stopped watchin soon after. Helped aunt in the kitchen. Made a lot of fried vege n stuff, using the tempura flour. Nice dinner.
I din used my HP ytdy. not at all. no sms sent or received. cool huh? it's nt easy to achieve this.
I am getting lazy. Grooming my procrastinating skills.
10 June 2007
患难见真情
患难见真情。
Sometimes i cant help but to confront myself with this phrase. True as it is, u can really tell who r frens who're there for u. There're frens who said they care for u, but when u need them, they arent.. nt that they din noe abt the condition.. they just take everythin for granted n believed that the one they shld be caring will be fine as they are.. ever..
But i'm stil very lucky to have frens who're there for me.. it just made me see all the more how impt it is that there can be ppl there for u.. i truly appreciate their care.. n i felt better.. i think i shld admit i'm weak in the face of the cycle of human life.. there're just so many obstacles n i can easily break down when i'm confronted with issues of growin up, death n etc...
Really gotta thanks pam for being there for me everyday n we tok our hearts out like nth.. n the times we had n the problems we nv felt tedious to share.. it's very hard to have a fren like u.. n ty, for being there for me too as u can always brighten my days up wif ur witty n optimistic perceptions of life.. n whenever we felt down, u're there in the right time to suggest a break for these hassles.. n i'm very glad to noe that, there's a fren who was secretly there for me all this while.. though we seldom meet up now, n we seldom hav the time to catch up.. but when we do, we can tok like there's nv a word called silence, n when we din't, she was still there for me.. i really appreciate that.. thanks HY.. i was really shocked n happy when i received an sms from u.. let's meet up soon k?
N oso thanks to frens who were there for me, but give me the support in many many ways.. such as bro yj..
Hmm.. next week gotta accompany mom for more check-ups.. i hope mom can be fine.. it's very damn irritating to have that appointment card filled up.. u noe wat i mean? nurse issued an appointment card to mom when she got admitted in kk last time.. den when she got discharged, the doc were sayin she better had a heart check-up coz operations can have adverse effects on the heart.. so better have follow up check ups.. plus my mom's thyroid condition, she need long term medication.. from sgh.. so when mom got discharged, she received 2 referral letters to have appointments at sgh for thyroid n heart check-ups.. n an appointment for her follow-up check up for the operation she did in kk.. so total.. 3..
according to wat happened in the past.. for the check-ups, such as thyroid n heart, they need to take blood samples.. so mom have to go there for the blood test, but the results will be out like 2 weeks time, so two more further appointments.. n if it was gd, then can stop goin, but if the results proved nth, or suspected of smth, another test was done such as scanning, x-ray... etc, and for the results, another appointment.. if any prob, or worse, mom may hav to go for operation.. n that'd maybe her heart, her thyroid, or her problem at kk.. den when she discharged, further appointments.. n each appointment, cost like at least 20 bucks.. so mom could nv have savings..
then hospitals like to refer to each other.. kk likes to refer to sgh.. sgh likes to refer to tts.. tts likes to refer to nuh.. walao.. n all the systems ... can sux.. coz everything must follow law by law.. den each time the appointments, done by different doctors.. even they have the records of mom's medical history.. but still like that.. they may overlook it. n did the same test for several times.. or sometimes, done the operation liao den found that the actual problem lies in another part of my mom's body, so refer to another hospital.. n the cycle moves on...
sigh.. i think i typed a lot about my complains.. sorry guys..
Sometimes i cant help but to confront myself with this phrase. True as it is, u can really tell who r frens who're there for u. There're frens who said they care for u, but when u need them, they arent.. nt that they din noe abt the condition.. they just take everythin for granted n believed that the one they shld be caring will be fine as they are.. ever..
But i'm stil very lucky to have frens who're there for me.. it just made me see all the more how impt it is that there can be ppl there for u.. i truly appreciate their care.. n i felt better.. i think i shld admit i'm weak in the face of the cycle of human life.. there're just so many obstacles n i can easily break down when i'm confronted with issues of growin up, death n etc...
Really gotta thanks pam for being there for me everyday n we tok our hearts out like nth.. n the times we had n the problems we nv felt tedious to share.. it's very hard to have a fren like u.. n ty, for being there for me too as u can always brighten my days up wif ur witty n optimistic perceptions of life.. n whenever we felt down, u're there in the right time to suggest a break for these hassles.. n i'm very glad to noe that, there's a fren who was secretly there for me all this while.. though we seldom meet up now, n we seldom hav the time to catch up.. but when we do, we can tok like there's nv a word called silence, n when we din't, she was still there for me.. i really appreciate that.. thanks HY.. i was really shocked n happy when i received an sms from u.. let's meet up soon k?
N oso thanks to frens who were there for me, but give me the support in many many ways.. such as bro yj..
Hmm.. next week gotta accompany mom for more check-ups.. i hope mom can be fine.. it's very damn irritating to have that appointment card filled up.. u noe wat i mean? nurse issued an appointment card to mom when she got admitted in kk last time.. den when she got discharged, the doc were sayin she better had a heart check-up coz operations can have adverse effects on the heart.. so better have follow up check ups.. plus my mom's thyroid condition, she need long term medication.. from sgh.. so when mom got discharged, she received 2 referral letters to have appointments at sgh for thyroid n heart check-ups.. n an appointment for her follow-up check up for the operation she did in kk.. so total.. 3..
according to wat happened in the past.. for the check-ups, such as thyroid n heart, they need to take blood samples.. so mom have to go there for the blood test, but the results will be out like 2 weeks time, so two more further appointments.. n if it was gd, then can stop goin, but if the results proved nth, or suspected of smth, another test was done such as scanning, x-ray... etc, and for the results, another appointment.. if any prob, or worse, mom may hav to go for operation.. n that'd maybe her heart, her thyroid, or her problem at kk.. den when she discharged, further appointments.. n each appointment, cost like at least 20 bucks.. so mom could nv have savings..
then hospitals like to refer to each other.. kk likes to refer to sgh.. sgh likes to refer to tts.. tts likes to refer to nuh.. walao.. n all the systems ... can sux.. coz everything must follow law by law.. den each time the appointments, done by different doctors.. even they have the records of mom's medical history.. but still like that.. they may overlook it. n did the same test for several times.. or sometimes, done the operation liao den found that the actual problem lies in another part of my mom's body, so refer to another hospital.. n the cycle moves on...
sigh.. i think i typed a lot about my complains.. sorry guys..
08 June 2007
Trips to Hospital
I'm finally free again. Been spending my last three days in the hospital accompanying my mom. Yes, she's hospitalised again. For three days. I duno wat time is this now, but.. i can only wish my mom well n get well soon again. She went for an operation.. n the surgical doctors said my mom's heart is nt well again. Gotta go national heart centre next tue for a proper check up.. n another appointment for her thyroid condition..
And dad's givin himself medicinal injections these days.. for his diabetes.. saw blood on dad's needles yesterday nite.. he said it's nt painful.. but there're many needle scars on his tummy.. can dad n mom get better??
I was almost in a devastating feat a few days ago. Nothing .. erm.. i realised again.. frens come n go. n frenships can just be so vulnerable. trust can just plumage to nth so suddenly.. n when someone's wrong, they always believe they arent..
And i duno abt the trip we were planning so long ago.. i stil wish to go on a trip..
N damn. can those nus fucktards ( a phrase coined by my bro) stop bothering me w grades?? DAMN IT.
a bastard came n ask me this on msn:
Bastard: hey do u think u'd take jap 3?
Me: why nt? i'm goin to.
Bstd: nth.. stil contemplating.. u noe.. i did very badly for my jap.. so sad n stress la
Me: huh? how bad?
Bstd: B+
Me: oo
Bstd: i have been tellin myself before yr 1 once my jap drop to B+ i will discontinue le.. now it has..
Me: just go for ur interest la
Bstd: ya jap is my interest.. but i dun wan it to ruin my cap.. i duno which one i like more...
FUCK.
i have to endure w such ppl more in the sch.. it seemed like almost everyone i met are like this..
Grades arent everything.. u fickles.. u stil wanna continue to compete n trash all frens u have so as to achieve ur success?
my blessings.
And dad's givin himself medicinal injections these days.. for his diabetes.. saw blood on dad's needles yesterday nite.. he said it's nt painful.. but there're many needle scars on his tummy.. can dad n mom get better??
I was almost in a devastating feat a few days ago. Nothing .. erm.. i realised again.. frens come n go. n frenships can just be so vulnerable. trust can just plumage to nth so suddenly.. n when someone's wrong, they always believe they arent..
And i duno abt the trip we were planning so long ago.. i stil wish to go on a trip..
N damn. can those nus fucktards ( a phrase coined by my bro) stop bothering me w grades?? DAMN IT.
a bastard came n ask me this on msn:
Bastard: hey do u think u'd take jap 3?
Me: why nt? i'm goin to.
Bstd: nth.. stil contemplating.. u noe.. i did very badly for my jap.. so sad n stress la
Me: huh? how bad?
Bstd: B+
Me: oo
Bstd: i have been tellin myself before yr 1 once my jap drop to B+ i will discontinue le.. now it has..
Me: just go for ur interest la
Bstd: ya jap is my interest.. but i dun wan it to ruin my cap.. i duno which one i like more...
FUCK.
i have to endure w such ppl more in the sch.. it seemed like almost everyone i met are like this..
Grades arent everything.. u fickles.. u stil wanna continue to compete n trash all frens u have so as to achieve ur success?
my blessings.
05 June 2007
A Fatso complains
A day at home.
Woke up late again this morning. How much longer can I laze myself around the house like this? I admit I'm gaining weight again as the input is just so much greater than the output and I am not being hardworking in maintaining my weight. I am one whom I drink also can get fat. yes. FAT. that's the word.
Mom's not feeling well again. as mentioned earlier to my frens who cared, her symptoms are back. and her appointment next week was changed to tomorrow, so suddenly. and i can did nothing but asked my mom, if she was ok. she kept complaining to me that she felt giddy and painful. I really cant do anything but stare at her with a helpless look. life is fragile. when sickness lures nearby, you can do nothing but just watch, n be helpless. yes. Helpless is the word. Going to accompany her all the way to kk hospital tomorrow again and she said this to me, "I'm definitely going to be hospitalised again."
I sincerely hope everything turns out well soon and my mom can be back to her normal, healthy self. In actual fact, i admit it's a naive thought.
Still, have to look at things from the bright side.
Laze around.. laze around.. aunt wanted me to help her translate the stuff we photocopied for her crochet. she wanted to crochet a bag. n the guidelines are damn helpful. so much so i need to go online n seek help. so many abbreviations. but still managed to find them.
Read my books, manga and scores.. practised on the piano .. learning how to cross octaves without looking. n using two hands. very hard to coordinate. went online n look for some normal scores. they arent for normal people.
Surf around online. came across a site from cn. able to dl e-books here. n so i dl all 6 books of harry potter. in word doc format. can read the half blood prince that i missed finally. looked ard. michael crichton books available oso. Grabbed some too. do i have so much time?
Pillow misbehaving these days. Kept peeing anywhere but the cage. n it gave a very zhuai face when i reprimanded him.
.....
Woke up late again this morning. How much longer can I laze myself around the house like this? I admit I'm gaining weight again as the input is just so much greater than the output and I am not being hardworking in maintaining my weight. I am one whom I drink also can get fat. yes. FAT. that's the word.
Mom's not feeling well again. as mentioned earlier to my frens who cared, her symptoms are back. and her appointment next week was changed to tomorrow, so suddenly. and i can did nothing but asked my mom, if she was ok. she kept complaining to me that she felt giddy and painful. I really cant do anything but stare at her with a helpless look. life is fragile. when sickness lures nearby, you can do nothing but just watch, n be helpless. yes. Helpless is the word. Going to accompany her all the way to kk hospital tomorrow again and she said this to me, "I'm definitely going to be hospitalised again."
I sincerely hope everything turns out well soon and my mom can be back to her normal, healthy self. In actual fact, i admit it's a naive thought.
Still, have to look at things from the bright side.
Laze around.. laze around.. aunt wanted me to help her translate the stuff we photocopied for her crochet. she wanted to crochet a bag. n the guidelines are damn helpful. so much so i need to go online n seek help. so many abbreviations. but still managed to find them.
Read my books, manga and scores.. practised on the piano .. learning how to cross octaves without looking. n using two hands. very hard to coordinate. went online n look for some normal scores. they arent for normal people.
Surf around online. came across a site from cn. able to dl e-books here. n so i dl all 6 books of harry potter. in word doc format. can read the half blood prince that i missed finally. looked ard. michael crichton books available oso. Grabbed some too. do i have so much time?
Pillow misbehaving these days. Kept peeing anywhere but the cage. n it gave a very zhuai face when i reprimanded him.
.....
04 June 2007
Happy days
Happy n satisfied days.
I dun think i lack anything for the moment. Passing my days without guilt.
Learning piano. I can play chopsticks now. learning to perfect it. n turkish march. =P
Reading manga every morn n nite. thanks to ty. one piece is great. watched pirates of carribean last nite. i love pirates. really envy their attitude towards life.
Went to library n borrowed a lot of books w pam. i borrowed 6 books of scores. learning new songs on my own. n a photoshop book. going to self-learn again. =)
FFVII game stil on the list in case i ran out of things to do. n the sims. i just uploaded new expansion packs. n dl tons of stuff from simsresource.
Giving tuitions. Earning money. Revising my math n keep my brain goin at the same time.
Next week's very packed schedule:
Mon: piano lesson. tuition postponed coz they went on trip.
Tue: meet pam n kel to golden mile. n maybe catch F4.
Wed: accomapany mom to kk hos to check up again.
Thur: Celebrate yj's bday
Fri: Tuition
Sat: Play! video game symphony! =D
Sun: laze at home.. or is it father's day?
I dun think i lack anything for the moment. Passing my days without guilt.
Learning piano. I can play chopsticks now. learning to perfect it. n turkish march. =P
Reading manga every morn n nite. thanks to ty. one piece is great. watched pirates of carribean last nite. i love pirates. really envy their attitude towards life.
Went to library n borrowed a lot of books w pam. i borrowed 6 books of scores. learning new songs on my own. n a photoshop book. going to self-learn again. =)
FFVII game stil on the list in case i ran out of things to do. n the sims. i just uploaded new expansion packs. n dl tons of stuff from simsresource.
Giving tuitions. Earning money. Revising my math n keep my brain goin at the same time.
Next week's very packed schedule:
Mon: piano lesson. tuition postponed coz they went on trip.
Tue: meet pam n kel to golden mile. n maybe catch F4.
Wed: accomapany mom to kk hos to check up again.
Thur: Celebrate yj's bday
Fri: Tuition
Sat: Play! video game symphony! =D
Sun: laze at home.. or is it father's day?
02 June 2007
Arrival of June
June is here.
__Wed__
Cousins (yh n yx) n their mom (my aunt) from msia came to visit. Re n mi oso came to play. House was noisy. Pam came awhile too. Took our leave to meet HM at cwp to have dinner at ichiban's. Nice. Ate a lot. Saw Mr. Futobang. Pam saw him too. we agreed he's pretty.
Tok and ate for a long time. took our leave n walk ard in cwp. HM oso took up piano lesson at cwp's symphony music sch. the receptionist wasnt friendly. went to mac at civic. sat there n tok. we managed to catch the last bus home. first time catchin the last bus from terminal. exciting.
agreed to meet up for a k-box session soon!
__Thur__
Cousins were noisy in the morn. vesak day. no one's wkin. went to mac at 768 to hav breakfast. yx fell sick. we went home early n they said when she got better, we'l go to cwp to shop. so left hse ard 4pm. reached there, accompanied aunts to shop. cousins were noisy n energetic. i'm tired. did nth but followed them. mom suddenly suggested she wanna buy a keyboard for me. sharin the cost w dad. as a present for my bday. (stil early) but am touched. went to the music sch. n we got one.
Reached hm. cousins amazed w the keyboard n they played late into the nite. n early in the morn when i was stil sleepin.
__Fri__
Meetin pam in the noon to go chapter 2 to cut hair. bid goodbye to my cousins since they're goin back msia. left the hse.
Decided to rebond my hair instead. now havin promotion. pam decided on dyein her hair red, after a long time deciding. stucked in the shop for a long time. my hair now became short. i miss the length. but stil, it's quite good. i miss the volume too. better than the previous hairstyle. no matter wat, good hair/bad hair nv last.
went home. very tired.
bath n got revitalised. played my keyboard (for the first time). learnin the song "chopsticks". nice. quite easy. alr get the right hand n left hand done up. just takin time to coordinate them. that's the difficult part.
HJ called me to chat. she promised to come my hse play soon.
read one-piece book 16 before sleep.
__Sat__
Laze on bed. read one-piece book 17 before crawlin out of the bed.
Had bad breakfast. i got sick of bread so i ate (lao4-hong1) biscuits.
Practise a-math. Later got tuition again. Lookin forward to the session end. so can continue playin on the keyboard.
__Wed__
Cousins (yh n yx) n their mom (my aunt) from msia came to visit. Re n mi oso came to play. House was noisy. Pam came awhile too. Took our leave to meet HM at cwp to have dinner at ichiban's. Nice. Ate a lot. Saw Mr. Futobang. Pam saw him too. we agreed he's pretty.
Tok and ate for a long time. took our leave n walk ard in cwp. HM oso took up piano lesson at cwp's symphony music sch. the receptionist wasnt friendly. went to mac at civic. sat there n tok. we managed to catch the last bus home. first time catchin the last bus from terminal. exciting.
agreed to meet up for a k-box session soon!
__Thur__
Cousins were noisy in the morn. vesak day. no one's wkin. went to mac at 768 to hav breakfast. yx fell sick. we went home early n they said when she got better, we'l go to cwp to shop. so left hse ard 4pm. reached there, accompanied aunts to shop. cousins were noisy n energetic. i'm tired. did nth but followed them. mom suddenly suggested she wanna buy a keyboard for me. sharin the cost w dad. as a present for my bday. (stil early) but am touched. went to the music sch. n we got one.
Reached hm. cousins amazed w the keyboard n they played late into the nite. n early in the morn when i was stil sleepin.
__Fri__
Meetin pam in the noon to go chapter 2 to cut hair. bid goodbye to my cousins since they're goin back msia. left the hse.
Decided to rebond my hair instead. now havin promotion. pam decided on dyein her hair red, after a long time deciding. stucked in the shop for a long time. my hair now became short. i miss the length. but stil, it's quite good. i miss the volume too. better than the previous hairstyle. no matter wat, good hair/bad hair nv last.
went home. very tired.
bath n got revitalised. played my keyboard (for the first time). learnin the song "chopsticks". nice. quite easy. alr get the right hand n left hand done up. just takin time to coordinate them. that's the difficult part.
HJ called me to chat. she promised to come my hse play soon.
read one-piece book 16 before sleep.
__Sat__
Laze on bed. read one-piece book 17 before crawlin out of the bed.
Had bad breakfast. i got sick of bread so i ate (lao4-hong1) biscuits.
Practise a-math. Later got tuition again. Lookin forward to the session end. so can continue playin on the keyboard.
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