I'm totally devastated..
Had my chinese paper this afternoon.. it was not easy.. and what's worse..? i attempted the wrong questions.. What has happened to me? i know there will be two parts of the paper.. first part is the history and second part is the literature.. each part carrying 50% of the paper and that will total up to 100%.. and the first part got 2 questions, each carrying parts A and B.. so in total, part one (the history part) will have four questions.. and i duno how i read the instructions la! i made a very silly mistake and i dun even felt that i had made one even until i submitted the paper after two hrs.. maybe it's common sense that you will attempt part 1a and 1b together or part 2a and 2b.. i go and do part 1a and 2b.. die... i was devastated.. each question was 25%..
On my way home.. i'm in a state of hollowness.. haha i duno la.. just feel hollow.. i got a shock and i wasn't recovering.. erm.. what i can managed to do.. is gave prof lee an email.. informing him of my mistake and apologising to him.. i duno how it will become. but i noe i will not do well, and this is just the first paper (which is counted into the GPA score).. good luck to me...
Stupid you.. what have you been thinking? now see ur efforts gone to waste.. continue to dream..
Sob..
27 November 2006
26 November 2006
Sunday.. I hate Sunday because Monday is the day I dread.. I don't like mondays..
Well, will be having my chinese paper tml.. good luck to me.. I realli duno how to attend these exams because I felt like we're taught of the theories on swimming and tomorrow will be the first time we get to swim on the real pool.. What's given to u auditorily will be put to use tml.. and whether u can utilise ur given information well is up to ur luck and efforts.. hmm.. first swim huh.. good luck to me.. hope that i wun drown..
Well, these few days had been revising history and it's real information loading.. i finally get to piece the whole picture of the history of Asia, but the pieces I formed are still somewhat blur.. and the edges are crooked.. I duno how to study history and I think i lack the time to study, all thanks to my inconsistency.. what have i been doing for the past few weeks? taking up 6 modules is not easy..
Hmm.. Attended a fren's bro funeral ytdy.. it was sad.. life is just so fragile.. her bro was stil so young and we were lost for words to console her when we see her at the wake.. her eyes were swollen from the crying and she still try to make efforts to break the ice in that situation.. feel painful to see that.. unfortunate that they do not even know the reasons for his death..
This brings me back to the thinking whether we shall spend so much time on studying these unrealistic facts that have no actual practical use for our future.. what can we do with this info? pass them on to let the others pass them on?? Life...
Well, will be having my chinese paper tml.. good luck to me.. I realli duno how to attend these exams because I felt like we're taught of the theories on swimming and tomorrow will be the first time we get to swim on the real pool.. What's given to u auditorily will be put to use tml.. and whether u can utilise ur given information well is up to ur luck and efforts.. hmm.. first swim huh.. good luck to me.. hope that i wun drown..
Well, these few days had been revising history and it's real information loading.. i finally get to piece the whole picture of the history of Asia, but the pieces I formed are still somewhat blur.. and the edges are crooked.. I duno how to study history and I think i lack the time to study, all thanks to my inconsistency.. what have i been doing for the past few weeks? taking up 6 modules is not easy..
Hmm.. Attended a fren's bro funeral ytdy.. it was sad.. life is just so fragile.. her bro was stil so young and we were lost for words to console her when we see her at the wake.. her eyes were swollen from the crying and she still try to make efforts to break the ice in that situation.. feel painful to see that.. unfortunate that they do not even know the reasons for his death..
This brings me back to the thinking whether we shall spend so much time on studying these unrealistic facts that have no actual practical use for our future.. what can we do with this info? pass them on to let the others pass them on?? Life...
24 November 2006
Had my english paper this morning.. Was quite difficult! It was a little bit more difficult than the assignments we did in class.. Especially the grammar editing part.. today's theme was about feminism.. got quite a lot of things you can write about that.. because one of my past eng essays and history essays I had covered some of these ideas in the topic of gender and sexism.. Well, the sad part is that I dun have time to sort out my thoughts.. we're supposed to finish everything in 2 hr 15 min and it was quite irritating as we were sharing room with another group of students.. i duno which module but every now and then, there're announcements for them to change some errors in their papers or tell them to stop writing etc.. (their paper was 2 hrs).. so, this essay will weigh 70% of the whole of today's paper.. oh no.. and the question is.. something like whether women should play a more important role at home or in the economy.. recalled that the teacher had gone through some thing like this in the class before.. was this the hint last time?? hope i can pass..
Well, one thing i found out these few days and maybe even earlier, was that travelling is bad for health.. it's totally bad for ur health in the physical sense and emotional sense.. especially in peak hours.. or rainy days.. u get to see and encounter so many things you wish u have nv seen.. no doubt that sporeans are kiasu..sometimes i think that this kind of personality is inevitable when such a large number of people are crammed into such a small country.. and there's so little time for so many things to be done.. especially when you're on the way home.. everyone is tired and hungry, but most of us are so unlucky that we have to travel to someowhere far everyday.. we dun have our schs or workplace rite at our doorsteps.. everyone is so anxious to get home.. yet, there're so many people.. we cant hop on bus, or trains, and even if we did, we can only stand and grab on unreliable poles to prevent falling over from the continuous jerking of the bus due to the traffic jam.. if we're lucky enough to grab a seat, we can practically do nothing with ur sweaty neighbour sitting beside you and the large bag knocking onto you most of the time from the lady standin beside you..
On the train, what's worse, no one wanna move in to the center of the car and even if they did, there're stupid people who thought that the poles are a bed for them. They lie on to the pole and think that the world is fine.. and the train jerks like mad most of the time.. and so what can we hold onto?? i sometime really wish that the pole conducts electricity and any one lying totally on it will get electrified and jumped.. lol.. if you get to lean on the glass beside the doors, there're weird uncles most of the time who thought there's no one behind them and when they stand in front of you, their back is facing you and they stand like they're almost lying on to you or that they think you have 1m of spacious gap around you. this is totally suffocating and irritating.. well, usually had nothing better than to protect myself by fake-coughing continuously or mumble a stern "excuse-me"...
Walking home... i nv felt happy strolling my way home.. it was a continous battle of the minds with the other people walking around you... alighted the train, my next step is to board a bus.. and that's quite some distant away which requires walking.. so for fear of missing the bus.. we walk quickly.. but what i can say is that not everyone walks in the same direction and from bird-eye view, i think you will see something like air particles bombarding with each other at quite a high speed.. and it's quite like a game and you kinda acquire a technique by walking quickly and yet at the same time preventin uself from knockin into other people. one biggest problem is that people always thought that the whole world is what they see in front of them.. many times i encountered people who just stop so suddenly to do whatever they want and i ended up knocking into them.. den they will turn and give you a kind of WTH look.. xian.. worse, they were talking with a fren and they just suddenly turn back to point at something and end up pointing at you or poking you.. please.. spare more thoughts for the people around you.. if you're not in a rush, and the passage way is just so small, give way to the people behind you.. and dun walk like you're strolling in the park.. and i hate people who walk in an "S" manner.. see how S is spelt and you will noe what i mean.. on escalators oso.. stand on the left la! you're standing on the right and you see the whole stretch of empty passage way in front of u and a long queue of people behind you waiting for you to scram you not ashamed ah?
A travelling time of at least 2 hrs each day is enough to damage ur character as you have scolded so many mean words in your mind.. this triggers quick temper too.. blame the inconsiderations of every people..
Well, one thing i found out these few days and maybe even earlier, was that travelling is bad for health.. it's totally bad for ur health in the physical sense and emotional sense.. especially in peak hours.. or rainy days.. u get to see and encounter so many things you wish u have nv seen.. no doubt that sporeans are kiasu..sometimes i think that this kind of personality is inevitable when such a large number of people are crammed into such a small country.. and there's so little time for so many things to be done.. especially when you're on the way home.. everyone is tired and hungry, but most of us are so unlucky that we have to travel to someowhere far everyday.. we dun have our schs or workplace rite at our doorsteps.. everyone is so anxious to get home.. yet, there're so many people.. we cant hop on bus, or trains, and even if we did, we can only stand and grab on unreliable poles to prevent falling over from the continuous jerking of the bus due to the traffic jam.. if we're lucky enough to grab a seat, we can practically do nothing with ur sweaty neighbour sitting beside you and the large bag knocking onto you most of the time from the lady standin beside you..
On the train, what's worse, no one wanna move in to the center of the car and even if they did, there're stupid people who thought that the poles are a bed for them. They lie on to the pole and think that the world is fine.. and the train jerks like mad most of the time.. and so what can we hold onto?? i sometime really wish that the pole conducts electricity and any one lying totally on it will get electrified and jumped.. lol.. if you get to lean on the glass beside the doors, there're weird uncles most of the time who thought there's no one behind them and when they stand in front of you, their back is facing you and they stand like they're almost lying on to you or that they think you have 1m of spacious gap around you. this is totally suffocating and irritating.. well, usually had nothing better than to protect myself by fake-coughing continuously or mumble a stern "excuse-me"...
Walking home... i nv felt happy strolling my way home.. it was a continous battle of the minds with the other people walking around you... alighted the train, my next step is to board a bus.. and that's quite some distant away which requires walking.. so for fear of missing the bus.. we walk quickly.. but what i can say is that not everyone walks in the same direction and from bird-eye view, i think you will see something like air particles bombarding with each other at quite a high speed.. and it's quite like a game and you kinda acquire a technique by walking quickly and yet at the same time preventin uself from knockin into other people. one biggest problem is that people always thought that the whole world is what they see in front of them.. many times i encountered people who just stop so suddenly to do whatever they want and i ended up knocking into them.. den they will turn and give you a kind of WTH look.. xian.. worse, they were talking with a fren and they just suddenly turn back to point at something and end up pointing at you or poking you.. please.. spare more thoughts for the people around you.. if you're not in a rush, and the passage way is just so small, give way to the people behind you.. and dun walk like you're strolling in the park.. and i hate people who walk in an "S" manner.. see how S is spelt and you will noe what i mean.. on escalators oso.. stand on the left la! you're standing on the right and you see the whole stretch of empty passage way in front of u and a long queue of people behind you waiting for you to scram you not ashamed ah?
A travelling time of at least 2 hrs each day is enough to damage ur character as you have scolded so many mean words in your mind.. this triggers quick temper too.. blame the inconsiderations of every people..
23 November 2006
Exam finally starts tml!! Scary sia.. hope can managed it.. hmm..
Now in sch.. mugging.. Sigh.. Studying.. Boring exam days....
Well, let's talk something about mom.. she has been recovering these days just that sometimes she got a little giddy and having discomforts, but overall, she has been better... Well, we dun encouraged her to work, becoz it will be real tough for her since there will be travelling to be done.. den somemore she can get quite emotionally affected with the people at her work. So, now, she's working from home now as a tailor.. i think she's real talented as she knew how to make dresses, wedding and night gowns, baju kurung, cheongsams, alterations etc.. and she realli know how to handle the customers.. most of her customers are malays and she stil can communicate with them in malay.. nice..
But one bad thing about it was that pillow will bark at the malays.. it's quite bad becoz most muslims are afraid of dogs and pillow dun bark friendly at them.. hmm.. luckily some customers still come back.. but some customers really dread of coming back ever again n mom loses her customers..
Hope mommy's business can succeed.. she's enjoying herself now as it was quite an easy way to earn money n you can work from home and managing ur time at ur own will.. she now receives a call each day and they're new customers.. ^^
Well, gotta go mug le!! maybe coming back to blog later.. =P
Now in sch.. mugging.. Sigh.. Studying.. Boring exam days....
Well, let's talk something about mom.. she has been recovering these days just that sometimes she got a little giddy and having discomforts, but overall, she has been better... Well, we dun encouraged her to work, becoz it will be real tough for her since there will be travelling to be done.. den somemore she can get quite emotionally affected with the people at her work. So, now, she's working from home now as a tailor.. i think she's real talented as she knew how to make dresses, wedding and night gowns, baju kurung, cheongsams, alterations etc.. and she realli know how to handle the customers.. most of her customers are malays and she stil can communicate with them in malay.. nice..
But one bad thing about it was that pillow will bark at the malays.. it's quite bad becoz most muslims are afraid of dogs and pillow dun bark friendly at them.. hmm.. luckily some customers still come back.. but some customers really dread of coming back ever again n mom loses her customers..
Hope mommy's business can succeed.. she's enjoying herself now as it was quite an easy way to earn money n you can work from home and managing ur time at ur own will.. she now receives a call each day and they're new customers.. ^^
Well, gotta go mug le!! maybe coming back to blog later.. =P
22 November 2006
I'm tired...
So very super tired..
Tired.. x1000000
Ok enough of my lameness.. well, went back to sch today wif jes and we studied social wk. well, i really have no idea if this was a fruitful revision or not becoz i found that i'm reading "common sense" written on notes, drafted out, graphed out nicely and made to be pro-looking.. well, one thing i dun realli like about these academic staff is that they like to give a specific term to anythin they think is theorised.. say for example.. intervention.. well, so some problems occured and the community council wanna step in to help (or known as intervention here).. and here, it was again classified into primary, sec, tertiary... and each has its purpose and examples.. n so these r what it called frameworks.. concepts.. Boosheet... zzzz.. things have been made complicated..
Had enough of reading those things la.. i want a rest la!! friday will be my first paper.. english.. hope i can pass.. no high hopes.. just pass! i dun wanna take eng again..
Met HJ's sister ytdy.. so kawaii! miniature of HJ actually just that she has longer hair.. lol.. even her laughter's identical to that of HJ.. family production.. lol..nice! cute! wonder how will life be like to have a sibling.. well, maybe in my next life...
Tml's meeting HJ up again.. gotta sleep early tonight.. i'm real tired.......
So very super tired..
Tired.. x1000000
Ok enough of my lameness.. well, went back to sch today wif jes and we studied social wk. well, i really have no idea if this was a fruitful revision or not becoz i found that i'm reading "common sense" written on notes, drafted out, graphed out nicely and made to be pro-looking.. well, one thing i dun realli like about these academic staff is that they like to give a specific term to anythin they think is theorised.. say for example.. intervention.. well, so some problems occured and the community council wanna step in to help (or known as intervention here).. and here, it was again classified into primary, sec, tertiary... and each has its purpose and examples.. n so these r what it called frameworks.. concepts.. Boosheet... zzzz.. things have been made complicated..
Had enough of reading those things la.. i want a rest la!! friday will be my first paper.. english.. hope i can pass.. no high hopes.. just pass! i dun wanna take eng again..
Met HJ's sister ytdy.. so kawaii! miniature of HJ actually just that she has longer hair.. lol.. even her laughter's identical to that of HJ.. family production.. lol..nice! cute! wonder how will life be like to have a sibling.. well, maybe in my next life...
Tml's meeting HJ up again.. gotta sleep early tonight.. i'm real tired.......
21 November 2006
Tuesday morning.
Woke up with an sms. Well guess who. It was that Sj. And guess what she said? "Giv me the chapters we gotta study for chi n dun tel me from ur memory".. wth.. is this the way u request something? this is not the first time and i'm really pissed with ppl who dun have basic manners. before that a few weeks ago she have oso demanded that i let her know the chapters we gotta prepare for the exams.
So, i'm reali pissed and you know, ppl dun wake up with a gd mood if their sleep was interrupted.. so i dun care how she will feel, i replied that "y cant u do things on ur own n sorry i'm busy". yet, she stil hve the face to reply that she's not sure that's y n that i shldnt feel so irritated.. oh my goodness.. this world is really filled wif tons of weird ppl and i'm sure most of them have made their way into the sch as well.. at least i bothered to reply her that the lecturers only dropped hints on which chapters we have to study specifically on. n guess what she stil replies that "oh i'm afraid that i've missed out, but u know wat? being angry first thing in the morning is bad for ur skin." oh thanks sj. You're the trigger and i'm highly appreciated for what you have done. your mere existence has showered me with irritations i have nv felt so intensively, now pissed off!
Meeting HJ up later on in sch to study and today realli gotta bucker up! At least now i feel that i can get the whole picture of chi after these few days of studies but it is not completed yet. But another problem is history. I have nv found history as an easy subject. my mind is not built to memorise facts. Well, just try my best huh and it seemed that u cant get away wif history as long as u stay in Arts.. well well.. will be seeing HJ's sister later on too!! nice nice~~ XD
Woke up with an sms. Well guess who. It was that Sj. And guess what she said? "Giv me the chapters we gotta study for chi n dun tel me from ur memory".. wth.. is this the way u request something? this is not the first time and i'm really pissed with ppl who dun have basic manners. before that a few weeks ago she have oso demanded that i let her know the chapters we gotta prepare for the exams.
So, i'm reali pissed and you know, ppl dun wake up with a gd mood if their sleep was interrupted.. so i dun care how she will feel, i replied that "y cant u do things on ur own n sorry i'm busy". yet, she stil hve the face to reply that she's not sure that's y n that i shldnt feel so irritated.. oh my goodness.. this world is really filled wif tons of weird ppl and i'm sure most of them have made their way into the sch as well.. at least i bothered to reply her that the lecturers only dropped hints on which chapters we have to study specifically on. n guess what she stil replies that "oh i'm afraid that i've missed out, but u know wat? being angry first thing in the morning is bad for ur skin." oh thanks sj. You're the trigger and i'm highly appreciated for what you have done. your mere existence has showered me with irritations i have nv felt so intensively, now pissed off!
Meeting HJ up later on in sch to study and today realli gotta bucker up! At least now i feel that i can get the whole picture of chi after these few days of studies but it is not completed yet. But another problem is history. I have nv found history as an easy subject. my mind is not built to memorise facts. Well, just try my best huh and it seemed that u cant get away wif history as long as u stay in Arts.. well well.. will be seeing HJ's sister later on too!! nice nice~~ XD
20 November 2006
Monday.. Well, first monday I don't have to make my way to school. I'm staying at home to study!! Well, still gotta return to school to get back my history paper. Don't know how will be my grades. I really have no idea how to write a history paper and I think my arguments are vague. But still, I don't wish to get a C. Can I get a B?
I miss Ouran High School Host Club!! Only got to watch the anime series until episode 16.. Bro YJ says he wanna burn the remaining parts for me.. Was so touched! Lol.. He don't even want me to pay him the DVD-R.. I SHALL TREAT HIM!! lol..
Some pics from Ouran...
the funny twins fight..
The Host Club!
XD
こんばんは～
Late night blogging.. I can't sleep.. Think i'd been working my brain the whole day so I can't fall asleep now.. みんなさんはねますか？
Late night blogging.. I can't sleep.. Think i'd been working my brain the whole day so I can't fall asleep now.. みんなさんはねますか？
あした。。はちじにおきます。それからちゅうごくげんきゅうをべんきょします。がんばってね！(tomorrow.. waking up at 8am.. to study chinese studies.. jia you!!)
Lol.. first time typing jap here.. dun even know it can show up on the blog or not.. haha..
Nites~~
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19 November 2006
Peanut thoughts...
Hot weather.. wet weather.. shall i call this humid? mixed feelings..... exams are coming.. my mind is elsewhere.. i wanna play.. rest.. sleep.. i'm tired..
Been reading my notes the whole day.. i doubt i assimilated the information. this is what i call information loading.. it often gets overloaded..
Pillow is growing up.. have been well-behaving these days.. knew how to make us happy.. n i suspect it knows how to watch TV.. he'd set there staring at the TV.. n seemed to be thinking..
Fully recovered.. no more sneezes.. running noses... dry coughs and sore throats.. wish me well..
Some things to be sort out.. matters of the heart.. memories forgotten.. n i was shocked when i recalled them again .. can these bring about some new sparks? well nvm if u duno what i mean.. i'm having mixed feelings.. it's always these pre-exam syndromes you see...
Hot weather.. wet weather.. shall i call this humid? mixed feelings..... exams are coming.. my mind is elsewhere.. i wanna play.. rest.. sleep.. i'm tired..
Been reading my notes the whole day.. i doubt i assimilated the information. this is what i call information loading.. it often gets overloaded..
Pillow is growing up.. have been well-behaving these days.. knew how to make us happy.. n i suspect it knows how to watch TV.. he'd set there staring at the TV.. n seemed to be thinking..
Fully recovered.. no more sneezes.. running noses... dry coughs and sore throats.. wish me well..
Some things to be sort out.. matters of the heart.. memories forgotten.. n i was shocked when i recalled them again .. can these bring about some new sparks? well nvm if u duno what i mean.. i'm having mixed feelings.. it's always these pre-exam syndromes you see...
18 November 2006
Reading week finally arrives! It has been sometime since I blog again. Hmm.. Many things happened in between, I shall try to recap what I had done. Think few weeks ago, a very long time ago, had went to K-box with Rane n Jes. It was fun actually n I think both of them sing well. Really miss those times, but I dun think we'd get the chance again.. You cant help it when someone just wanna draw a line between ur friendships. We met at bugis and we ate there. After that, took a bus to marina square and we decided to sing k-box.
Well, oso went to Newton Circus one Friday with Pam n TY.. I think it was my first time there, and we ordered quite a lot.. Mostly were spicy food like barbecued stingray, satay etc.. So we sat there and chat even after finishing the food for sometime. After that, went to Far East Plaza, and we went there because pam wanna buy some cakes from a hotel and I forgot what was its name. Ya. So ty bought some too.. and most shops were closed.
Following week, we met up at Dhoby Gaut again and pam n ty accompanied me to the PCBunk to reactivate my Audition pin number.. haha.. first time there too and we were like quite fascinated as it seemed that most pros were playing there. They 'danced' well. After that, we went to orchard.. the browhaus and later on get some food at taka's foodcourt. I recalled that I'm feeling very bad that day as I just can't stop sneezing and having a real bad running nose. So bad that I think I used about 6 packets of tissues and on the way home I really try to stop myself sneezing.
So, that was the latest gathering with them so far.. and went to watch "Flushed away" with Wl.. and it was quite a funny and lame show. I dun really like the ending because I think the directors duno how to end the show so they just wrap it up so ridiculously. Super lame ending it was.
Well, had my last astro test on wed and it was my last astro lesson too. Will kinda miss it too. After that was my jap oral test and to prepare for it, HJ, Kel, Al n me met up to practice the oral together. So we went to Ginza and before that went to a hawker center to eat.. We laughed n prac n laughed n prac until when it was around 3, we really ran out of strength that we sort of quieten down n stop tokin.. lol.. luckily it didn't rain when we get back to sch coz it usually will rain on wed and I always got my jeans wet. Well, the test was very brief n quick n I dun think I had the chance to perform well, it was over alr. ZZ..
So thur was my last day of lesson in school and could not get home early coz got the chi lecture. N I was real happy on the way home and especially so when I reached home.. lol.. so kinda slack from there until now.. was playing audition most of the time.. playing wif pillow and prac little bits of Japanese.. oh ya.. n sleeping.. I finally can get to slp as long as I wan.. nice.. shall start revising soon!!
Gambatte ne!
Well, oso went to Newton Circus one Friday with Pam n TY.. I think it was my first time there, and we ordered quite a lot.. Mostly were spicy food like barbecued stingray, satay etc.. So we sat there and chat even after finishing the food for sometime. After that, went to Far East Plaza, and we went there because pam wanna buy some cakes from a hotel and I forgot what was its name. Ya. So ty bought some too.. and most shops were closed.
Following week, we met up at Dhoby Gaut again and pam n ty accompanied me to the PCBunk to reactivate my Audition pin number.. haha.. first time there too and we were like quite fascinated as it seemed that most pros were playing there. They 'danced' well. After that, we went to orchard.. the browhaus and later on get some food at taka's foodcourt. I recalled that I'm feeling very bad that day as I just can't stop sneezing and having a real bad running nose. So bad that I think I used about 6 packets of tissues and on the way home I really try to stop myself sneezing.
So, that was the latest gathering with them so far.. and went to watch "Flushed away" with Wl.. and it was quite a funny and lame show. I dun really like the ending because I think the directors duno how to end the show so they just wrap it up so ridiculously. Super lame ending it was.
Well, had my last astro test on wed and it was my last astro lesson too. Will kinda miss it too. After that was my jap oral test and to prepare for it, HJ, Kel, Al n me met up to practice the oral together. So we went to Ginza and before that went to a hawker center to eat.. We laughed n prac n laughed n prac until when it was around 3, we really ran out of strength that we sort of quieten down n stop tokin.. lol.. luckily it didn't rain when we get back to sch coz it usually will rain on wed and I always got my jeans wet. Well, the test was very brief n quick n I dun think I had the chance to perform well, it was over alr. ZZ..
So thur was my last day of lesson in school and could not get home early coz got the chi lecture. N I was real happy on the way home and especially so when I reached home.. lol.. so kinda slack from there until now.. was playing audition most of the time.. playing wif pillow and prac little bits of Japanese.. oh ya.. n sleeping.. I finally can get to slp as long as I wan.. nice.. shall start revising soon!!
Gambatte ne!
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