Friday again~

Friday. Later at nite going to have a little farewell party for ty, as she is going to tw this coming wed. Time really flies. I stil remember on tuesday, pam and ty came to nus for dinner. Now it's friday! and another week..

Going on to week 5. My mid-term break is coming. it's so fast!! haven't i just started school??

Woke up early in the morning for the jap tc class. met al at the interchange, tok our way to school. hmm..went for the geo lecture after that, hy is late, so only left me n el. the lecture's concept is getting slightly harder. Left early from lecture to go the deck for lunch. el hooked to the deck's jap food. haha.. very soon, sdr came to join us too. talked a bit.. el and sdr have project discussion, so they went back to sc, but i went to as7 lab to slowly, leisurely print my stuff.. sometimes, being alone is not that bad too.

Spent $9 bucks plus on my notes. walao. so ex. the geo readings all like at least 30 pages per reading.. want to squeeze but later the wordings too small.. hmm.. anyway, print until near 2pm, took bus to clementi.. and guess who i saw? pam!! LOL. she poked me so quick and hard at my back, i thought who. LOL. Den so surprised to see her.. with zy and my oso. LOL. they went back to sch to study, coz they havin test later on in the evening. wish them all the best!

K la.. gotta go do geo project le..

MIO~ed

Ok, the happiest thing about today, is .. I am finally MIO-ed!!

Woot~! The connection rocks big time! 10Mbps Unlimited! i can save myself from the trouble of tackling wireless from unknown, unreliable wireless providers.. and i am so connected now. u wun see me dc again! woot~~! i dun have to run around the house looking for the best feng shui for the wireless. i can just savvy myself by sitting on where i wanna see and get hooked up. =D

Anyway, several things regarding the week.

On monday, after jap lecture, stayed in sch for lunch with HJ and Al. we went to the deck.. and hj ordered jap food, and al n me tried the noodle from the new noodle store.. cost only $1.80 for a very big serving, but my conclusion is, it smells like cockroach. no choice, but force the food down. den hj got lesson at 1pm so al and me went to the lab. he need to do his lab report. and we're discussing abt some upcoming movies and watched a few clips from youtube den i gotta go for tuition le. ok, my tutee said she left the book in her grandma's house, which i assumed she did it on purpose, coz she din complete my homework. i dun understand, if u dun wan to do tuition homework, den dun have tuition in the first place la! why waste money. but din care, it's my pay day.

Ironically, my pay day, half gone to my piano fees. It's fees day oso. LOL. plus, i advanced to book two of that legendary older beginner's piano book. and it cost me $84 in total. ouch. but for the love of it, it's stil worth it. learnt two new songs.. getting harder..

Tuesday, had that cute sensei's lesson for jap tut.. u noe who he is.. aha.. after the lesson, ty coming to nus for lunch! haha.. so we meet her at the busstop.. al went for his lesson at sc, so kel joined us to wait for pam to come.. at first wanted to give ty surprise, coz we intend to buy her a laptop case, but she buy alr.. LOL. so we have to forget about the script we intended to act out for the surprise.. ah.. haha.. so we had the nice indonesian chicken set meal.. and it's nice.. ty and pam going to psa after the lunch, so i went to my translation lecture.. and kel went to lab to wait for his next lesson.. and i rmbr i forgot to bring my work to lecture!! i spent one day doing it but i forgot it!!! anw, borrowed from bh, and from my stil quite fresh memory, i did my translation again on the spot, coz bh din complete it all. woot.. teacher gave us his ideal answer sheet and bh said mine resembled teachers'! woot~!

Went to the chi lexi lecture after that, and it's another tiring session.. only looking forward to meeting pam n ty after the lect.. den very soon, the lesson ended! we went to the deck and ate at lerk thai's. woo i love the ambiance there.. very cosy and nice.. not much ppl oso.. coz it's alr 6 something. we ordered quite a lot and it's nice.. aha.. den we sat down and tok.. a lot to laugh about.. and only then did i notice, i haven laugh until like that in NUS before.. it's like a dream to hav pam n ty in NUS with me.. i wonder how will it be like if we're in the same sch.. but we aren't and it's sad.. the whole campus seemed more livelier and cozy with them.. i miss those times.. it's been so lonely in sch alone.. i haven found the childish me for a long time.. we ordered coffee from olio cafe's.. chat until 8 something.. den went to as7's printing lab.. ha.. one userid can serve 3 pcs the same time.. lol.. so i print my notes and ty and pam surf online watching movies and handsome guys.. lol.. realli not like wat i can see in the usual sch.. stayed until 9 something.. the ppl gotta close the lab.. so we took bus and train home..

Wed.. i am late for my tutorial.. bh reserved a seat for me.. and i came in so at the last min that the tutor asked me to intro myself.. ah.. kinda ps.. coz she asked me wat's my name.. i told her.. den she asked me to describe my name.. wat can i describe???? 廖。。。婉。。。妍.. for god's sake, create something fancy out of this for me.. i think she did this to me becoz i'm late.. anw, the girl beside me helped me a bit, telling me wat i should say for the tutor.. she looked like Bethia.. n i think she's msian from her tone.. jus looking forward for the lesson to end..

Move on to the jap lesson.. busy with the discussion on the phone with pam.. on wat to get for ty.. LOL.. pam very anxious.. coz i having lessons n she cant get to contact me.. so she duno whether to buy or not.. anw.. lesson.. not bad.. ended very soon, den went to busstop alone, coz kel wanna take bus 10 from krt, and al got project.. met bh at the busstop and tok until i reached raffles place.. goin to orchard to meet pam., for the present.. was so hungry, we went to taka's kfc to eat.. den bought some stuff for ty.. and went home.. so tired.. but still.. read our notes along the way home..

Thursday, went for the chi lit lecture.. ok i reached there jus in time and today we got to buy our textbook for $14.. the book we ordered is here.. seemed not bad.. n i stil love the idea, that wat i had read in the readings are covered in the lecture and it's interesting.. lesson finished, went to lab to print tml geo's lecture notes.. den saw bh.. den gotta go.. mio ppl coming.. on the way home, hj msg me n she's sick! oo i hope she's ok.. din get to see her most of the time this sem.. that's sad.. kel nt accompanyin her, coz he said he got lesson..

Reached home.. lazed around.. i tried reading two long geo readings today.. progress stil not bad.. den the mio person came.. n he quickly finish his stuff and i was so delighted i can get to use wireless now at such a fast speed!!! woot~! went msn.. saw al.. shared wif him my joy.. ha.. den we played sudoku n reversi.. i felt bad for winning him in both games.. anw, it happened that the game i seemed to be losing, but i suddenly get to beat him in the game.. den he said i very bad.. did it on purpose.. n watever.. n he seemed delighted he can piss me off.. sayin wat, "jus dun take my words seriously den u will have a smoother day".. den i replied, "i had nv taken u seriously at all".. n i successfully pissed him back! lol.. ok we're childish..

Also, pam n me are signing up for the work and travel trip to USA.. yep.. information from speedwing.org.. al introduced to me.. students from universities and uni institutes can only apply.. and ya, it's 2008's summer trip to overseas where u work and get paid and for ur own accommodation and so on.. and for a period of two months.. seemed so interesting! but dun think it'd be easy coz got interviews.. and u nv know whether next year will u have clash in exam dates, or financial problems, or parents objections and so on.. ahh.. jus apply first la.. applied for resort jobs at Grand Canyon's lodgings and Yellowstone's..~~~ shall see~~

dried prunes like me

Jap lecture is very very heavy today. 1.5 lessons at one go. so tiring.

ran out of ideas on wat i can write.

Dried.

Tutorials finally started

Been a busy week, since most of the tutorials have started.

Everyone's complaining about jap 3, and saying they're not intending to take jap4. Personally, i think it's still fun, but the workload is kinda terrible. 4 days of jap and for each lesson, be it lecture, you oso gotta do some work or be prepared for it. For the past vacation, i was thinking how days can breeze off in front of me. now, the days zoom pass when i was looking at pieces of paper in front of me and when i haven even realise, it's another week.

Shall share a little bit about sch this week.

On monday, was the jap lecture. taught by 堀江先生。she is good, as everyone taught by her will comment. but her lectures are getting heavier. instead of one chapter per week, she's starting to have 1.5 chapters per week from next week. and for each lecture, we'll have lecture quiz. so though it has webcast, we must still be there. but it's good la, can get to see all frens. HJ, Al, Kel, Jas, PH, BH.

After the lecture, i am free, but having tuition at 3.30, i can only stay for lunch and rush back home to rest a bit then have piano at 7.30. at least, monday is something i do look forward to.

On tuesday, had our first jap TA tut. it was 岡田先生. ha i think he's cute. i duno how to describe how cute he is, but when you get him to teach u, u will think he's cute. haha, and i think girls enjoy his lessons but not guys. XD In this TA, recognise a few frens, got Al, Kel, Rb, JY, Abln.... den we have quiz on TA. and project group forming. our project group will be spending a particular monday on month of october and bring local jap pri6 students to some war memorial museum and have interviews and lunch with them. so our group formed, is Al, Kel, JY, Adl(JY's fren) and me. JY told me he's doin shared major between jap studies and cl, so we can take modules together next time. wo cool..

Too bad, babe HJ had class for this TA slot, so she had the one after, and she got 浜崎先生 for class, but in her class and project group, she got Jas, PH, and Dn(the very loud and funny HK boy)..

For that break after the TA, went to sim with kel to look for pam and gang to have lunch together. gotta rush back to sch before 2pm, so we hurried here and there, den pam n kel went home, but i went back to sch. and i recalled it's raining so very heavily then and there's a terrible car accident somewhere in front of sim. i like sim's ban mee.

Rush back to sch to have the basic translation lecture, ok it's still not bad at least, but it's scary coz the lecturers like to randomly call out names. and we have to shout out our translated verse to him so the whole lecture can criticise. haiyo. den this lecture got set up a forum for ppl to participate and it's counted in our CA, but i din post anything yet. i duno what i can post. maybe say "i agree, or not agree" to each and every post. LOL. is that participating?

After the lecture, got another chi lexi lecture. ok this lecture the class size is pathetically small (no more than 30), and sure u bet all the ppl in this class are cl majors coz it's lv 3 module. so far what the lecturer covered is what has been taught in the lv1 introductory cl module.. hmmm.. like that one oh.. den the exam is oso open book. i wonder how scary will the exam be. by the time i reached home, it's alr 6pm and i recalled doing nth but drop dead on bed.

On wed, got geo tut at 12, so meet kel and we went to the earth lab for the first time. nice comfy lil place, and i bet most of the ppl there are year ones, coz it's introductory module. i like the prof, prof chang.. he's a very humorous person, always having a sweater wrapped around his neck though he nv wear it. his sense of humor is strong n i nv fall asleep in his class. but he is teaching us human geo.. currently touching on issues of geographical imaginations and globalisation.. i wonder how nice it'd be to have such a tutor for GP. sure everyone can score well, coz he jus have the ability to bring out all these dry stuff so interestingly.

After the class, went to jap TB tutorial. our teacher this time is 浅原先生. wa.. she is a very strict and stern teacher, who can rap jap, and though our performance is not bad alr, she demands us more, to speak like local japanese and her english is very pro. heard from HJ she was an eng lit or jap lit major. no wonder.. den she came in to class, ask us randomly to ask her a question each. dat kel go and ask her how old she is.. zzz.. not a gd start.. she a bit fuming.. answered, i was once 23. den ppl ask her where she live, she said somewhere near orchard. ppl ask her got child or not, she said got a twin. very "impressive". take this word literally for its meaning. so dis class, got Al, Kel, Jas, PH, BH, Abln, and a few familiar faces whom i duno their name.

On thur, went to the chi lit lecture at 12 again and i like this lecturer coz he knew what we wun know so he taught us from there. a lot of 文言文, but he taught us well enough that everyone said this module is interesting. so what we're learning? brief introduction of 诗经、论语、战国策、庄子& etc, currently on 楚辞。readings are a lot, but understandable and useful.

After the lect, met up wif hj and kel to have lunch at mac's and studied a bit. then they went for their TC class and i went home. My jap TC tut is on friday morn, not thur evening. For kel n hj's TC, they got 堀江先生, and they think she's fun and great.

On fri, for the TC tut, meet up with Al and our class is very squeezy and small. got a few ppl i know too, got Al, Rb, Rk, Adm, Sdy, and familiar faces. Sdy surprisingly very quiet. i duno why. but our teacher, is 浜崎先生.. so we hit all 4 different teachers.. but al complained he wanted 堀江先生 so much, but din get her. HJ wanted 岡田先生, but she oso din get it. so this is life. the more you wan it, the more u wun get it.

After the tut, went to geo lecture, so meet up with El and HY. den it's another fun lecture, and after the lecture, went to have lunch with El at the deck, and start our project discussion. HY got tut, so she came to join us later. and our discussion was fruitful. now we knew wat we can do now. that's great. we aim to finish the proj before midterm break. 加油加油！

As for the basic translation, we gotta form a project group too, got MT(call her Rain), Vr & Jsl(2 year ones), and one secretive guy called Ang. no one initiate the task, so i contacted them, set up a community and we said we upload our translated text there before we discuss on sunday. still, no one replied. lol. maybe not till the very last min, no one will be worried. ah.. whatever the case, i shall jus be passive and do what i feel like doing in the group wk. it's not like i nv tried. and it's not like everyone wun be getting that same piece of group result. so.. jus set course and let the river flow.. i dun care abt the steering yet.

Hope everything turns out well.

Later got tuition... T.T and meeting TY at nite for dinner at bugis. no time to study le! jia you jia you!!!

短短发泄

今天，好早就起床。有9点的课，不得不7.30就出门。

TC的课有点闷。出了名的吵的她今天好静。好奇怪。

好多作业。烦死了。

累！！

最近好累、好累。。。

身心疲累。

从星期一到今天，我都没碰过键盘。从学校奔波劳累地赶回家，就双脚发麻、双眸垂吊着。想到有作业要赶，就很烦。只想赖在床上不动啦。还没过十点，就觉得很累，一秒就能冲进梦乡。

蟹子好怪。今天他在某课的时候，坐在我旁边，却一直往我这里靠。我像是那么值得依靠的人吗？搞得大半天，他的另一边空着，我和我另一边的男生都要被挤到桌外去了。我很不好意思拒绝他那个project的事。怎么说，都和HY，EL说好了，突然要做这个2~3人的作业，我实在无法违背HY与EL的约定。再说，HY与EL都互不认识。怎么能丢下她们呢？昨晚，蟹子有问起project的事，我已坦白地说会和朋友同伙了。结果，在导课时，导师提起project的事，我问蟹子他要怎么办，要不要乘这个时候找伴。他却在我面前发起闷来，脸色不好看。默默地从背包里拿出手机，冷漠地说：我和我朋友作好了。早知如此，何必当初！有朋友和他同伙，怎么不早说！在蟹子的眼里，我应该很坏吧。

我很讨厌巨蟹男。他们总让我作出一些我平常不会对别人做的‘坏事’。

上了另一个课，牛儿也在。课完了，BH来和我说话。蟹子与他的一个女性朋友走出课室，唯有牛儿在旁等着。我们边说，边走出门，蟹子就走在前头，我还没向牛儿介绍BH，他就头也不回地走了。牛儿看到了，没说什么，我们与蟹子连道别都没有，就走向另一个巴士站了。为什么这样。。。

牛儿最近心事重重。他说他自己也不知道为什么。做朋友的我，只能叫他看开一点咯。

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最近想过，牛肉好吃是好吃，但是，若不是很喜欢，还是别吃的好。养牛的先生最近也把牛肉的价格抬得很高。快要吃不起了。那位先生也说，牛肉不适合我，改吃别的吧。怎么说，观音不吃牛肉吧。

Dead Beat

Am so so so tired these days. Maybe I wasn't that adapted to the fact that I had to commute to school everyday, and having tuition lessons for the whole day on saturday. Anw, i am ending my sat tuition on 8th sept. that will be the last. have i mentioned that here? lol.

Let's say i have a 12pm class. one would think that i do not need to wake up anytime earlier than 10am. But, i need to leave house by 10.45am. and for a snail like me, i duno wat i can be doing, i sometimes can still take more than an hr to prepare for sch, so still, have to wake up at least around 9.30am. In the case that i want to study before that, i will have to wake up at 8am. people will say: "u only 12 den got lesson, why wake up at 8am?"

Nothing much that i can do. piano is getting harder and i don't have time to practise it yet. my desktop makes a roar everytime i switched it on. my LAN connection is dead. i duno why, gotta ask the mio person to fix it next week when he comes. and i din have a proper connection last nite. so.. have to use the net this morn to do updates. so ma fan.. T.T

I miss sleep.

Sunday agenda

It's sunday again!

Many many things I had dreaded until today to complete. I am a procrastinator. Anyway, morning gotta wake up early and helped out my family with the hungry ghost festival thingy. So carried all those canned food/cooked food/whatever edible out to place on a table outside the house, and did some 'ceremonial speech' and pray and wait and burn incense papers. Before i can finally sit down and rest after a busy morning.

Waited for my grandparents and relatives to come to our house and have lunch together. Had a very full meal for lunch. Only then, had i first stepped into my room and panick that i have so many work undone yet.

Ok. Jap lesson 26, 27 and prepare 28. What else? Tml's jap review quiz (more like a test to me), and gotta prepare for that as well. The translation exercise that will be due this tueday's lecture. and so many extra readings thanks to history of chi lit. i took such a long time to finish 2 lecture supplementary readings, now there's 3 more! wth. and 2 geo readings for me to be prepared for its third lecture. and the little compulsory level 3 chi lexicology exercise i had to do for tuesday's lecture as well. this level 3 module is a little too breezeful for me. it's getting scary. all the stuff, understandable and learnt before. just concepts of words and phrases, but it's level 3 module. hmm. haven really start on its project that is due on 10 october. ok, slap me if i haven remind myself when the calendar hits september.

Piano.. it's reaching an end. haven't really perfect on the songs that i have to play this monday(which is tml). and half part of the hungarian dance no.5, and suite from nutcracker's left and that's all for book one. think i have to pay my sch fees along with the new textbook fee next next monday together. so taxing.

What else today? oh i have to iron my clothes. since i am a procrastinator, i don't iron my clothes until there's no other way for me but to iron. that wardrobe has sustained me for two full weeks, and now the cycle goes that i need to re-iron everything again and so be able to live for the next two weeks.

Dad and mom going to watch 881 later. mom wanted me to order the tickets online last nite. hmm.. so loving. it's good to see couples being so loving even when their child hits age 20. shall ask them how's the show. but i am definitely not going to spend 8 bucks on 881. lol. not my cup of tea.

Shall share something funny (to me but maybe not to you) that happened on last friday's geo lecture. The professor was discussing about the concept of geographical imaginations. and that was what people perceived for a particular place according to their own experiences and whatever. so in the previous lecture, the professor divided the lecture group into two, with one drawing the ideological concept map of singapore, the other, the map of the world. and ok, when he showed us one map of singapore that some student had drew, some students very funny. they will draw what they want on the map. some list the mrt stations, some list the expressways, some list fastfood restaurants, some list the islands around sg, some list schools, and any other buildings they know of. and one student, think he/she lives in the east side. he/she drew NUS on the west and add in brackets (freaking far ~!@#$^&). LOL. den our prof said, this is a perception of this student, but if another student who lives in clementi, will that student oso perceive nus as freaking far? LOL. get my joke? LOL. i love that prof. he's so humorous. too bad i can never catch that lecture again. it's just so funny.

Makes me Wonder

First of all, "Happy Birthday to my Mom!"

I had been an evil, mean-y, wicked, selfish person; as from what I had observed myself for a week.

I am so not concerned about how he felt towards me. I just live my life. Either he hates me, or not. I think this is wrong, but i am not about to change. Friends said it wasn't really my fault. Maybe I aren't. But i just feel guilty.

Is guilty = fault? Something to ponder.

Been telling myself this: 有些朋友不值得你去花心思为他们愁。你那么在乎，最后又得到什么？

I just hope he can stop putting on a moody front to us all. It's really dampening all our mood. We did nothing wrong, and he can't expect us to ask him constantly, is there anything troubling you? and you just shrug it off and said, "nah.. just tired."

I really hope this is nothing to do with me.

I just wanna live my life.

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Anyway, regarding school. I am still making time to adapt to all these 'new' system. I always complain that I hate school. I swear when I have nowhere else to go but into the society to work, I will start complaining again that I miss school. So contradicting.

Yeah, school's tough. A lot of readings. and i haven really practice jap. I wonder what am i doing. i am so pissed off with lesson 26. what is it talking about? what an easy start. LOL. next week, all the tutorials are starting. and yes, it now makes me wonder, how my timetable will be like if i did not take jap. Sure gonna be breezzz-y..

浪费时间

最近很会浪费时间。

迷迷茫茫地过日子。什么也不想去想。只知道今天有什么课，规划一下，去学校，回来，每天接二连三地重复着。有点想看开一切。我会的。

好不容易，学校的时间表终于正式地规划好了。有些时间不是我想要的，也没办法。和别人争，总得吃点亏。

这几天，大脑好像没装什么。一直听着“不能说的秘密”的原声带。重复着一遍又一遍。。因该也听了至少50回吧。超赞的！听了，就不由自主地想弹琴，往琴室跑。偶尔有点空，就读读书。看着那些密密麻麻的字，都快把我逼疯了。我最近不爱上MSN。因为，很浪费时间。坐在那，期待着肤浅的回复，了解到时间的珍贵、人性的丑陋。还不如宠宠自己，陪自己多一点。

昨晚，作了个梦。

有个男孩，24岁，向我告白。他的长相，我没看过，但是醒来后，还记得。如果，在街上碰到，我一定认得他。我在工作场合上认识他。我们是朋友。只是朋友。我对他好，他也对我好。但是，有一天，他却要我承认我是喜欢他的。我很困扰。因为我根本对他没意思。他总是驾着一辆银色轿车。有一天，放工后，我等不到巴士，他便邀我上他的车。上了车后，他向我告白。也要我给他回复。我觉得很莫名其妙。他驾着驾着，来到了义顺附近，勾起了我很多回忆。他邀我到他家坐坐。我顿时心中燃起了许多感触、回忆、悲痛。我不想再想起那段时光了！

我在梦里彻彻底底地对他产生了无限反感。一句：“对不起，我还是搭巴士回家。” 我下了车。为自己能够放下一切，开启一条道路的勇气感到骄傲。