以下这段话应该没有什么意思。。。
的确没意思。
知道不知道？不知道就问。问了，哇！
有好多不懂地都懂了。猜中了！应该颁个奖给我自己。拍手。
为了不要XX而问，结果却XX。但是不问，迟早应该也会XX。永远XX。
笑看一切。看看开。
有一种东西叫解脱。有一种东西叫睡觉。
睡了，不记得。突然，脑袋操作，我又记得了！第一次，很肯定地知道我的心脏在左边。
暗暗的房间嘲笑着我的愚昧。这已经不知道是第几次了。睡醒，发现这不是梦。
以前，很开心这不是梦。还高兴得落泪了。这次，只知道什么是痛。没有落泪。我想我是不是变坚强了？还是，我是一个只会喜极而泣的人？
我想要一个指南针。或是一个导路人。我也想喝喝孟婆茶。
*****
我在找人。
找到了！
跑上前去，拍一拍他的肩膀。
‘对不起。我好像认错人了。’
他说：‘没关系’。笑一笑，走了。
21 January 2008
20 January 2008
The Concert & the Movie
星期四，和朋友去吃了Sakae和看了电影Cloverfield。
Cloverfield其实比我想象中的好看。第一次以第一人称的角度来确实地体会到临死前的悲惨。很多人review这部电影很不好看，因为看了很晕、是今年最烂的电影、看了浪费钱等等。但是，我本身认为，这要看你是抱着什么期望来看这部电影。如果你expect ‘LOTR’的视觉效果、或是‘The Day After Tomorrow’的故事性、或是任何Hollywood Oscar-worthy的电影，你可能就要失望了。但如果你是抱着‘看过那么多电影，看腻了，来点新的吧’的电影，这就是必看了。因为这部戏就是那么简单。普普通通的一天、突如其来的怪兽来袭、许多的困惑、死别的悲痛、逃亡的恐惧、与生死有关的抉择、绝望的勇气、感叹、这部戏都真实地表达出来了。有谁还能幼稚地说这是一片什么都没有的‘催晕片’？
星期五。和周杰伦在新加坡室内体育场有约。和pam, 表弟和阿姨meet在Bugis，再一起到kallang去。记得当时很兴奋。终于又可以看到周杰伦在现场演唱！到了那里，不久，体育场是爆满的！很High的气氛。灯一关上，就有很多粉丝尖叫。可惜坐在我附近的都是害羞的年龄层。老老实实地坐在位子上听演唱，看他们憋着情绪，好像很辛苦。因为全场真的是High到不可以！当天刚好是周杰伦的29岁生日，所以周杰伦就让南拳妈妈带动全场唱生日歌给他听。第一次看到这样的场面，想必是个深刻的回忆。接着，周杰伦也有和雨豪表演《不能说的秘密》里的第三首斗琴曲，很精彩！周杰伦也跳了很多break dance、表演了打鼓、演奏古筝等。他和南拳妈妈rearrange的《双节棍》也十分好听。
有机会很想重看！
Cloverfield其实比我想象中的好看。第一次以第一人称的角度来确实地体会到临死前的悲惨。很多人review这部电影很不好看，因为看了很晕、是今年最烂的电影、看了浪费钱等等。但是，我本身认为，这要看你是抱着什么期望来看这部电影。如果你expect ‘LOTR’的视觉效果、或是‘The Day After Tomorrow’的故事性、或是任何Hollywood Oscar-worthy的电影，你可能就要失望了。但如果你是抱着‘看过那么多电影，看腻了，来点新的吧’的电影，这就是必看了。因为这部戏就是那么简单。普普通通的一天、突如其来的怪兽来袭、许多的困惑、死别的悲痛、逃亡的恐惧、与生死有关的抉择、绝望的勇气、感叹、这部戏都真实地表达出来了。有谁还能幼稚地说这是一片什么都没有的‘催晕片’？
星期五。和周杰伦在新加坡室内体育场有约。和pam, 表弟和阿姨meet在Bugis，再一起到kallang去。记得当时很兴奋。终于又可以看到周杰伦在现场演唱！到了那里，不久，体育场是爆满的！很High的气氛。灯一关上，就有很多粉丝尖叫。可惜坐在我附近的都是害羞的年龄层。老老实实地坐在位子上听演唱，看他们憋着情绪，好像很辛苦。因为全场真的是High到不可以！当天刚好是周杰伦的29岁生日，所以周杰伦就让南拳妈妈带动全场唱生日歌给他听。第一次看到这样的场面，想必是个深刻的回忆。接着，周杰伦也有和雨豪表演《不能说的秘密》里的第三首斗琴曲，很精彩！周杰伦也跳了很多break dance、表演了打鼓、演奏古筝等。他和南拳妈妈rearrange的《双节棍》也十分好听。
有机会很想重看！
16 January 2008
c-h-a-n-g-e
Before I notice anything, it's half way through the week.
First week of school: CHANGES.
Huge changes to everything that I had once grown so accustomed with.
Jap class lecturer is changed. Haven't attend the first lecture yet; either it's a change for the better or the worse. No familiarities. Plus, friends taking with me, are so much different. I miss year 1 sem 2.
3 CL core modules again. Pretty serious work. People around me, mostly are CL majors. We knew each other, but we don't know each other. You know what I mean?
People I used to see, I am seeing them LESS. or MORE. It's so unpredictable.
I am spending more time on my own. To be exact, more time in my thoughts. So what was I thinking? No idea. My dreams I had at night, are LONG. I dreamt that I was a role in an RPG game, created/drafted by my mind, and showcased some characters whom are people I knew. I crossed several stages. I spent the whole night in an adventure.
I don't look forward to balloting.
I look forward to Jay's concert.
Balloting and Jay's concert is on the same day.
So shall i look forward or shall i not?
First week of school: CHANGES.
Huge changes to everything that I had once grown so accustomed with.
Jap class lecturer is changed. Haven't attend the first lecture yet; either it's a change for the better or the worse. No familiarities. Plus, friends taking with me, are so much different. I miss year 1 sem 2.
3 CL core modules again. Pretty serious work. People around me, mostly are CL majors. We knew each other, but we don't know each other. You know what I mean?
People I used to see, I am seeing them LESS. or MORE. It's so unpredictable.
I am spending more time on my own. To be exact, more time in my thoughts. So what was I thinking? No idea. My dreams I had at night, are LONG. I dreamt that I was a role in an RPG game, created/drafted by my mind, and showcased some characters whom are people I knew. I crossed several stages. I spent the whole night in an adventure.
I don't look forward to balloting.
I look forward to Jay's concert.
Balloting and Jay's concert is on the same day.
So shall i look forward or shall i not?
14 January 2008
Before School
It's been awhile.
I finally secured my 5 modules. I must admit that i dreaded school so much to the extent that i hate receiving announcements from the IVLE and i hate finding myself some new files in the workbin. I am so lazy!! I should not be so spoilt right? People still worrying about securing 5 modules, and here I am, pissed that some of these modules are already giving me serious work to do. I just cannot accept the fact that school is really on this week, and for me, tomorrow will be the first day of school.
I can even get bad-moody when i was to think that i have to rank my tutorial slots for balloting soon, and i don't want my already packed and unhappy timetable to look more unhappier, if I can't secure those ideal slots that I wanted.
I hate CORS system. Too much flexibility comes with too much responsibility, and, a higher chance of mistakes and failures.
Went to visit my relative's shop a few days ago. They asked my mom what am i learning in NUS. Mom replied, 'everything'. I met an auntie, she said her niece is also schooling in NUS. I asked her what's her niece's course. She said, 'everything'. LOL. Yeah, too much exposure and freedom for us to choose what we want to learn. We're like practically spending half of our uni life learning things out of our major subject. So, we learn EVERYTHING in NUS. Not bad.
Tutoring my new tutee was a pleasure. I really love teaching her. She was so studious and i can tell she really love the process of learning. Hope i can help her pull up her grades in school. At least, this is the first time, that I had fun teaching people, and a 'student' of mine is happy to see me, coz she gets to learn what she wanted.
Rather bad mood these days. Had a rough time talking to people. and i am getting real tired of making friends. It's already tiring enough to maintain friendships. Worse, friends you keep now don't really treat u worthy enough either. I had been reflecting on myself these years. There is just too many kind of people out there whom i haven really know how to mingle with them. It's a pleasure to meet, but what's after that is just another issue to ponder. Some friends, are friends only when they see you. When they're not, i think i wasn't remembered. and i admit i had prioritized the honor of friendship a bit too much. I sometimes blame on astrology, which was a very silly thing to do. Cause, I have read that Leos are social animals, and they thrive on relationships with people. They give a lot in friendships, and they retreated back when they are left cold. The warm lion heart is unable to survive in this cold world.
Still, this is not a mature thought. If emotions can be controlled this easy, i wonder how lame i can be. I was fortunate to find peace in music. Playing on the piano is always an immediate cure to me, and i was glad that my passion found its place.
Maybe, for 2008, my resolution will be: Learn to live in this world alone.
I finally secured my 5 modules. I must admit that i dreaded school so much to the extent that i hate receiving announcements from the IVLE and i hate finding myself some new files in the workbin. I am so lazy!! I should not be so spoilt right? People still worrying about securing 5 modules, and here I am, pissed that some of these modules are already giving me serious work to do. I just cannot accept the fact that school is really on this week, and for me, tomorrow will be the first day of school.
I can even get bad-moody when i was to think that i have to rank my tutorial slots for balloting soon, and i don't want my already packed and unhappy timetable to look more unhappier, if I can't secure those ideal slots that I wanted.
I hate CORS system. Too much flexibility comes with too much responsibility, and, a higher chance of mistakes and failures.
Went to visit my relative's shop a few days ago. They asked my mom what am i learning in NUS. Mom replied, 'everything'. I met an auntie, she said her niece is also schooling in NUS. I asked her what's her niece's course. She said, 'everything'. LOL. Yeah, too much exposure and freedom for us to choose what we want to learn. We're like practically spending half of our uni life learning things out of our major subject. So, we learn EVERYTHING in NUS. Not bad.
Tutoring my new tutee was a pleasure. I really love teaching her. She was so studious and i can tell she really love the process of learning. Hope i can help her pull up her grades in school. At least, this is the first time, that I had fun teaching people, and a 'student' of mine is happy to see me, coz she gets to learn what she wanted.
Rather bad mood these days. Had a rough time talking to people. and i am getting real tired of making friends. It's already tiring enough to maintain friendships. Worse, friends you keep now don't really treat u worthy enough either. I had been reflecting on myself these years. There is just too many kind of people out there whom i haven really know how to mingle with them. It's a pleasure to meet, but what's after that is just another issue to ponder. Some friends, are friends only when they see you. When they're not, i think i wasn't remembered. and i admit i had prioritized the honor of friendship a bit too much. I sometimes blame on astrology, which was a very silly thing to do. Cause, I have read that Leos are social animals, and they thrive on relationships with people. They give a lot in friendships, and they retreated back when they are left cold. The warm lion heart is unable to survive in this cold world.
Still, this is not a mature thought. If emotions can be controlled this easy, i wonder how lame i can be. I was fortunate to find peace in music. Playing on the piano is always an immediate cure to me, and i was glad that my passion found its place.
Maybe, for 2008, my resolution will be: Learn to live in this world alone.
11 January 2008
NEW sem coming
School is starting next week. Fast huh?
Had several heart straining with the effect of CORS bidding. Now i finally got 5 modules. super ex for the intro to computing..zz!
Finally going to decide what tut slots to ballot for. The ranking is going to be another thrill ride to me.
I hate the start of every sem la!
Had several heart straining with the effect of CORS bidding. Now i finally got 5 modules. super ex for the intro to computing..zz!
Finally going to decide what tut slots to ballot for. The ranking is going to be another thrill ride to me.
I hate the start of every sem la!
07 January 2008
Castlevania
偶然间找到Castlevania的Artbook, 就是这本：
Castlevania 是 Konami 的其中一系列电玩游戏。关于这个游戏我不是很清楚啦~但是，它的graphics是美的咯！很有古典欧美的贵族色彩，而且故事应该是讲述吸血僵尸吧。所以男生都很美丽！
Artbook 里的一些图片：
很漂亮吧？
*今天有久违了的钢琴课。
*最近流行把周杰伦的《甜甜的》set为ringtone。。。
Castlevania 是 Konami 的其中一系列电玩游戏。关于这个游戏我不是很清楚啦~但是，它的graphics是美的咯！很有古典欧美的贵族色彩，而且故事应该是讲述吸血僵尸吧。所以男生都很美丽！
Artbook 里的一些图片：
很漂亮吧？*今天有久违了的钢琴课。
*最近流行把周杰伦的《甜甜的》set为ringtone。。。
06 January 2008
今年要更忙了！
决定了。
今天决定多教一个tutee。我很幸运。是曾经教过的tutee的妈妈介绍地，也住在我家附近。这个tutee也是M-category， pri5，两科：maths and science。Science很难教哩。昨天和pam到pop走走，看了那些教科书，是不容易的咯。First chapter就是'The Solar System'。我是挺有信心啦，但是对我自己的英文表达能力，就有点er hem... 现在的小孩pri5好像什么都学！Cells,reproduction in humans，这些不是我们以前中学才学的咯！现在他们已经在学了。也难怪，新加坡的小孩很没有童年。
就这样，开学后会更忙了。。星期一有中三数学的补习和钢琴课、星期三和星期六也有小学的补习。为了教人、也为了$$，会努力的！忙了也好，我不想有太多多余的时间遐想。。这样也会活得更充实。。
今年21岁了。一定有很多21岁Bday party得出席。多赚点钱也是好的啦~！
今天决定多教一个tutee。我很幸运。是曾经教过的tutee的妈妈介绍地，也住在我家附近。这个tutee也是M-category， pri5，两科：maths and science。Science很难教哩。昨天和pam到pop走走，看了那些教科书，是不容易的咯。First chapter就是'The Solar System'。我是挺有信心啦，但是对我自己的英文表达能力，就有点er hem... 现在的小孩pri5好像什么都学！Cells,reproduction in humans，这些不是我们以前中学才学的咯！现在他们已经在学了。也难怪，新加坡的小孩很没有童年。
就这样，开学后会更忙了。。星期一有中三数学的补习和钢琴课、星期三和星期六也有小学的补习。为了教人、也为了$$，会努力的！忙了也好，我不想有太多多余的时间遐想。。这样也会活得更充实。。
今年21岁了。一定有很多21岁Bday party得出席。多赚点钱也是好的啦~！
04 January 2008
BEST Movie OST
The Best Movie OST of all times!
Lux Aeterna (from Lord of the Rings), by Clint Mansell
The remix for the movie,
OMG! i finally found it!!! XD
Lux Aeterna (from Lord of the Rings), by Clint Mansell
The remix for the movie,
OMG! i finally found it!!! XD
介绍好听的歌
前几天看完了‘hana yori dango' japanese drama season 2。很好看！让我很有那股重看漫画的冲动。XD
这里介绍大家在戏里出现的OST，很好听！
这个是main theme，听了，有点harry potter的感觉。XD
这首叫‘cloudy noon’，很有slow rock 的感觉。Bento 可以听听看，我觉得你应该会喜欢。听完了，会有股想学electronic guitar 的冲动。XD
和cloudy noon一样旋律的一首歌。这首歌叫'tsukushi'，也就是杉菜的名字。但是，这首歌的感觉是很‘canon in d’ 的那种。喜欢symphonic arrangement的朋友可以听听看。
这首呢？叫作‘blue mind’。是和前两首一样旋律的一首歌，但是，是钢琴独奏！想要piano solo version的话，可以听听看。
这首歌叫‘glacial’。很有Narnia, Lord of the Rings-风味的歌。这首歌通常都出现在道明寺的妈妈出现的时候。其实很好听！挺难想象这么一首好歌竟然出现在drama里。XD
轻快的钢琴曲！伤心的朋友听了，会觉得世上是还有希望的。Waltz-感十足！
*这些歌都有放在playlist里，有空请尽情欣赏！
这里介绍大家在戏里出现的OST，很好听！
这个是main theme，听了，有点harry potter的感觉。XD
这首叫‘cloudy noon’，很有slow rock 的感觉。Bento 可以听听看，我觉得你应该会喜欢。听完了，会有股想学electronic guitar 的冲动。XD
和cloudy noon一样旋律的一首歌。这首歌叫'tsukushi'，也就是杉菜的名字。但是，这首歌的感觉是很‘canon in d’ 的那种。喜欢symphonic arrangement的朋友可以听听看。
这首呢？叫作‘blue mind’。是和前两首一样旋律的一首歌，但是，是钢琴独奏！想要piano solo version的话，可以听听看。
这首歌叫‘glacial’。很有Narnia, Lord of the Rings-风味的歌。这首歌通常都出现在道明寺的妈妈出现的时候。其实很好听！挺难想象这么一首好歌竟然出现在drama里。XD
轻快的钢琴曲！伤心的朋友听了，会觉得世上是还有希望的。Waltz-感十足！
*这些歌都有放在playlist里，有空请尽情欣赏！
03 January 2008
New Year~
New year just begun.. Been slacking off my days, lazing at home, sleeping so late, waking up only so late.. and doing nothing but being a potato couch. XD need to rest well before i can survive for the next coming sem ma.. haha..
New year's eve, been so 'blue' and i really had a strong urge to get out of the house. So met up with pam so last min. Went to the countdown at cwp with pam, and we were having some late night coffee at starbucks, when yl suddenly greeted us. haha. wk, my and wk's sis were oso there. they had came for the countdown too. so coincidental. so we sat together and we went to the outdoor celebration soon after. Very soon, the countdown started! Was rather surprised there are fireworks. Haha, had a very nice time looking at fireworks, and being amazed by it. After that, we decided to walk our way home to admiralty before we took our buses home.
Finally, the bidding days have started.. Decided to take 3 CL modules, one jap4 and one module: intro to computing with HJ.. ha, seemed nice.. but next sem is another 5 day week for me.. *Sobx*
New year's eve, been so 'blue' and i really had a strong urge to get out of the house. So met up with pam so last min. Went to the countdown at cwp with pam, and we were having some late night coffee at starbucks, when yl suddenly greeted us. haha. wk, my and wk's sis were oso there. they had came for the countdown too. so coincidental. so we sat together and we went to the outdoor celebration soon after. Very soon, the countdown started! Was rather surprised there are fireworks. Haha, had a very nice time looking at fireworks, and being amazed by it. After that, we decided to walk our way home to admiralty before we took our buses home.
Finally, the bidding days have started.. Decided to take 3 CL modules, one jap4 and one module: intro to computing with HJ.. ha, seemed nice.. but next sem is another 5 day week for me.. *Sobx*
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