Yeah~~~~

Exam's finally finished!! But looks abit indifferent coz many of my frens are stil having exams.. Minna-san! Gambatte ne!!

Felt so relieved that now everythin is over n this time i wanna enjoy life!! wanna play audition n i aim to become a clubber by next sem.. haha.. seemed impossible.. i'm stil at lv ten.. i wanna change my blogskin.. gonna draw up another one, and made a totally fresh change.. and not forgetting to draw an anime version of HJ and Rn.. promised them.. haha.. i will try to draw them soon!! and oso i wanna rebond.. my hair is in a total mess.. oh ya i oso gotta go check up on my thigh.. there seems to be a huge lump there and have been present for quite some time.. but i'm afraid that i'd need to go for an operation to get it removed... hmm.. got many things to do.. next sem shall be better than this sem huh!!

Having history paper this evening.. weird timing as ytdy again.. well, sw paper was hard.. n i took extra care that i read the instructions carefully this time.. hmm.. when attempting the mcq questions, i felt like i was doing the singapore social studies paper mcq.. the feeling's quite alike.. like u gotta refer to ur environment n make guesses out of common sense.. reached home at nine ytdy! it was so late! the paper ended at seven but duno who counted the papers wrongly, n we're held back for like 30 mins.. until 7.30 den we're allowed to leave.. omg.. so went to take the bus.. n saw bus 95, i think i'd wait for bus 96.. since it's more convenient for me.. n i missed two 96 after that! n end up taking 95.. xian.. too many ppl at the bus stop!

Received an sms from M ytdy again, at night.. n guess what she asked me this time.. "is the history paper at five?" omg.. please la! is this ur first time having exams and u need mommy to bring u there? we can check rite? all the details are there and y cant u be confident enough? i really duno wat to say of her.. the more i think that many of my frens cant make it here n in this place it is dominated by so many dicky-attitude, no-initiative, lazy n bossy ppl, i feel so angry.. so this will be the ppl who gets a degree n continue to boss their way thru life..

Tml will be my last paper.. jap lang.. i really regret that my timetable this sem is a total disaster.. i din plan well for my curriculum time and even my exam is a mess. bad time management.. but it's hard to plan wif 6 modules la, plus u're taking up a super heavy module (language).. wa.. next sem cannot be like this again.. i will die.. shall think wisely.. i really dun have time to prepare for my exams.. all dates are crammed together.. heard from Al, he had planned it that his exams ended late, but he had a lot of time to study in between for each module.. now he had finished all his revision n was just readin them thru again n again.. but sc module ma.. mainly concept based.. but arts.. u need to argue, but w/o the facts how to argue.. so in the end u stil have to cram ur stuff into ur brain at a short period of time.. y cant they made our arts modules be open-booked? i think this is better.. and i doubt i can score well too if i'm given the facts.. coz it's really hard to argue.. i hate arguing...

Morning.. will be havin my sw paper this evening.. at 5.. weird period of time to have an exam.. so this means i will make myself get stucked in the peak hr traffic jam again..

Received another sms this morn.. from M.. well, y do i always receive such infuriating sms in the morning? well, M asked me if i know how to study history and how to separate them into the respective themes.. omg.. history paper is not next week, it's tml! and for once, ppl, can u all please dun be so shameful? can u please plan ahead of ur time? dun always wait till the last min den come n look for me for answers? and what do u think i am? ur wonderful answering machine? and dun u expect me to spoon-feed u please.. it's ur responsibility that u study on ur own rite? i realli duno how u made ur way here to uni with this kind of personality.. and for goodness sake, have u think before u sms me? do u know what r u asking and what kind of answer do u expect? such a question i dun think the lecturer is able to answer for u at this point of time.. omg.. i replied that i wasnt studyin for history and i wasnt sure myself either.. wat do u wan me to reply? "oh dear M, i'm sorry that u din't know n i realli hope u can get an A so let's meet up later somewhere n i'll teach u everythin and organise everythin for u and let's not tok about my other modules that i have to study." smack the swine..

i think i shall not bother myself by making my contact so readily available in the future.. n i really see a change in my personality that i think most pp in this world, u dun need to be nice n friendly to them coz they're not nice to u either.. what do they think of u anyway? just someone whom they can tap on and so what benefit do i get? i made my efforts and u sit highly there with the smirk face and all the showers of success befall on u? and u act ignorantly when i need u and think that u can bother me with another request in the near future and expect me to serve like a slave to u? now all these pp.. please, piss off..

i think some of my friends will oso agree with me in this instance.. well, let's hope and pray that these ppl can just stop pestering us and make our life easier..

I'm totally devastated..

Had my chinese paper this afternoon.. it was not easy.. and what's worse..? i attempted the wrong questions.. What has happened to me? i know there will be two parts of the paper.. first part is the history and second part is the literature.. each part carrying 50% of the paper and that will total up to 100%.. and the first part got 2 questions, each carrying parts A and B.. so in total, part one (the history part) will have four questions.. and i duno how i read the instructions la! i made a very silly mistake and i dun even felt that i had made one even until i submitted the paper after two hrs.. maybe it's common sense that you will attempt part 1a and 1b together or part 2a and 2b.. i go and do part 1a and 2b.. die... i was devastated.. each question was 25%..

On my way home.. i'm in a state of hollowness.. haha i duno la.. just feel hollow.. i got a shock and i wasn't recovering.. erm.. what i can managed to do.. is gave prof lee an email.. informing him of my mistake and apologising to him.. i duno how it will become. but i noe i will not do well, and this is just the first paper (which is counted into the GPA score).. good luck to me...

Stupid you.. what have you been thinking? now see ur efforts gone to waste.. continue to dream..

Sob..

Sunday.. I hate Sunday because Monday is the day I dread.. I don't like mondays..

Well, will be having my chinese paper tml.. good luck to me.. I realli duno how to attend these exams because I felt like we're taught of the theories on swimming and tomorrow will be the first time we get to swim on the real pool.. What's given to u auditorily will be put to use tml.. and whether u can utilise ur given information well is up to ur luck and efforts.. hmm.. first swim huh.. good luck to me.. hope that i wun drown..

Well, these few days had been revising history and it's real information loading.. i finally get to piece the whole picture of the history of Asia, but the pieces I formed are still somewhat blur.. and the edges are crooked.. I duno how to study history and I think i lack the time to study, all thanks to my inconsistency.. what have i been doing for the past few weeks? taking up 6 modules is not easy..

Hmm.. Attended a fren's bro funeral ytdy.. it was sad.. life is just so fragile.. her bro was stil so young and we were lost for words to console her when we see her at the wake.. her eyes were swollen from the crying and she still try to make efforts to break the ice in that situation.. feel painful to see that.. unfortunate that they do not even know the reasons for his death..

This brings me back to the thinking whether we shall spend so much time on studying these unrealistic facts that have no actual practical use for our future.. what can we do with this info? pass them on to let the others pass them on?? Life...

Had my english paper this morning.. Was quite difficult! It was a little bit more difficult than the assignments we did in class.. Especially the grammar editing part.. today's theme was about feminism.. got quite a lot of things you can write about that.. because one of my past eng essays and history essays I had covered some of these ideas in the topic of gender and sexism.. Well, the sad part is that I dun have time to sort out my thoughts.. we're supposed to finish everything in 2 hr 15 min and it was quite irritating as we were sharing room with another group of students.. i duno which module but every now and then, there're announcements for them to change some errors in their papers or tell them to stop writing etc.. (their paper was 2 hrs).. so, this essay will weigh 70% of the whole of today's paper.. oh no.. and the question is.. something like whether women should play a more important role at home or in the economy.. recalled that the teacher had gone through some thing like this in the class before.. was this the hint last time?? hope i can pass..

Well, one thing i found out these few days and maybe even earlier, was that travelling is bad for health.. it's totally bad for ur health in the physical sense and emotional sense.. especially in peak hours.. or rainy days.. u get to see and encounter so many things you wish u have nv seen.. no doubt that sporeans are kiasu..sometimes i think that this kind of personality is inevitable when such a large number of people are crammed into such a small country.. and there's so little time for so many things to be done.. especially when you're on the way home.. everyone is tired and hungry, but most of us are so unlucky that we have to travel to someowhere far everyday.. we dun have our schs or workplace rite at our doorsteps.. everyone is so anxious to get home.. yet, there're so many people.. we cant hop on bus, or trains, and even if we did, we can only stand and grab on unreliable poles to prevent falling over from the continuous jerking of the bus due to the traffic jam.. if we're lucky enough to grab a seat, we can practically do nothing with ur sweaty neighbour sitting beside you and the large bag knocking onto you most of the time from the lady standin beside you..

On the train, what's worse, no one wanna move in to the center of the car and even if they did, there're stupid people who thought that the poles are a bed for them. They lie on to the pole and think that the world is fine.. and the train jerks like mad most of the time.. and so what can we hold onto?? i sometime really wish that the pole conducts electricity and any one lying totally on it will get electrified and jumped.. lol.. if you get to lean on the glass beside the doors, there're weird uncles most of the time who thought there's no one behind them and when they stand in front of you, their back is facing you and they stand like they're almost lying on to you or that they think you have 1m of spacious gap around you. this is totally suffocating and irritating.. well, usually had nothing better than to protect myself by fake-coughing continuously or mumble a stern "excuse-me"...

Walking home... i nv felt happy strolling my way home.. it was a continous battle of the minds with the other people walking around you... alighted the train, my next step is to board a bus.. and that's quite some distant away which requires walking.. so for fear of missing the bus.. we walk quickly.. but what i can say is that not everyone walks in the same direction and from bird-eye view, i think you will see something like air particles bombarding with each other at quite a high speed.. and it's quite like a game and you kinda acquire a technique by walking quickly and yet at the same time preventin uself from knockin into other people. one biggest problem is that people always thought that the whole world is what they see in front of them.. many times i encountered people who just stop so suddenly to do whatever they want and i ended up knocking into them.. den they will turn and give you a kind of WTH look.. xian.. worse, they were talking with a fren and they just suddenly turn back to point at something and end up pointing at you or poking you.. please.. spare more thoughts for the people around you.. if you're not in a rush, and the passage way is just so small, give way to the people behind you.. and dun walk like you're strolling in the park.. and i hate people who walk in an "S" manner.. see how S is spelt and you will noe what i mean.. on escalators oso.. stand on the left la! you're standing on the right and you see the whole stretch of empty passage way in front of u and a long queue of people behind you waiting for you to scram you not ashamed ah?

A travelling time of at least 2 hrs each day is enough to damage ur character as you have scolded so many mean words in your mind.. this triggers quick temper too.. blame the inconsiderations of every people..

Exam finally starts tml!! Scary sia.. hope can managed it.. hmm..

Now in sch.. mugging.. Sigh.. Studying.. Boring exam days....

Well, let's talk something about mom.. she has been recovering these days just that sometimes she got a little giddy and having discomforts, but overall, she has been better... Well, we dun encouraged her to work, becoz it will be real tough for her since there will be travelling to be done.. den somemore she can get quite emotionally affected with the people at her work. So, now, she's working from home now as a tailor.. i think she's real talented as she knew how to make dresses, wedding and night gowns, baju kurung, cheongsams, alterations etc.. and she realli know how to handle the customers.. most of her customers are malays and she stil can communicate with them in malay.. nice..

But one bad thing about it was that pillow will bark at the malays.. it's quite bad becoz most muslims are afraid of dogs and pillow dun bark friendly at them.. hmm.. luckily some customers still come back.. but some customers really dread of coming back ever again n mom loses her customers..

Hope mommy's business can succeed.. she's enjoying herself now as it was quite an easy way to earn money n you can work from home and managing ur time at ur own will.. she now receives a call each day and they're new customers.. ^^

Well, gotta go mug le!! maybe coming back to blog later.. =P

I'm tired...

So very super tired..

Tired.. x1000000

Ok enough of my lameness.. well, went back to sch today wif jes and we studied social wk. well, i really have no idea if this was a fruitful revision or not becoz i found that i'm reading "common sense" written on notes, drafted out, graphed out nicely and made to be pro-looking.. well, one thing i dun realli like about these academic staff is that they like to give a specific term to anythin they think is theorised.. say for example.. intervention.. well, so some problems occured and the community council wanna step in to help (or known as intervention here).. and here, it was again classified into primary, sec, tertiary... and each has its purpose and examples.. n so these r what it called frameworks.. concepts.. Boosheet... zzzz.. things have been made complicated..

Had enough of reading those things la.. i want a rest la!! friday will be my first paper.. english.. hope i can pass.. no high hopes.. just pass! i dun wanna take eng again..

Met HJ's sister ytdy.. so kawaii! miniature of HJ actually just that she has longer hair.. lol.. even her laughter's identical to that of HJ.. family production.. lol..nice! cute! wonder how will life be like to have a sibling.. well, maybe in my next life...

Tml's meeting HJ up again.. gotta sleep early tonight.. i'm real tired.......

Tuesday morning.

Woke up with an sms. Well guess who. It was that Sj. And guess what she said? "Giv me the chapters we gotta study for chi n dun tel me from ur memory".. wth.. is this the way u request something? this is not the first time and i'm really pissed with ppl who dun have basic manners. before that a few weeks ago she have oso demanded that i let her know the chapters we gotta prepare for the exams.

So, i'm reali pissed and you know, ppl dun wake up with a gd mood if their sleep was interrupted.. so i dun care how she will feel, i replied that "y cant u do things on ur own n sorry i'm busy". yet, she stil hve the face to reply that she's not sure that's y n that i shldnt feel so irritated.. oh my goodness.. this world is really filled wif tons of weird ppl and i'm sure most of them have made their way into the sch as well.. at least i bothered to reply her that the lecturers only dropped hints on which chapters we have to study specifically on. n guess what she stil replies that "oh i'm afraid that i've missed out, but u know wat? being angry first thing in the morning is bad for ur skin." oh thanks sj. You're the trigger and i'm highly appreciated for what you have done. your mere existence has showered me with irritations i have nv felt so intensively, now pissed off!

Meeting HJ up later on in sch to study and today realli gotta bucker up! At least now i feel that i can get the whole picture of chi after these few days of studies but it is not completed yet. But another problem is history. I have nv found history as an easy subject. my mind is not built to memorise facts. Well, just try my best huh and it seemed that u cant get away wif history as long as u stay in Arts.. well well.. will be seeing HJ's sister later on too!! nice nice~~ XD

Monday.. Well, first monday I don't have to make my way to school. I'm staying at home to study!! Well, still gotta return to school to get back my history paper. Don't know how will be my grades. I really have no idea how to write a history paper and I think my arguments are vague. But still, I don't wish to get a C. Can I get a B?

I miss Ouran High School Host Club!! Only got to watch the anime series until episode 16.. Bro YJ says he wanna burn the remaining parts for me.. Was so touched! Lol.. He don't even want me to pay him the DVD-R.. I SHALL TREAT HIM!! lol..

Some pics from Ouran...

the funny twins fight..

The Host Club!

XD